^My LiFe^...My WaY Of DoInG...

End of the chapter

2008-01-17T11:17:00.000-08:00

..End of the Chapter for this blog..

..I shall start another blog..

new blog, new life. haha

Guilt came over mi

2007-12-05T16:44:00.000-08:00

Today then i noe the reasons for coach not to come the las match.. he was admitted to the hospital.. i felt so guilty. cos we did blame him for not coming tt we lost. Cos all of us believe that if he's coaching us tt day.. we'll win for sure...But i'm sorri.. we didnt noe n we lost tt match.. making us unable to proceed and get our 3rd position. But aft knowing this, the fire of mi n ah qin came stronger! Not onli we'll do our best tml, we'll win!!!! n we MUST! no matter wat, we'll nv gif up.. even without coach! We must jia u! HKN will nv fall like tt! I'll be a total different person tml! i promise!

Let's do it again gals... JIA U!

*prays- may all my teammates be well n play well tml.. we must win.. we must do our best...*

I'm goin in circles...

2007-12-04T18:05:00.000-08:00

Been like 1 month since i last blogged... Was busy with work... Stressed up with work.. aft tt entering nov was more chaotic.. Work n women's open made mi even more tiring.. physically n mentally drained out. We are doin pretty fine in the 1st round..tho we lost to aljunied. Was being trashed by them... and the worst ting is tt the nxt day we are against nayang alumni. It was totally great tt we manage to suppress them n won.. 2nd round was not as smooth sailing as we thought it will be.. we lost of 1st 2 matches.. Ling yun n T-net. everyone tot we would win but it turns out to be another way round. Feelin devasted... the feeling of helplessness on the bench when ur teammates is fighting on the court n struggling.. i was looking at the stock clock.. the time just pass... then beeepppp.... end of the game.. we lost.. I'm sorry i walked away.. i'm sorry i left u guys when all of u are sad. but i couldnt take it.. this time, i didnt cry at all.. just no tears.. i just stoned... was it mi? why my team always haf this fate? why? It must be mi... I could feel alot of them will be leaving the team aft this season.. then hkn will be back to square 1 again.. the tot of asking ppl to stay, the tot of having new teammates again make mi so tired. It's always like tt.. ppl has been telling mi- come back again nxt yr... but my answer to them will be.. i duno whether i could tahan till nxt yr with my current condition..i dunno if my team will split again.. i dunno hw to get tt medal animore. Everyone gave mi faith tt we'll get it this yr.. but the dream seems totally far away.. totally.. i dunno i duno..

But dun worri gals... as long as the season hasnt end.. i'll still be in the team fighting.. cos i reali love u gals. i just hope this season will nv end cos i want us to stay as a team..

=(

The passion had to go..

2007-10-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

Passion for ball is one ting, whether u could play it well is another ting. I had tis great passion for bb when i was 12. It started all bcos of a guy. We form up a team n played for the sch. we got third although there's onli 4 teams in total. My captain was the famous Sarah Lim from aes then. It was her whu encouraged all of us n inspired mi to play. I got so hooked up on balls n played almost everyday. Disappointment sets in when i went to secondary sch bcos there's no basketball team. But it was then formed when i was sec 2. I'm one of the pioneer batch. Tis was where i found the most wonderful teammates. we went tru thin n thick tgt. We aint strong at all but we r united.. We train hard tgt n i love them. May it's fated abt my life or it's trying to tell mi tt i'm not talented for basketball... b4 the selection during sec 2.. i broke my arm.. i didnt managed to play and i became a assisant coach then. sec 3, there's not enuff B gals so we got to wait for the C's to turn B's. So sec 4 which is my last yr of west zone n oso my first yr. Dun u tink it's kinda of suay?.... We lost to hua yi sec and we fail to enter top 4. We are juz a step away. I cried so bad then Ms chua told jo.. it's alrite u'll haf nxt yr.. then i cried even more.. I haf no nxt yr! Everyting juz dun go the way i wanted.. my coach told mi he'll open a youth team for us..so i wasted 1 yr waiting. I didnt mind at all cos i wanted to play with the same team again. It was my first n last youth cup when i started playing. It's alwasys first n last. Aft tt.. we struggled in the team... my teammates left mi... slowly all of them.. including jo. Jo was the last to leave.. she was there always for mi.. thanks mei. oh to mention, women's open i haf onli play once. haha cos i waited again when all of them were in youth cup.. So if u tink i'm v experience or skilled.. u're wrong.. i'm not.. I've played lesser than anione of u out there. I spend my whole life juz waiting... this current team told mi they'll realised my dream.. to get my first trophy.. they promised n some broke their promise.. I juz feel sad.. depressed... we left 10 ppl in our team rite now. ytd i had quarallel with some of them during the game. To mi i feel tt i m right cos it's discipline. But to them it's embarassment to shout during the game. The way they say mi ytd gave mi a big tight slap in my face. I've woke up. n i noe i've replied harshly too.

I felt i m no longer needed in the team animore. I couldnt contribute at all. No matter hw hard i try, i'm still like tt... i couldnt play well at all. All my yrs of bb i'm trying to overcome myself and try to improve to a better player.. but i couldnt. I didnt improve n yet i de-proved. The way i played juz pissed ppl off. I couldnt get rebounds n i couldnt score. During past few trainings, I've tried to shoot.. I juz missed the hell out of mi. Every ball juz wont went it. My shootings sucks a big hell time. I've tried to stay optimistic but i couldnt animore. I'm juz lying to myself. I cant play ball n this is the truth. HQ ytd msg mi n told mi not to give up but i was the one whu encourage her n she bcum like tis.. But HQ... I've tried for 8 yrs.. I've stay optimistic for 8 yrs.. i've been lying to myself for 8 yrs... I'm still like tt.. tell mi how.. tell mi wat i can do? train? I've train harder than ani1 out there..but.. i'm still like tt. wat can i do? Now i haf to tolerate the shits that the coach gave.. Wat is he to mi? why do i haf to tolerate all that? I had enuff of him.. I'm breaking dwn.. i'm goin insane. why play ball when it's so xinku? why play ball when u haf tried 8 yrs n it didnt work. Passion just died totally. I tot i wont bear to stop balling.. but aft ytd.. everyting's clear.. v clear... wat jew say is true.. It'll nv be the same animore... Why pursue so long when it like tt.. I'm stubborn n i pursue.. but now i realised i shldnt. I'm tired gals. I'm tinking not to attend training on sat. i dunno. Can someone juz clear the shit n not leave it for mi to clear everytime? wat m i to all of u? coach created mi n destroys mi. U're juz selfish.

I juz wan to play kai le de lan qiu.. =(

Everyting juz went wrong.. sometimes i reali hate my parents. i m totally dwn n it make it worst aft quaralleling wif my mom this morning.She juz making a fuss.. I m so angry. They onli tink sis is the best.. the most capable one. Dad even says someting like my job is shui bian. cos he tink sis's job is so tiring.. If u tink she's great then ask her support u 2!! She hasnt gave ani home allowance yet! I'm the one helping u all all the time! She's always the great juz bcos she's uni grad. so wat?? I could do even better if i m given a chance to study! RMB it's u whu told mi u aint able to provide mi n when provided sis... n u told mi u got to provide bro. wat the fuck is this. n u even ask mi to cum out to work to help. I wanted to study uni so much. But u juz told mi u cant. To u all.. u juz tink my results are bad. In fact i m not.. i juz didnt want to tell u all tt's all. To all of u, i'm the worst in the family. Ya fine then ask them to help u .. ask them to cum out to work when they haf the capability to study uni!! I had enuff!!!!

My life juz sucks..

Thanks jew, jo, CH n HQ n janice for consolling mi.. But i'm juz too dwn.. Thanks.. Thanks jew.. i m touched by the msg u sent mi.. thanks alot alot....

i've simply erupted..

2007-10-04T15:17:00.000-07:00

Life has been sweet for the month of sep.. every ting juz went as smooth.. went np chalet and it was super fun.. went out.. went run pandan reservoir.. oh was amazed tt i stil could cum back at 37:37mins! I tot i was lousy already compared to secondary sch but apparently i was alittle slower onli! At least i came bac with 30plus mins! haha.. Started Majong craze again. haha wanted to play more! BEar Jio mi MORE!!! haha Juz started a sucky month of oct! Tues, tt ass called mi and screw mi! I'm freaking irritated by him! He juz let the volcano erupt! i reali had enuff of him. Why would someone treat someone so bad? As in when tt person is no longer "use-able" by him animore, he/she will get dumped aside! Freaking fed up! For like 8 yrs.. yes 8 yrs!!! i believe i'm his most obedient player.. but he didnt appreciate mi at all.. I haf my ego too. i'm not ur slaves or someone u could scold as u wish.. I dun own u my life! He dun trust a single shit ppl.. even the 8 yrs player.. Been tru so much.. help him so much.. but yet he gave mi all this freaking shit scoldings over n over! I'm no longer tt small lil gal whu listens to u... I'm already an adult whu has her own tinking.. I'm sick and tired.. Freaking tired. Wat did i do to recieve this kind of treatment? tell mi wat exactly!! OMG... This sat, he's holding a meeting.. a meeting again! OMG.. If he reali say mi again or shld i say scold during the trainin.. i'll b gone! gone frm e team forever! Wat the hell is wrong with him! I'll definately go! i swear!.. i wan get away frm tt monster! tt old monster!

Ltr frenly with np.. i'm glad there no coach! hope i can enjoy n hope nobody gets injured cos IVP is cuming.. JIA U everyone! huggs...

I've realised.. realised...

my bday @ aranda

2007-09-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

Had a wonderful bday celebrations @ aranda with all my friends and mates! I m very touched by all those tt u all haf done. thanks alot alot! Love ya! Here's the pics @ Aranda!

Flowers from dear

Flowers from jew, jo, rach and ah boi (np mates)

Dear and mi in chalet

Dear, jo n me!

see how engrossed is bear bear!

Balloonsssss!

The balloon pumper!haha

They are skiving!!!haha

Awaiting for my parents to arrive

One of my 21 gifts. How sweet of them!

My neighbour's daughter, isnt she cute?

Parents and neighbour

I'm reali touched by this. thanks gals!

My parents and mi~!

My frens and mi!

My sushi cake! Looks damn real! thanks dear!

the fuhua gang n mi!

Our all fav miss Harry Porter!

Weird, all baozhen's pic! None's mine!

Still not mi?

Baozhen again?

still not mi... haha

mmmmm?

No mi? T-T

Baozhen again -__- hahaha

bro n jo

finally mi n jo!

Butter and mi~!

Prawn and mi

The games

The twins!

Games again

The arrival of S4! The performance of yi ren yi ban!
(the video will be soon uploaded!)

Kerry,phy n qin!

The JVS gang!

the sweet S4!

The encore performance of yi ren yi ban!

Acting Superwoman!

The second day @ Aranda:

Trg's not enuff and we still "train" during chalet ahaha!

Steamboat for dinner!

Look at ah qin!!!! so funny!!

The fight begins! hehe

Evidence of us bullying baozhen! I'm on top of her!!

So mao is the real culprit even aft we all stopped.

The animal game!

Look at bird! she's doin ah qin's animal! aha

The Last day:

The gays

Mac breakfast~! hehe

The impatient await for our table to finish eating!

Aft that we went arcade again! haha aft arcade, we took bus n change train home. Home Sweet Home. Lion misses mi n i misses him! Damn tired. Thanks gals for all the surprises! LOVE al of Ya! Thanks dear for all tt u haf done! love u lots!

when e truth gets out n it hit u so deeply.

2007-09-06T11:44:00.000-07:00

Tue (04 sep)

Marcus kept scaring mi abt tis fri. they're goin to gif mi a birthday "bash"! OMG. then they told mi, u better dun wear skirt tt day bcos tings might get rough! i was like "wat the hell!" ok i'm scared of them la. cos Marcus they all can reali do tings tt r beyond imagination! haha oh to add tings to the worst, giovanni kept counting dwn for mi EVERYDAY! OMG! They say it's goin to b MEMORABLE! oh man i wonder wat would happen tt day! got to bring extra clothings for in case!

Went orchard to eat tt Rabbit store( dear's fav.) aft my work. Went to shopping. It was a fun day. On the way to somerset mrt, we met phyllis n her gang. =) Bought elmo n birdie. made them into hp keychain! so happi!!! hehe!

Wed ( 05sep)

Scarings from my colleagues still continues. haha aft work met up with dear, phyllis and bird. went far east to cut my hair... was scare at first cos i'm afraid she'll messed up my hair! but it was good. everyone praised =) thanks ! haha bought shorts. Went home. went home to found tt one of my hamster was dead. i'm damn sad. =( rest in peace. i wonders n blamed myself for the death. =....(

thurs (06sep)

Bosses all not ard. no mood to work at all! haha slacking n slacking. ask my fren abt my hair, he say no difference!!!!! -____- so saddening la! goin home aft work.

tt's all folks.

My days

2007-09-03T17:58:00.000-07:00

Sun (02 sep):

Went sentosa with hkn gang. Weather was fine at first but the moment we started playing dog n bone, it started raining heavily. We ran to shelter. We cant across 2 PBs. They were seen hugging in the sea lor! abit erxin! haha. Played Uno outside 7-eleven. Rain stopped and it start sunny, we came out and start to play dog n bone game again. It was fun but it rained again. this time we decided to wash up n leave sentosa for vivo! SHOPPING~!!

zi lian ~ haha

so qiao, mi n dear wear the same color tt day! act shuai~!

The twins toking..

Mi & kelly! (her gay partner left us liao)

actting stupid

ugly!

act cute

Sat (01sep):

It's teacher's day! haha Morning meet dear go causeway point eat MAC, then went to watch rattouille! i tink i spelt wrongly! hehe! The show's nice! ANIONE CAN COOK! haha! Aft tt went trg.. trg was tiring as we stopped trg for sometime le! heez.

Mi changing in the toilet getting ready for trg. tying half way my hair when dear wan mi to take pic! omg!

the lift we took to the cinema~ NO. 4~~~!! but too bad there's flash!

Thurs (30 august):

we eat tian tian hou gou with huiqin, mao n dear. ok it SUCKS! so pls dun go and eat! i swear i wont eat another time! aft tt went ah chew desert eat their hongkong red bean somting. i ate pomela and mango sago. was nice!

mi n huiqin!

again.

dear and mi

mao n mi!

again!

our dessert table! hehe NO. 10!!

at tian tain huo guo!

2007-08-29T14:01:00.000-07:00

Has been looking ard other ppl's blog and saw this so i went to play as well :

Your Birthdate: September 9

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4
You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Reali meh? haha but i'm sure i'm those whu reluctant to end relationships. haha! Today HL milk ps mi! So now i haf no where to go aft work! someone pls jio mi out leh! OMG!

Talking abt HL milk, mac say mi tt i put HL milk aeroplane ytd! but i aint suppose to meet him ytd! I was meeting bobby for dinner and he juz told mi when he reach JP , he'll give mi a call but the problem is i told him i'm not meeting him already! OMG! Then he left 6 missed calls on my phone n a sms saying i'm idiot! It's my fault for not seeing the phone but I didnt meant it! But mac insist and say he already knew this would happen even b4 it does! OMG! i'm so angry with him la! so i juz reply him a "fine!" Why on earth are guys so petty? Even if we had someting on last min that we couldnt make it to the appt? If guys are supposed to be like tt, then dun ask gals out la! damn it lor!

I'm totally sad and disappointed to know tt for my party, onli jo n qiying are turning up for the JVS. =( so i didnt care much and left the list to sl. so whu ever she's goin to call is not my problem liao. those dun wan to cum juz dun cum la, dun keep saying i'll see hw or i'll tell u again n it nv got back to mi. haiz. Mayb i'm juz so unwelcome or bu sho hwan ying. haha.

...... where m i goin aft work. =(

Photos!

2007-08-29T01:23:00.001-07:00

Liz just send mi e link to xiao xian's pics for tt day's dog show at the expo! and haha i onli took all e Lion's pic!! hehe!

Phyllis n mi at sentosa last sat! dun u all tink phy put dwn her hair looks nicer?

At boi's bday surprise! (sat)

Lion's cute pic!!! (on his own bed)

at sg expo!

side view!

sweety and lion. Lion's (shih tzu X shnazzuer) n Sweety's (Maltese X shnazzuer)!

They both got white beard from shnazzuer! haha but one ting is Lion's black and sweety's grey!

hehe!

recall last week!

2007-08-28T13:45:00.000-07:00

Let mi tink wat i haf been doin.. mmmm.. last week was dan with flu then MC for 2 days. aft tt jiu friday liao. haha. Sat went sentosa with phy, ah qin n mao. tho the ppl are little but we did haf fun afterall. =) i'm sorri that u all had to leave earli with mi. Thanks gals. Aft tt jiu meet jew, jo n joanna.. WA. now i realized all the Js. haha Slack at mac then wait for boi to finish work. Gave her a surprise bday! =) hehe. it's great! Hope she's happi! Aft tt went boi's house to watch Campus superstar! Shawn won! tho i tink keely shld b the winner but shawn's cute too! haha. Aft tt i went home with jo. Sry for not joinin u all for midnight movie! SRY BOI! The day was damn tired. haha

Sun went to DOG SHOW AT singapore expo! It was fun participating the events! n LION won the fastest eater! 2nd in position! so funni! Boi came with her gal but awhile jiu go liao. Aft tt went to sl's house. Lion juz loves sl's mom! Lion keep finding her. so weird. Went home aft tt. TIRED was the word to describe the feeling! haha

Mon.. Rushing for maldives project. rushed from morning till 730pm then went hom aft tt. nth much. =)

Today's rather freeeeeeeeee.. haha hope work dun cum last min! =)

A flu-ey MOnday

2007-08-20T11:53:00.000-07:00

Started a monday with a flu! Damn. Wonder is it due to the air-condition of my work place. The nose felt like droppin off. But sometimes it'll be alrite aft lunch. Weird rite? But hope this time it'll not be worst! *cross fingers* nth to do at work now. Basically slacking my whole morning, viewing frens blogs... Looking at their lives, some full of activities but some is as boring as mine. i'm quite peifu ppl whu blogged almost everyday! I cant man! haha wanted to do dedications to ppl like wat jo did, but kind of lazy so mayb nxt time ba. haha. JUz book Aranda country club chalet. It's bigger than those coasta sand chalet. It's like a 5 room flat but smaller of cos, there's 2 rooms! hehe. Finalli i've booked! haha Took 3 leave liao, kinda of waste lor.. now i onli left with 6 n 1/2 day leave for the rest of the yr! OMG! Hope my family trip to taiwan during dec will be enuff. haha cos i dun wan take no pay leave haha!

Sat we plan to go sentosa but the weather wasnt doing fine at all. It RAINED HEAVILY! Actuali b4 i went out, the sky is already damn dark but i was juz trying my luck hoping sentosa didnt rain n plus mao's already there. But i'm lying to myself la! hhaha it RAINED! =( haha then we slack at mac where they took stupid pics. Aft that, we slack at Vivo to wait for phyllis. She so slow la! But at least she took cab dwn haha. but aft she reach not long, we decided to go her house! haha sorry phy! hahaha. Slept at her house while some watched DVD. Watched MVP qing ren. it's still so nice as ever. We were toking abt tt time aft watching this, all the ah lians in our schs join bb! haha so funni! Woke up at red 645pm then went to siewling's mom soka ting. They haf performance. The druming ting was cool haha. Aft tt went to eat at nearby hawker. i went to ton at sl's house.

i'm trying to act stupid. No potential for modelling haha~

Trying to act stupid!~

Seen Ah qin act Ah Lian? SHE IS WAT! hahah!

Sun- sleep till 11 plus. slack at her house watched tv. then fall aslp again. wakao now i reali feel i quite pig. haha ard 5pm i left her house for my family dinner. Went to nan da's hawker to eat seafood. Dad says want to eat sakura nxt thurs! i duno why dad likes sakura so much. -___- haha Walked home aft dinner than slack at home. Sleep. nxt day work =(

ltr gonna go home aft work! wanna pei lion. haha ytd tried to train him fetch but he cant seem to fetch aft knowing i haf food in my hand. ok i haf a dumb dog. haha. he onli tinks of food. i tink he'll worship food lor! HAHA! Oh no.. it's so sunny outside my office but i'm blowing my nose! OMG~!!

Photos..

2007-08-13T17:56:00.000-07:00

I am too lazy to caption every photo. so juz haf to look all of it ba. too long nv post them so once for all post all of it tgt.. so no1 will keep asking mi for photos! hehe. Below are photos of Np mates~!, Went east coast for doggie gathering, went sushi teh on National day and finally ytd's youth cup 2nd position celebration at Zhengfang's dad's restuarant! hehe. I'll post the stupid videos of them dancing soon! haha

Thanks

2007-08-08T02:52:00.000-07:00

Thanks everyone for being there for mi. I'll try my best to stand up again. Thanks to those to tag my board with encouraging words... Bear bear thanks. =) Busy with my work.. everyday rushing, everyday ot. Life sucks now. But looking forward to tml! i wan eat SUSHI TEH!! i wan watch movie!!!!!!!!!! so much tings to do!!!!!!!!!! =(

I'm tired.. tell mi wat ti do pls.

2007-08-06T05:03:00.000-07:00

I've cried in front of my team again. I totally broke dwn. I've shouted as tears just rolled dwn my cheeks. I spoke of my heart. I spill everyting out tt day. I've told them wat i long to say so long. Some of them might b shocked ba. I've nv cried so badly in front of all of them b4.. I kept crying till my eyes are swollen. I just wish to be with all of them... why is it so difficult? I waited yrs n yrs without ani complains, but i'm tired le. I wanted to just leave, just quit and just stop ball for the rest of my life..I've made a major decision... I told coach tt day i wanted to quit. Noe wat? He scolded mi. Can i just choose the life i wanted to be in and stop being ur puppet? 7 yrs, there's reali gratefulness and thanks for bringing ball into my life but there's hatred too. I hate tt you used mi as a puppet. You are selfish and u wanted us as ur own. u totally neglect our feelings regardless that we are gals. You caused al my wonderful teammates to leave, leaving mi alone. You gave mi my wonderful teammates now but now history repeats itself again. Will i be alone again? I'm juz like ur caged up bird. U jus wouldnt let mi fly. Some say i dun haf the courage to fly. Yes i dun haf. I finally opened up my wings to tell u i wanted to leave, You juz haf to shout and i juz close my wings once again. Someone just free mi. Just open the cage and i'll my grateful. I couldnt cheer up animore. I couldnt motivate ppl animore. I'm just acting strong i noe. With my teammates with mi, i'm not afraid to brave all kinds of stuffs. All kinds of bullshits and toture he gave mi, but they're leaving. Some is leaving physically but some haf already left spritually. Can you just let mi go? Just let mi go. I kept crying, i wanted to be strong. i reali wanted. Mates ask mi to stand up aft i cry but i just nodded my head. I'm sorry i'm afraid i couldnt. I've tried to.. I'm tired, real tired.

I couldnt stand ur scoldings animore. I'm trying to be rebellious. I'm trying hard. someone help mi. =(

Pics

2007-08-02T13:44:00.000-07:00

Here's the pics at Xinfang's bday celebrations:

Look at greedy mao.
Us.

Smile!

Boyfrwen tryin to take pic with mi but someone

at the back trying to snatch the shot! haha

hehe!

Phyllis and mi~!

Caught Stupid pekpek slpin in action! Aniwhere

oso can slp sia! so PEKPEK!

Trying to cover up when she discover us! haha

=) i love their company.

Fan-ing

2007-07-30T00:13:00.000-07:00

I did not came to work for 2 days last week. Thurs and fri. Was sick. Down with fever and flu. Felt terrible but i still went dwn to watch Np guys match. Although almost die half way, but i m strong. Np guys lost to NYP. Could see they are quite unhappi abt it. But JIA U~! Dun gif up, the match is not over yet! there's stil 2 more to go. NP gals, JIA U too! Regardless of wat happen, JIA U.

Talk to gabriel and bobbie on msn. Gabriel tell mi that he wanted to quit aft Polite. I tink bobbie too. Although this was not my team animore, but this wasnt wat i wanted to see. A team which i wish i m in was in a state where all of them were unhappi and there's many backstabbing occuring. Oh man. Wat happen? I tot i can be freed frm all these when i m with them, but i found out tt it's impossible. It's like no matter where u are, where u go, how strong or weak the team, there bound to have problems like these. Haiz. Mayb i should juz stop tinking.

Ytd was Xin Fang's bday. We went bugis to shop. I bought someting. We had fun giving comments when phyllis and siewling tried on the designs of the T-shirts. The T-shirts were so cool and nice but it doesnt suit mi. sigh =( Siewling went to choose those so gay colors la! haha. Went Ma Maison to eat for dinner. Waited like half an hour for pekpek and ah qin to arrive b4 we start ordering. Aft the dinner, we went to eat the honeydew sago. Due to the lack of seats available, we ta bao and went to eat out the National Library. So funni la. I hope Xin fang did enjoyed herself, although i find her like fan-ing over smth. Hope u are alright, Xin fang! =) Aniwae, Happi Birthday~!

Today initially wanted to watch match but wasnt feelin too good. Properly i havent fully recover. haiz. Wanted to meet u but u cant. =( But i understand.

JIA U~! JIA U to u, JIA U to Np gals and guys, JIA U to hkn. JIA U everyone.

I tink i miss u already. =(

Happy moments

2007-07-16T20:11:00.001-07:00

These are the Happy moments i'm waiting.

-Warming up.

- The supporters

-The serious-ness talks during the game.

- Lousy Cam of mine couldnt take their play movement. =(

-Lousy shot of mine. Blurred. Aft the game.

HKN'2007 (Youth)Informal shot!

Team HKN 2007 (Big + Youth)

hkn CHIONG AR~!

-Us!

Bro, mi and Sl

-Susan and mi

-Dinner Time~!

Waiting for prize presentation

We are 2nd!

Baozhen and Calvin

Hkn~!

The 2 ultimate Hkn Gays.

Pek and fren

We are 2nd.!

Gone Wrong.

2007-07-16T19:42:00.000-07:00

Recently gone bonkers. Went paranoid, some say i'm over stressed. I duno. Juz felt so much like crying. I can just easily broke dwn for no reason. I juz kept crying. Team, work, friends are all tt's troubling mi. I dun wish to see ani1 leave the team. Ppl has been saying they are leaving aft youth cup. Mayb they didnt noe, it's not hkn i'm fan abt... it's all the ppl in there which i couldnt bear to see leaving. We were once so close, so united but as we grew stronger n older, all of us changed, including mi. All of them enters poly with a new prospect of life. Lookin in front of them is new friends and new teammates. Whu will actuali look back at those times we had tgt. But tt's human's nature. I kept looking back, I juz cant grow out of it. I cant grow up, i realised. I juz wish when time could go back. No matter wat, whenever all of u need help or need someone, do look back.. there's always someone whu's following bhind each and everyone of u. =) I wont stop ani of u frm leaving animore. If leaving is the best choice for all of u, juz go. Last sunday was the best match ever. Even thou all of u lost, But at least we did lead them once! So dun feel sad. I'm juz proud of all of u. Reali proud. =)

Trying to find the lost happiness in bball in np. I did found it. They were united. As playful n bonding as wat we used to haf. Love the coach but i realised, it's not my team. I cant get into them no matter wat. I still feel abit extra sometimes. They welcome mi but i juz feel so. Feel so lost n left out no matter where i m. I juz feel kinda of alone. Alone. I hate the feeling. But thanks you for being there when i need someone. Thanks for the eeyore. Thanks for everyting u had done for mi. =) I duno when i will stand up again, But i'll try. dun worri.
Work's kind of stress for mi cos i haf a big proj on hand but the dateline of issue is nearing. Somemore there's still other jobs for mi at the same time too. OMg. So tiring. But no OT for mi. cos i dun wan to OT! haha.

Ytd i had a bad dream, A nightmare. I forgotten wat i dreamt abt, but i woke up crying badly. Then the whole night i'm unable to sleep bcos i fear. i duno wat i fear but i m juz so scare. I onli remember i dreamt of the whole team. Then i dreamt i knelt b4 coach and cry, abit like begging him. then he like asking mi to leave. But the ting i m afraid of is not this, but a bottle of scary tings i m carrying. I rmb it's like smth bloody... ok forget it. The more i tried to rmb the more scary it is. OMG. Today got np trg but i not goin. making their tings.

Tiring

2007-07-05T03:01:00.000-07:00

Every single little tings has been tiring mi out recently. Mayb i finally had enuff. Cos he extinguished my flame. He cause mi lose passion of balling. I felt totally happy in NP bcos i could played freely with no stress n lao heng is always so encouraging. Ytd had training i could train cos i'm injured. I sat there and he kept scolding. The scoldings make mi feel fustrated! I ignored him. Suddenly i feel that i hate him to the core but at the end of the training, the way he tok to the players make mi feel better of him again. He always make mi feel tt way. Teammates has been telling mi abt leaving him, but it's not i dun dare or wat. But u all juz dun understand. =( I feel so sian.

Gedt away frm the unha[ppiness, let tok abt youth cup. Ytd then i noe tt if we win Combined schs by 1 pts, we'll b 2nd and if we win them by 8pts, we'll be champs!!!!! haha ALL the WAY mAteS!!! =) JIA U~!

The hell i has been goin thru

2007-07-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

Ytd hkn vs aljunied. we lost by 2 onli. Was leadin all e way but at the very last 5mins, we lost. Dunno wat the hell was all of them doin, some was like kanna dunno wat curse, the ball juz wouldnt go in.. -__- I was so disappointed. Everyone was sad, some cried, some was angry. So much emotion goin on make mi crazy! Was feeling rather dwn then went to eat dinner with them but i didnt eat aniting.. was kinda no appetite. They force mi to eat by dragging mi to the Duo jiang you tiao. In the end i ate there. To cheer bz up, they decided to walk geylang back lane. We saw so many "Public toilets" there. Then we went home. During the walk to Kallang MRT station, Pek msg mi... coach called mi. Coach starts scolding mi saying i nv guan the team properly. Then came pek's msg. Everyting was goin so fast in my mind. I nearly teared. I reali dunno wat to do. Someone juz saves mi frm this hell. Save mi~! I'm like STUCKED here.. Wat possibly can i do? i lost my passion for balls. i lost it.... He extinguish my flames...

Playing ball outside once more

2007-06-27T22:51:00.000-07:00

Ytd aft work went back to change. Met up daryl at commonwealth and he pei mi go home to get my stuffs. Thanks alot bcos if not i'll get lost while getting to the court. He waited for mi dwnstairs and he so zi lian lo. Took pics of himself! -__- Reached court and there was gabriel, jing jian, raymond, ah pow, xiuhan, daryl of cos. and mi. played for sometimes and realised gabriel is so scarely as a center la. He NEARLY kiao my face. haha Lucky he controlled his strength! All of them took jing jian's car home. Thanks to gabriel as he walked mi to the bustop (= . And frm the moment i took the wrong bus, i'm stupid! I took 185 assuming that it will go past my house! In the end it went straight! OMG! I alight aft realising i was wrong and i was like WALKING home!!! STUPID LA! In the end reached home at 1145pm! OMG. Bathe Lion and wanted to juz skip my dinner but the tot of making the ting make mi eat and stayed up till 2am until i was too tired le.

Had a great day~! Thanks guys!

Great to noe them

2007-06-27T02:00:00.000-07:00

ytd aft work went to meet lixian and jo to watch Tong Whye vs RP. The journey to woodlands frm my workplace is long la, Lixian(B2) tell mi the wrong way so i ended up goin frm the longer way. haha reach woodlands ard 7pm then jo n B2 already there le. They bought MACDONALDS to eat there. We walk there and it was so damn farrrrrrrrrrr! haha Then phyllis ask mi help her buy wat polar hotdog bread, wat the hell was tt? didnt manage to get aniting for her in the end lo! haha! Reach there and juz nice they were abt to start. it was DAMN HOT there! cos there's no ventillation n there's no fan or aircon~! B2 says we were like chickens in the oven cos they shape of the ceiling and the lights looks like the oven! haha. so funni. Then in the end they finally they on the aircon. =) Saw 2 daryls. NP and jvs de. NP de daryl kept saying the testi i wrote for him. the one which he like pink. haha! Then i kept disturbing him! The NP guys are so supportive of their teammates. cos some of them are playing tong whye. Didnt noe guys can b so supportive towards ourselves haha. so weird or i m outdated! and i didnt noe guys blog too!! ok frm the guys i know they dun blog at all. but np guys blog! haha i tink i reali outdated liao!!! OMG! haha.. or shld i say the guys i noe cannot make it? haha =PpPp no la kidding! Ltr gonna play bb! so long haven been playing ball outside le.. it's not training then it's match. haha like no life.

I'm so lazy, haben bathe Lion and Hammies! omg... LAZY! haha.

NP bb Camp (21-23 June 07)

2007-06-25T22:58:00.000-07:00

Fun fun fun was all that described the camp~! It was tiring, muscle aching but was fun. I've nv had this fun ever since i started working.=) Thanks gals~! Now i start to miss the camp n the guys n gals there. Aft looking at xiuhan's blog, then i realised, we gals didnt reali take much pics~! The guys are more ai mei than us la.! haha They took damn lots of photos. Haha but i had some in my phone~! heez!

Day 1

We are supposed to reach sch ard 9am. Then gather to our room. But as usual, most of them are late. heez.. i took cab there lor cos i m late. We are shown to our rooms and were asked to change and go our indoor court for ice-breaking games. We waited so long for the guys la tt we played ice and water ourselves! So tiring. Then we played dog and and bone with the guys and dorge ball. so funni. Our team is the lousiest! haha Aft which we had our catered lunch and off we go to SBC for 6hr of trg. It's damn tiring but fun when we play 3hrs of 5 on 5 with lao heng in my team~!! HAHAHA~!!!! Aft whcih we ate dinner in SBC and the guys were so clever to bath there. Reach sch bathed and watched the meaningful bb video. Theh off to bed, tt stupid Xiao Yuan joined us n disturbed us frm sleep~!!!! Poor joanna. haha

DAY 2

woke up ard 7 plus, wash up and ate our breakfast. Catered as well. Then we ran frm sch to Bukit Timah Hill... The we chiong bukit timah hill. Lao heng partnered mi to chiong the steep slope! OMG~! hahaha But was so shiok! Aft tt i was like damn fit la. haha Went to sleep aft tt then BBQ time~!! As usual i'm like the auntie cooking again~! haha The it's jo's turn to stop us frm sleeping tt night~! heez..

DAY 3

Training at 3 on 3 court. Np ppl learning formats. Me and jew were learning all sorts of stuffs. HAHA aft tt washed up, eat n de-brief. So sad it got to cum to an end. I've learn lots n lots of tings frm this camp. it's so fruitful... nv regret! =) heez so happy~!

Here's the gals.

i'm sailing roughly now...

2007-06-12T00:07:00.001-07:00

Got so many ppl's bday in MAY~! And 4 ppl bday in JUNE~! oh man i'm broke. V broke. T-T

HKN tok MI 133 vs 28~! Was like so paiseh la. the 2nd quarters is alreadi like 7o+ liao. I'm sure they're damn happi too. Hope they can play well for the nxt game too! heez!

Everyday's a torture to mi... everyday's painful.. everyday was so not good for mi.. I tried to ren but i brought harm to ppl whu are close to mi. I feel so evil so bad. I just hope everyting could be better tt's all. I'm so tired each day.. so worn out. i tink i need a holiday, a break frm everyting, everyting...

Lion's sick!!! ytd he vomitted like 8 times. I brought him to the vet and waited there for like 2 and 1/2 hrs! Dr grace was nice. Gave Lion an injection and some med. Now Lion's on the way of recovery! (=

Broke

2007-06-04T01:46:00.000-07:00

Oh man i'm freaking broke this month!! And it's onli the start of e month! -__- damn it. I went shopping ytd AGAIN~! Omg. I bought the Newurban Male Tank top- the one i wanted long ago (Basketball). Finali i've bought it! And noe wat.. it cos $59.90! haha Dun care juz buy. And stupid mi went to get an S size! I tink i'm trying to act SMALL SIZE! Now gonna change to M size. So mafan! haha Cos i was lazy to try in the shop. =P Went to eat suki sushi which cost $25. Mi and SL went to walk the whole orchard again. went frm cineleisure to far east and back to heeren then takashimaya! haha. I bought a Lipstick at far east which cost mi $25. and we went to take neo-prints like $10 each then there was a sport fair at Taka's Talking Mall.. I bought the Fila Polo Tee @ $ 19.90. Can u imagine how much i spend ytd?? i spend like goin to $140!!!! Omg... Stupid Great Singapore Sales made mi spend sooooo much! I wonder how i'm goin to survive till the end of the month if i kept shopping. So NO SHOPPING for mi animore. Tat's it! haha.

I'm soooo addicted to a game download frm msn games. It's like u haf to find the hidden tings out frm the picture and there's a time limit. Wa lau mi, my bro n SL like totally addicted to the game la!!! And i slept at 2am ytd bcos of that idiot game! now i m damn sleepy!! haha..

I feel so great last week bcos i went back to my doc and got my med again. It doesnt hurt at all once i ate the med! haha but is like if i dun eat, i'll cum back again. Omg. I wonder how long m i supposed to b on medication. =(

I'm tired

2007-05-31T20:51:00.000-07:00

So many tings has been happening ard mi. i'm being so bad tempered, so irritating recently.. Ppl tell mi it's my headache but i dun wan to take tt as an excuse. I wan to be wat i m before. It's hard but i'm trying my best.

Had timed-out. Tired of everyting. Not onli my partner but myself. Recently she was trying to do all sort of stuffs to get mi back. She changed and i can feel it. But looks like the problem lies with mi nw. I'm so bad tempered till i cant stand myself either. omg. Someone juz help mi. =(

Ytd had a great shopping time. All bcos of our GSS! i spent so much!!!!!!!!! Went to watch the Shrek 3 . It's a damn nice n funni! At least i like it. haha. =) I was laughing like hell. haha. Bought braun bruffel wallet for her n she bought mi back the same. =) Thanks i reali love it! She went to make our 2nd Anniversary ring.. i'm touched. We r having Time-out but she's still willing to celebrate tt day wif mi. Thanks. The main problem lies wif mi not her. I'm sorri. if u found someone better, go ahead. I'll be happi for u.

Oh i've bought the ckIN2U alreadi! bought the him n her de. cost mi $144 sia. haha reali broke liao. I'm giving the him to her. Hope she like it. =) I've bought so many tings la. n 2 pots of plants to put in my office, $25!!! Omg. hahaha. spending feel so good la but when u look in ur account, U'll DESPRATE!! hahaha haha

Oh ya almost forgot. our team won the first match!!! i'm so glad. hope our nxt match wil be the same! Our nxt match wil be on the 10 june! come n support if u all could. JIA U HKN~!!! *huggies to all of u*

As for the headache, i'm stil on medication. Basically everyday. Sian.

wE ALways CaNt Get ThE ThiNgs We WaNteD

2007-05-22T21:23:00.000-07:00

I'm so lazy to blog.. but finalli aft 1 mth since my last post, i still came in to blog. Lots of tings happened... The youth team had great lots ytd, i juz hope they'll play well.. JIA U hor. I'm upset over some tings some ppl says. To them it's a simple matter but it wasnt. I juz dun like the way they say stuffs, make mi so uncomfortable. Make mi feel that i'm at fault. Jo, bear are stopping for training le. i'm kinda of sad. haha. esp jo. She's the one whu's been thru so much with mi. But i'll wait till she cum bac. JIA U mei! =)

Recently i haf been suffering some kind of headaches. the headache is always there but there are times it's awfully painful. duno wat's wrong but doc says it's dunno wat muscle tension. He say i cant do sports liao. But it's like when i nv do i oso pain lo. kip eating med, n it's like they haf no effects on mi liao. Loss of appetite. damn sian. My temper isnt tt good since this headache attacks mi. Sorri during this period of time i offended some of you.
Goin to the doc soon. now the headache attackes again. damn pain. cant even work. i tink i've got to stop here.. too pain liao. .

Back~!

2007-04-02T14:04:00.000-07:00

Hey sorry for the lack of updates~! It was like reali long since i last blogged~! I was busy with my work n stuffs.

My work-
It's still alrite n i'm still able to cope but lots of projects are cuming up makes mi nuts. But tat's wat's called working life rite? hahahaha.. My colleagues were all fun. We had a farewell party chalet too.. I realised although lots of them were bigger than mi by like 5 yrs or older.. but they played like they were 18! so funny.. They are organising trips to Redang, Palau Tinggi.. I tink i might be joinin them.. heez..

Basketball-
For goodness sake, we are like training so hard each time. It's so great.. the feeling of the past came back but juz tt my stamina sucks. Got to train back more le. Oh! And there's a new center whu came to join us.. she's taller than zheng fang and we all tinks she played pretty well, juz that she's abit slow... but can train de ma. hahaha! Bcos of her, I've been officially changed to forward!! wakao.. for so many yrs i haf been playing center, a sudden change make mi so blur la. cos center n forward is reali different. I still dunno how to qie. But the feeling of fast attack n Qin juz thundered to mi, made mi feel HIGH~! Made mi wanna run more. heez. I'll try improve de...Thanks for supporting mi TEAM~! heez.

Others-
Sometings juz change.. I tink i change too. So fan recently.. Thanks for the people ard mi. =) Had fun goin all e Outings with my team..

There are pics of our outings but i'm too lazy to upload.. Mayb can see from phyllis' blog or smth. hahaha

Yan~!

U betray my trust twice

2007-01-19T13:33:00.000-08:00

All the days seems so long.. seems so unwanted.. I duno wat i m doin but to stare in the blank. Wat happen to u? u r not the same animore.. u betrayed my trust twice. how m i supposed to believe u animore? how m i supposed to forgive u? Mayb u r too young to get tied dwn? I dunno.. i dunno wat to say to u. i m so fan.. i wanted to cry but no tears.. i wanted to scream but no voice. I'm juz not myself. I promised someone tt i'll nv fake smile.. but i'm sorri i had to break my promise... my smile isnt real tis few days.. i reali dun wanna meet u. I dunoo i dunno i duno.

Let mi retreat into my own world... if u found mi tt mean u found mi.. but if u didnt.. ....................

Crazy days...

2007-01-08T13:33:00.000-08:00

Fri, sat n sun was a crazy day for mi! Fri i was preparing for sl's bday. I was like fan dao sia.. everyting so unsure n no present! hahaha at night i did a big board which is supposed to b the card for sl. I did until 5am! -___- And the nxt day is TRAINING! siao liao...
Sat i woke up at 8plus to go to pek house.. @_@ reached pek house at ard 10 plus then we started baking sl's cake.. I tink i m reali idiot at these stuffs tt pekpek kept laughing at mi la. she say i no hope la! hahahhaha. It's so funni la the whole process of baking cos i m the one doin stupid mistakes. Aft we finish the cake, we took cab to my house to put it in the fridge to prevent it frm melting!! then we set off immediately to trg! Everyting was in a rush la. Training was a torture to mi la.. i m like wanting to die le!! n i even walk when i ran the rounds! *sad* My head was like bursting at the end of the training n i felt like vomitting sia! Lucky my bung lend mi a hand to fu mi! thanks mao! hahaha we are like discussing like hell whether we shld celebrate for her today or tml! Ended up we decided to do count down for her. i bluff her to send mi home then at there then i tell her i haf already call her mom up to say she's not cuming back home liao.. she was shock.. i was supposed to bring her to Artpark blindfolded without knowing the team was there but.... i msg the wrong person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i msg her instead of ah qin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone scolded mi! In the end we still sing bday song for her regardless of missing candles n fire. stupid mi! hahahaha everyone scolded mi la.. hahahhaha
Sun i forced her to get out of my house earli so i could get her present. i wanted her to go home change then meet mi. During the time, i rushed to get the present n took cab to her house to meet her. Tink she was shocked seeing mi arriving in a cab ba. hahhaha Supposed to meet zf they all at 3 de but they arrived at 345! n we reach there ard 230 so we waited more than a hour! hahahhaa finally took the bus at TM n went to safra to eat sakura. Stupid la go so far eat n onli when we reach then we noe that there buffet onli starts at 6pm for dinner n ends ard 3 for lunch!! Duh~! we went to the bowling center n slack n play pool. i m lousy indeed! We ate alot! all i noe was the sl n zf kept eating the egg ting! hahahhaha we ate for ard 2 hrs b4 we set off for our KTV. The KTV was called J Box.. wakao an imitation of KBox lor!!! The facilities there was so old la! Even the mic sucks! I'll nv go there animore even it was cheaper! Sl say she dun wanna sing at first, in the end she held the mic through out the whole session la!!! hahahha n she's addicted liao cos she told mi she wanted to go again! -_____- reach home ard 12 plus . Bathed, sleep!!!
Tt's the crazy 3days i had! too tired now la!!!!!!! hahahhahahaha but it was fun.. although i did spoil some of the surprising moments. sorry la. but hope u haf a great bday! =)

ANNOUNCEMENT~!

2007-01-05T15:37:00.001-08:00

Hey gals~!! Here an annoucement for all of u~!

WNBL will be starting in MARCH~! (*for those whu duno, WNBL means women's national basketball league) Which means it's 3 months frm now!!!!!!!!! WoOOOOOooo~! Muz work real hard for tt~! i dun wanna sit bench, although the possibility quite high! lol... hahhahaa =) I'll work hard for my position!

Smiles!

ANNOUNCEMENT~!

2007-01-05T15:37:00.000-08:00

Happy 2007 everyone~!

2007-01-03T13:37:00.000-08:00

2006 was a yr with lots of happiness n saddness too. I cherish n treasure the people ard mi. although 2006 was not a smooth yr for mi, i sincerely hope tt 2007 will be a better yr ahead! =) time juz flies, dun they? =) Was having real fun for the past few days.... bought some stuffs frm malaysia! happi happi. we went chomp chomp to eat straight when we came back frm malaysia.. nice food but the rain spoils part of it. Imagine u eating half way n the big rain juz came pouring. Shelter isnt like a shelter too. hahaha i was 3/4 wet! hahaha our food was drenched! Jo was funni cos she was still enjoying her food when the rain pours. The rain came to a stop aft a short while. We went back to our seats using plasticbags to cover the wet seats. look stupid though. we continue to drink our "added Liao" de sugarcane drinks. hahahaa oh ya.. that sugarcane drink was so big!!! hahaha. Aft tt went home shivering n sad.

I've been tinking.. someting is not there... i duno how to explain..

Happy 2007! =)

I cant wait!

2006-12-19T13:44:00.000-08:00

I CANT WAIT.. i cant wait!! count dwn 11days!!! =) Sorri abt my attitude. dunno wat's gotten into mi. sorri. thanks for e understanding. bored bored bored. recently there's not much interesting tings happens ard me.. jus the normal threesome whu went out tgt. hahaha.

I rmb the stupid me trying to act stupid by hitting my umbella against bro's! Cos mine spoilt n both of them laugh at mi so i m trying to make someone same as mi! *spoilt!* hahaha in the end bro's umbella bcum so funni.. all crooked~! thanks to me.. hahaha we went umbella fight in the rain!!! hahaha stupid. but was fun~! hahaha ]

so happi for today! today's JVS senior gathering~!!!! I MISS THEM~! too bad xm n jo n Ina cant cum!!! *sads* cant wait for the time to pass to meet them up! they love my crappi~ness! hahahaha. *missessssss misssessssss u allllllllllll~!!!!!!!!!!!*

Thursday will b my last day of work for this yr~! YAY~!! so all are welcome to DATE mi now!! hahahahahhaa i'll b free like hell!! i can play like hell~!! hahahahhahaa =P

I cant wait!

2006-12-18T21:29:00.000-08:00

A new perspective of life..

2006-12-08T13:46:00.000-08:00

Everyday when i went off to work from my house, i would pass this small little road to the main road. At the small road, i realise there was this man who would b there every morning. At first i didnt give a glance at him at all but as the days goes by walking the same old road, i started looking at him; frm a different point of view. He's a man who suffers frm some kind of disable-ness. He reacted like a kid, he mumbles to himself n stares at the main road. He's doint he same almost everyday. Today i look at him again, not as in predjucied or of sympathy.. He smiled back at mi. *i'm shocked.. totally stunted.* Then i realised, if ppl of them could be happi n look things on the other way, why normal ppl like us would be so sad abt our lives n some always complains n even commit sucide? Life is precious so do cherish it! =)

Although there are so much unhappiness in us, it's not the end of the world. Be optimistic! =D Today i learnt another lesson frm someone.. i tink dun state the name our betta. Thanks! She tot mi to be strong. Losing a dad is a very difficult matter to take it, but she is able to take it n be strong n even encourage mi. I'm so guilty. thanks for reminding mi to cherish the ppl ard mi n not to look at the past animore,.. wat's most impt is now..the present! JIA U-(u noe whu u r) =)

I love the ppl ard mi!!! thanks.. =D

Worried.. =(

2006-12-05T13:28:00.000-08:00

Someone's sick le.. Take care k? So big le still dunno how to take care of urself.. make mi worried... =(

Boring day, it's juz work work work.. go home haf to do my another work work work.. It's all alot the thing called MONEY! damn! wanted to rest and haf a holiday.. =( SOOOOOO TIRED!

oh ya sat a few of the Killiney went to Sentosa, We had fun onli with the stupid bounced ting hahaha.. i laugh till my jaw wanna drop sia. And it's Lion's first swimming lesson~! Of cos he shld noe how to swim by nature but he's so scared with the sound of the waves! But aft awhile he seem to calm dwn. But he bcum like "gong gong" the nxt day. He was damn tired i supposed, aft the continuous swimming and walking. hahahaha. Wanna bring him out again~! =) Love him to bits!

*prays tt u will get well soon... =( Take care. *

The new beginning.~

2006-12-01T13:33:00.000-08:00

The past is the past. Jo taught me this and taught mi how to let go.. It's difficult but i've got to try. =) Tis is juz parts n parcels of life.. I've got to learn in order to grow up.. *although i dun wan to so much*

Tat day there's a team meeting during trg. We tok it out. Although there's no progress or help, it's juz like letting the whole team noe wat's goin on btw us. I didnt wan to but they tok it out. I admit that i had wrong. But she doesnt. Why? Mayb it ALL lies with mi. I will nv noe. Ppl are always tokin to mi during the meeting. It seems tt i am the one whu needed the "console" or needed to change my thinking. It's so funni. All is abt mi. Onli jo n Hui Qin help mi, and of cos dear*although she didnt help at all*. Thanks both of u. =) One is my mei whom noes mi inside out... and been there for mi whenever i needed help, the other one is someone whom i noe last than 1 month. Even a stranger came to help. I wasnt saying that the team is bad or i good, i'm juz saying as in "help mi tok". Of cos the team got their own tinking. I couldnt change their thinking n i dun expect them to tink like wat i tink and somemore they hear mostly frm her. I am a person whu duno how to express myself n a person whu cant let go of the past...

Past... thinking abt it made mi teared.. It's so wonderful. But as wat butter says ppl do grow up n change, n i accept tt now. No choice.. if they were ur true fren, they'll b there for u eventually. Although we are moving to a phase of the new killiney team, but to me, it's like letting go of the old HKN.. HKN, a team where all my happi memories lies. Cant bear but it's for the sake of the team's good so we got to b killiney. Although the name has been changed onli, it's already diff for mi le. It's not as in i dun like the current team or i dun wan to play with the current team now, it's juz tt it's diff le. i like the current team now but i LOVE the old team which we had... but i'm sure one day, i'll learn to LET GO.......

why is it a ball then roll ard? it's not as if we wanted u to b with us onli.. it's juz tt it's so diff le.. wat i HATE abt Manjusri ppl is tt they dun THINK b4 they SAY someting. It always hurts so much when they SAID ALREADY but to them it's nth... *sorry if i had offended Manjusri ppl* Mayb i m predjuiced ba.. haha I'll juz let nature takes it course.. Juz dun get mistaken tt i doesnt wan to b frens again.. i will.. =) and i wil help u when u need help but it's juz diff le. =)

It's like heaven's doings.. Rmb my room there's a board where i paste lots of photos of all e happi memories? The whole board drop dwn suddenly! N no matter how i stick it back it juz wouldnt stay in place... hahahaha is it telling mi to LET GO? MAyb ba. i dun intend to stick it back le... i wan to change the whole board n the pics!!! Change it to now!!! =)

CHERISH THE PRESENT AND FORGET THE PAST!!

i'M pretty excited abt this sunday's sentosa's outing!! Cos i m bring LION to snetosa!!!!!! SO excited la.. hahahaha although mei ask mi not to bring cos she say ltr kanna outcast but i still insist.. cos i haf alreadi promise him le.. dun wanna break the promise.. juz love my doggie!!! hugs!!

Ltr aft work goin out!!! so happi la.!! and it's FRIDAY!!! meaning i can rest on sat n sun le!! PLAY PLAY PLAY!! HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!

JIA U everyone!!! =)

I WAN SEE SHOOTING STARS!! =(

=(

2006-11-22T13:30:00.000-08:00

Memories will always be memories. Ppl has been telling me this phrase but i juz wont get it in my mind. Finally, right from mon aft i did a foolish msging, i realised.. watever has change will nv be back to wat it was originally. Tat might include mi ba. Now trainings has seem to be a reluctant place to go... too much of memories.. i'm juz too stubborn ba, i couldnt move on, i kept tinking... mayb bcus of this ppl get sick n tired of mi.

"Sick and tired"- does true fren feel tis way too? To me, a true fren will nv feel this way. They'll always be by ur side supporting u in watever. Even if they haf seen mi change or find fault in mi, they'll nv leave me, they'll tell me, encourage mi and stay by my side regardless how many ppl dislikes me. They'll nv say i'm "paranoid" when i tell them the way i feel. Tru troubles will u onli find ur true frens..

I'll make my new life worth it. I wont spend my time feel sad and wishing time could turn back where we once had so much fun... I'll find my TRUE FREN!

JIA U everyone..

I'm nv the same animore. GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.

HIHI

2006-11-13T17:58:00.000-08:00

Hey gals n guys.. I am currently selling some handicrafts stuffs. They are handmade and u could customized ur name onto it.. =) It's great to maek a christmas gift!! =) Do have a look.. thanks~!
http://paio-2.blogspot.com/

Online-shopping!

2006-11-07T13:14:00.000-08:00

It's lunch time.. but i lunched in as my colleague were not in.. as in those more familiar de la.. I am currently abit into online-shopping~! Their deals are better than wat we can find outside!! i bought 1 necklace and a bangle.. =) Now currently deciding whether to venture in my fren's online-shop. When my handmade stuffs are successful, i'll sell them out.. =) so guys and gals out there... wait for my product to cum out!! hahahah... =))))

wat a day in office. it's honeymoon period at the moment so quite free.... =) but it's tiring as i need to do autocad over n over again.. drain my brain n eye power sia.. hahaha =)

tt's all now.. Cheers~!! =)

i m employed!

2006-11-06T12:27:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.. so long nv came in le... finally, I'M EMPLOYED!!! I am now working as a landscape architect in Beltcolins International. =) GreaT company i muzt say.. =) So happi!! =) Now i must work hard le and cherish things i had now..

Today's the first paper for O'level!!! Hey Pek, wanying n sl... JIA U k?? All best for ur exams!!! =)

Last fri had JVS bbq.. so fun n so great!!! I miss all of them!! =) So happi when they came over to watch our frenly on sat!! thanks gals although i cant make it to eat dinner with all of u.. so sorry but there willl b chances de!!! =)

My company will have a break on 22 dec to 3 jan!!! so great!! i must save money for shopping n goin out like siao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahha... i wan lobster family to go out again... =) happi happi!!!!! tt's all i go for lunch le.. =)

GOd bless...

2006-10-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

After a big "storm" on fri, i'm ok le. Supposingly went fishing at jurong cannal wif jo, butter they all but in the end afew of us juz chat. Thanks butter, qin, part-time(bear) n jo for listening to mi, especially butter. Sorri i gave all of u attitude. Didnt mean it de hope all of u are not offended.

Yesterday i didnt go training becos i went to see doc for my finger. Stupid finger wonder how long will i be out of the training lor. Heard frm them tt coach was nice to them and training wasnt tough at all. So sad la, they told mi when i cum then the training will be tough so they say i shldnt cum. -___-!! I was asked to go bear bear's house ytd at ard 11 plus. When i reach there i was shocked to see pek n mok there too. It's like so late le n they are still there! The funniest of all is tt Meihui is there too~! hahaha They are playing Majong and some of us are watching TV. Went home are 2plus then play with Lion. I couldnt sleep so i watch the show Goong with my sis till 5am.

Oh gosh i'm so nervous abt my interview tml. I hope i wont make any stupid mistakes!!! *prays* Reali wish i would have gotten the job otherwise my parents will nag till no end.

Oh man, juz wish mi all e best~!! oh and HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!! Wish mi as well... cos there's a child in everyone!!! =)

I SUCKS!

2006-09-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

I SUCKS TO THE CORE!!!!!!!! WEIYAN SUCKS!!!!!

HOME!!!

2006-09-27T15:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i went to pek house ard evening to tuition siewling. Mok was there too. We were playing with Brownie when we first reached. Brownie has grown to be pretty. =) Hope Lion will grown into a v handsome one. Hahaha. After that siewling went to her grandma's funeral and we went to eat our dinner. After our dinner, we decide to go look for siewling.. we pei her chat till 11 plus then we went home. I was more n more engrossed in my book that i had bought. And finally, i finished reading it today le~! Another one to go!!

Today slack at home again. Jo later will come over to my house to slack, to be accurate, she's on her way now. Both slackers together.. hahaha.. OH! GREAT NEWS! I've got an interview next Monday! Hahaha.. Finally some hope! =) I cant wait for the friendly on this coming fri.. heez.. Longed to play that!!! That's all for now.. i've got to check on my Lion in case he did someting naughty again~! Heex~!!!

*Take care of ur knee, Butter.
*JIA U Dear!
* Darling if u got to see this.. I MISS U!!!!!

Slackers

2006-09-25T18:42:00.000-07:00

Tis few weeks has been at home slacking like hell.. waiting for the call for mi to relief primary sch but no calls has been recieved.. quite disappointing. I just found out that many of my teamates are down with the same illness!! Flu, cough, sore throat and some fever! Oh man.. hahaha I suspect is either kelly or huizhi spread de.. hahaha no la kidding.. I just recovered from the same illness and now SICK AGAIN!! Freaking irritating la. Sian de lor. Ltr mayb pei Butter go see her knee. Hope she's ok.. Siewling's grandma just passed away, hope she's ok.. Take care!

Sometimes feel like skinning my dog alive sia... he's damn naughty la. But of cos i will onli skin verbally. =P

Hated the life of being jobless, as u would be able to hear my parent's nagging almost everyday! They would nag n nag n nag!!! Couldnt stand it animore! Just went malaysia with Christ chruch sec and pek n mok to play frenly. It was damn fun although we lost. It's been my dream to go overseas to play even though it's just malaysia la. heez.

Tink i'll just end here.. Take Care everyone out there whu is sick!!!

*Dun feel sad.. JIA U~! - to siewling*
*Get well Soon!! - to xin fang, yijun and butter (so far i onli know this ppl whu r sick*
*WORK HARD FOR O's!! - to pek, mok n siewling*
*Slack more n haf fun! - to jo, bear, huizhi, ah qin, baozhen, ching hui,and all hkn*
*JIA U for cuming exams! - to all christ church ppl!!*

Revive!!!

2006-09-13T21:29:00.000-07:00

oh man, it's been like months since i have blogged.. It's damn long la. the reason for not blogging was not those stupid excuse like no time or too many things to do, but "MY COMPUTER DIED"!!! OK i was too exaggerating, but i'm so fustrated over months using that stupid half dead computer.. Now it is officially down! Right now i am using my sis's laptop. I couldnt be using it cause it's obviously not mine. hahaha getting abit insane over here. During these few months, many stuffs happens. Like i got my first job, then i got accused by 6 officers, then i quited. And the recently event was my birthday~! =) Thanks girl for celebrating with me. =) I'm so touched although i didnt teared right at the moment la. U should know that weiyan always like to act strong de.. =P

I was damn touched when you gals went to customized my cake.. T-T so touched. Thanks for everyting.
Right now i am finding a new job, a job which i would stay for long. i need money NOW!! Tml goin to watch "Little Man".. so happi. =) i miss going sentosa~!

I think i will stop here. Don't want to nag anymore later everyone start avoiding my blog.. heez. If there's a chance to blog again, i'll tell u all more about my recent events k? Meanwhile juz bear with mi and Msg mi if u all could. =) I'll miss all of u de.. =)

Np Gals.. JIA U for u Polite games~! u rocks~!!
Hkn gals... those having exams rite now pls JIA U~!! for those whu r slacking, haf fun~!
Clementi gals, i miss u gals...
Christchurch gals... thanks for tt day n jia u for ur cuming exams~!

+10o4+

=)

2006-06-29T00:10:00.000-07:00

Hey it's been so long since i have blogged.. lots of stuffs happened n i shall update it real quick here.. ok.. HKN has not been disband but given a period of 3 months provision. If within this 3 months we cant meet up to coach's standard, we'll b disband.. if we meet up to his standard, he will come out to take us.. hahahaha ok his standard is:
1) must b punctual
2) attendance must b good
3) no walking on court
4) stamina muz b good

above are all his standards.. we'll try to meet them although some seems so impossible.. JIA U~!! another news is THE CURRENT CAPTAIN OF HKN IS WANYING~!!!!! hahaha i m officially stepped dwn.. thanks =) so muz say xin ku ni le wanying.. =)

oh ya apart frm this, dear's team (combined white) has gotten champion for milo youth cup under 16... =) great job dear!!! n this cumin fri will b a final match btw bro n pek they all.. both i oso support sia.. hahaha juz JIA U both k? oh n heard pek sprain her ankle ytd.. bcareful k? muz take care!!! jia u!!!

oh there's one big great news!!!! TML I M GOIN FOR JOB INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!! oh man freaking damn excited la... hope they will employ mi... *prays* juz now even went to get formal wear with jo sia.. hahaha hope they dun find mi too girl then dun wan mi... =x

n my gals WON!!!!!!!!!!! they won the match today against yushof ishak... so freaking proud of all of u gals.. keep up the good job n continue to JIA U~!!! their score was not low sia.. 32-11!!!! good play today!!!! JIA U for the up coming match k?? huggs!!!!!!!!

ok i was trying to b short n sweet but end up it seems tt it isnt short either... hahaha shall end here le... slping earli for tml's interview!! =) god bless mi...

good nites everyone out there.. *hugs*

i hate being alone.

2006-06-09T00:32:00.000-07:00

i hate the feeling of being alone... being walking in a shoppping center alone.. being at home alone n watever alone.. i dun like the feeling... i'm trying to b happy again aft those tings... sorry that u got to bear all this with mi... sorri..

i juz wan all this to end quickly.. i dun wan keep having nightmares.. i reali need someone with mi.... T-T

Smile Weiyan

2006-06-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

tml will be meeting coach to aft coaching to tok abt hkn le... the fate of hkn.. haiz... dun wanna tok abt it animore.. hey dear, take care of urself k? u need to jia u in ur game de so get well soon k? huggies.... some pics to cheer ppl up!!

they are so cute rite? hahahaha =)

On the phrase of moving on

2006-06-04T01:20:00.000-07:00

sorry for letting so many of u worri especially dear... i've tot abt it le.. n i'll let go n move on.. =) but i tink i still need time.. i dun wish our friendship will turn out to b like tt so i hope we still can b like the past. =) i hope we reali can, although i noe now priority got to b ur teammates now.. thanks for all the good memories all of ur has given mi... thanks.. i will nv forget n close this chapter of my life here.. even if we cant be teammates, i'll see u all on court again i hope.. by tt time i'll b faster n stronger than ani1 of u out there le.. if not i'll be ur audience supporting all of u.. =) but hope our lobster family still survives.. =)

i juz cant bear for everyting to cum to an end n all of u to leave... teammates n frens forever.

i'l nv forget our happi moment in zoo. =)

Moving On?

2006-05-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

today woke up with a fear.. fear to meet coach ltr on.. i had coaching in clementi town today. i met coach, he didnt say aniting.. he didnt say much to mi. i mean he nv tok much to mi. i'm juz quiet the whole training.. during one of the breaks, he ask mi.. "r u in a bad mood? u dun seem to smile like u used to be." Onli then i realised.. i nv truely smile for some time le.. of cos aft tt he nv tok to mi le.. i wan to smile like i used to be.. dear say i muz move on. i had to. i m trying ba.. trying to stop tinkin abt the past.. tryin to stop tinkin... aft trainin coach normally will ask mi to drink n tok to mi but today he nv, he say he meeting other ppl then walk off liao.. i stil got to meet him on wed n thurs.. oh my.. haiz.. muz try to DUN CARE~!!!!!!!!

weiyan jia u!!!!

Dear and bro.. muz JIA U for ur youth cup k? i'll b watching every match of urs!! JIA U~!

although we may not speak to each other animore... although i m sad.. but to mi, all of u will always b in my heart.. jia u ba... quan yan..............................................

SUCKS

2006-05-28T03:10:00.000-07:00

i tot today was a great day for mi.. but it turn out to b the worst...

iwent to meet dear aft so long of not meeting up. i juz met her for lunch then got to go off for U14 training. during my lovel lunch i recieved a msg saying that they r unable to cum for our training. "....DAMN IT" was wat i sms back. we had training at 4pm initially, then . called mi to tell mi tt they r cuming the day b4.. n ask mi switch the training back to 6pm. i was so incredibly happi.. overwhelm~! then i settled everyting n on tt day 2 hrs b4 4pm, . sms mi n say they are not cuming le. n i've got to switch back training to 4pm bcos we do not haf enuff ppl to train. i called every1 but lots of them didnt pick up the phone. i tot it's ok since we haf the u14 ppls. but.... wat the ****! onli 2 turn up.. none of those whu not turning up tell mi. great. when i callled ppl to call them then they say parents dun allow.. but i did ask someone to confirm the no of ppl cuming le.. not there's onli 2 ppl!!! plus mi, ching hui n pebble.. we onli got 5 ppl.. IMAGINE 5 ppl trying to train? ok for coach side u shld noe his reaction. he SCOLDED mi for sure.. i hate to take all e blames when it;s not mi... i juz hate it... but we had fun despite all tt cos i was like crazy and we play half court. aft tt Tet n joyce came. sian. when we went to eat dinner, we past hkn cc court where e boys r training too, coach told us to suspend all our trainings. he's angry n i m too..

i cried but tis time i felt better as i haf decided on tings. ppl change n i noe. too tired to witness everyting le. i wish i m tt changing party n let them see how i feel rite now. it's no longer the same animore. i teared everytime i pass kallang.. memories juz came to mi.. i teared when i look at the stars.. as we say it's memories liao.. let it b memories.. good memories which i'll not forget.. thanks. =) so juz leave.. the moment u all got the thought of leaving.. everyting juz izzit the same animore.. we r juz not good for u all. once u all leave i'll not play ball animore. mayb for leisure but not as a team animore.. i'll leave for good. i'll not see ani bb match unless it's dear's. no more.. i'll leave quietly n make sure i wont b found by all of u.. mayb u all will say tt i'm selfish cos i didnt wan to let u all go..but u all are too.. aint u? u all came n shone us with hope.. u all once again burn my passion again... n now u all leave n took the light frm mi.. n make mi hate basketball.... i'm selfish too. i'm human. u al ask mi to join u all but i will join for the sake of u all but we aint the same animore... wat's the point? look at all of u.. haf u tot of our gang? NO. thanks for tt.. thanks for hurting mi. it's no longer tt gang le.

i had my wall pasted with a black board full of our gang's pics. the time when we had fun.. now i feel like tearing them apart. but i'll juz leave them there for the moment ba. i'm so tired. i'm trying to move on nw. dun bother mi, i wish i nv noe all of u. i wish u all nv had came.. but hope dear's not offended bt this... i'm not saying u. =)

ok.. my com is officially dead but revived for this moment onli.. mayb it took pity on mi n let to type ba.. hahaha... so i wont b blogging tt often cos muz see my com's mood de.. hahah aniting sms instead. thanks dear for comforting mi n pei mi tok on phone.. thanks.. =)

life's juz so weird.... memories can onli b memories.. can it b brought back? haiz.

MOODY

2006-05-16T14:54:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling damn moody today.. shld say since ytd ba. wanted to swim but in the end i decided not to go, wanted to go shopping alone but in the end i decided not to go too.. wat the hell m i tinking sia. mayb i'll go np training ltr. at least i can go trainin, so long nv had training le. ytd caoch told mi to resume training. so i msg all of them tat there's training on sat. yay~~! there's trainin.. =) can we b the same again? dun dare to tink. so kelian pekpek they all 5... they had to cum for trainin despite their quan yan's training. so sorri i cant help u all...

dear's bro had dengue fever sia.. prays that dear's ok. take care pls..

ok i tink i end here. juz dun feel like toking n typin.. =) sorri let u all worri abt mi. i'll b ok de. dun worri.. =) jia u gals for all ur youth cup.. i'll b there to support u all de. jia u.

When i feel like endin my life...

2006-05-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

mayb all of u might tink i m crazy, then dun look at my blog.. i had a sudden urge to end my life for juz this instant. i'm so sick of my life.. so sick.. it's nearing 17th le but there's no news. i'm under tremenous stress.. mayb i'm juz stressing myself. i dunno how to let myself calm dwn. i'm so bored over my life. i needed someone by my side. Someone. Someone. i need some hug. i dunno how to tell others, so at least i still haf my blog here. =) thanks blog. it has been tired to always support ppl. mayb last life i m a baddie.. it's my retribution ba. i'm so lost n reali needed someone to guide mi. guide mi tru this darkness... mayb i shld see some physcologist.

i was tinkin thru my list of friends whu i can cried to.. n i found no1.. cos i dun feel like bothering them. all of u has ur own problems, own things to care abt... i''m scared to give them problems.. let them fan. i'm sorri i'm not a good frien to share problems.

wonderin wat i shld do tml.. juz dun wan to stay at home.. home juz make mi feel unhappi. nvm juz hope all of ur de weiyan will cum back.. =) i'll juz stay happi for now. i still need to support ppl de.. so for now i wont fall ba. hope so. end here le. dun feel like toking or typing le. mayb tml i'll juz shut off my phone for the whole day. those whu wans to find mi juz too bad.

==tink i miss u more..==

2006-05-11T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today woke up with a scare... had dreams... dreams isnt my cup of tea.. i always seldom has dreams.. when i haf it's either someting bad goin to happen or smth else.. feeling weird... i dreamt i m ill... dwn with some kind of incurable illness.. was damn weak but i told no1.. then i was like following all of my friens walking n walking a long journey n i was getting weaker n weaker but no1 realise.. ok was like wat m i dream la.. wat is tis dream trying to imply? mayb i shld tink so much.. lucky it's not cramp n nightmare cos when tis always happen i'll get sprain ankle. duno is coincident or wat but it's like always. never fail...

woke up frm tt dream finalli... n there was a relief.. i m ok.. =) it's good to b healthy~!! did my house chores which i promise mom to do.. aft tt rush to the clementi town meeting.. stupid la.. it was a meeting tat tell coaches n instructors on the sch's vision all tt.. -to aspire n grow... diaozed la... then ask questions frm others.. i'm like the smallest inside.. so paiseh la.. aft tt took mrt home.. reached chinese garden n i decide to go hke find bear they all to play bb.. was playing n laughing like hell.. but none as playing serious at all.. but at least i can feel myself jumping n "flying" today!! hahaha dear say i wont b able to tml... idiot la.. i'll make her see my "flying" again!! * u watch n see!! still ask mi hug tree!!! =P* playing till ard 7pm then i went back home .. slack n watch tv till now.. bored.. my com isnt doin fine.. juz now b4 i could use properly.. it juz auto shut off, the nxt moment was no internet, den it was asking mi to close my msn.. n said my msn was corrupted.. damn la.. no hope liao la this com.. need to reformat soon i tink.. got to save extra copies of all my stuff to a thumbdrive or wat ba... =)

tml will b my exculsive workout day again... hahaha tink i goin swim alone again at geylang.. then meet dear aft her class then go meet pekpek play ball ba... hahaha.. i wan b more slim n fitter!!! cos i tink i fat liao! has been eating damn alot recently la... i m 55kg liao!!! goin to slim till 50kg.. tt's my target!! hahahahaa so sad la.. tt's for today i tink.. =) smile!!

juz pray tt my entry to NIE will b approved ba.. haiz.. **prays**. good luck and jia u for all my frens in their exams! JIA U~!!!

smilez. =10o4=

Exclusive workout day~! =)

2006-05-09T16:48:00.000-07:00

Today woke up ard 9pm to wash up n prepare to go swimming.. never went swimming alone so this is actuali my first time.. took bus alone. on the bus, memories of all the school days juz came like a storm.. both sad and happi times.. i really miss those days. i'm no longer schooling le.. consider adult liao.. saw lots of secondary schools kid, i reali did admire them.. i wish i never did grow up.. =) reach bus stop which is my sec sch's bus stop.. every ting juz seem not to change except the faces of the sec sch kids.. walk to the swimmming complex. Got change and set off to my swimming session. Swam about 18 times the length of the pool which is 9 laps rite? hahaha first time i swam so much. everytime go with pekpek nv swim de.. always tok onli so today i reali did SWAM!! hahaha.. Eyes of those pervert ppl were looking from time to time.. i hate them la. wat's wrong?! haha. Went to bath and set off to meet kexin for lunch at jp. ate long john silver.. wa kao so sinful sia. chat abit then went to walk ard. so sad.. there's so much tings to buy but i got no money$$!! no choice.. aft tt went home n did my new blog skin. love the lime green n black combination! chat with dear awhile on phone n she went to sleep le. piggeeee! =P hahaha Dun make mi call u ** *** *** hahahha oops.. dun kill mi... =P ok.. now goin off le.. goin back to ngee ann.. bball meeting cum gathering.. so go there play abit of bb with them ba.. aniwae i oso miss them.. O-O got to go liao.. bye. i'll improve more on my blog... hehehe

2006-04-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

okay it's been sometime since i've blogged.. it's not i busi but i lazy to la.. i actuali forgot when liao but i tink it's last last thursday.. mi, zf, dear and pekpek when to geylang to eat their magnificent food~!! i reali enjoy them la.. b4 meeting pekpek n dear, i was watching bro's national finals~! congrats bro. n she even got her MVP.. so proud of her la.. haax! aft tt was waiting for her to take pics all tt den take cab dwn with jo n ah qin to sbc.. i was damn hungry den.. watch jvs's match awhile then went to find dear n pekpek at the library. with lots of grumbling of hunger by mi n bro, they decided to go. then we set off to geylang. we were finding the duck rice stall which bro says it's nice... but erm erm we like walk so long la.. then finally reaCH.. i'm like goin to faint liao.. then i still rmb bro says it's opposite the place which sells lots of lights.. hahaha it's at lorong 27 la..then we decided to eat on... we went to lorong 19 for our beancurd.!!! hahahaha then lorong 13 for our tou qiang you tiao... hahahaha then lorong 9 for our DURIANS~!!! hahahah was so fan la.. n so nice!! i love eating.. wanna go to tis "expetition" again!!! =) here's some of the pics i took while eating.. if u notice there's mi missing cos i was the camera woman.. hahaha..

nxt time then load the pics cos com smth cant load up..

Gym day

2006-04-19T01:02:00.000-07:00

Today has been slacking the whole day at home untill training time. Went to training but was rainin.. so we went gym instead. did all the gym stuffs n now i cant lift my arms sia~! =D hahahaha we like freaking love the gym la... mi, n pekpek keep doin lor.. hahaha now like my whole body muscle ache!! sian le tml still got to bring my CTSS to frenly... haiz. so stress la.. hate it when coach will shout at mi like hell la.. haiz but to ren lo.. -__- nth to write le..

juz now saw this pic frm someone's frienster.. got no idea whu the person is n why the person view mi but the primary pic attracted mi... i m in love with it~!! so nice!!

i dunno why i love it so much but it's so nice la.. hahahaha =)

goin to sleep now le... juz pray for the best tml... bye.. sweet dreams to all~!! =)

* i love my dear dear... =)

fun fun fun~!

2006-04-16T15:09:00.000-07:00

Fri- good friday~!

had a great day on good friday~!!! we had training in the morning..as usual i kanna by coach again.. repeating the same run over n over again lo~! haiz.. aft tt pek, mok n dear went my house to bath... got some of the pics at my house below.. aft bathing n "make-up~ing" (haha), we set off to cine leisure.. it was raining heavily but it's not goin to stop us~! hahahaha we reach somerset n it was rainin so heavily la.. we had to run to cineleisure~! lucky i brought my "powderful" jacket along~! hahaha.. reach there then bought tickets to the movie "8 below". aft tt we went to eat pasta mania n waited for zheng fang there. aft finish eating we went to take Neoprints sia.~! hahaha so funni la.. we like so olbang then nv take b4 like tt.. hahahaha aft tt we went for the movie.. it's freaking nice la.. i recommend all pets/ dogs lover to watch~! i'm so touched by the movie~!! i still rmb there's one scene a dog "max" lure away the big sea lion n the sea lion was chasing him, then zheng fang was there covering her ear n say "bu yao, bu yao" i was laughing like hell la.. hahahaha =) aft the movie, we went to hereen to take neoprints again.. we were having lots of fun la.. hahahaha aft tt went to taka drink ice-lemon tea n ice-crean at KFC then went home le.. was a damn tiring day but v fun in deed~! had lots of fun with u all~! it's juz like the old days we had... i'm reali happi~!

Sat

ytd went swimming with pek at sbc there.. b4 swimming we meet zf n dear, they were eating MAC for breakfast b4 their national youth trainin.. wa lau ltr they vomit i luaugh.. =P at the pool, mi n pekpek tok over lots of stuffs.. tok n tok till we onli swam 150m onli~! so pathetic lor.. hahahaha but it was reali fun... aft tt went eat lunch with pek, zf, dear n kaiyi.. she so cute la.. hahahaha sso auntie... =) aft tt went ah pek house... initially was to study de... ended up all of us slpin... hahaha woke up n was like already 7pm liao.. over dinner at a hawker near pek house, they were teasing mi all e way especially pekpek.. keep saying abt the emergency button~!!! idiot her la... hahahaha but was funnni... =) aft tt went home le..

now waiting for time to pass to our match~~!! HKN vs Chong Gee.. =) muz do our best~! hehehe... sian nth to do... =)

here's all e pics..

dear n pek.. -i style their hair~! hahaha at my house(doesnt look pek liao rite?)

dear, mok n pek

Us~!

mi n dear =)

Our leggs in mrt... mine loook so fat~!

the Neoprints that we took:

another bad day..

2006-04-05T01:51:00.000-07:00

Sometimes mayb i care too much.. mayb i shld juz hack on everyting n juz pretend i duno aniting.

JIA U... JIA U manjusri.. u al can do it de~~!!!
JIA U dear!!! u can do it de.... JIA U~! i'll b there for u... JIA U.. u can de... smile k? b happi..

==don't cry because you know==

=what happened has happened=

=you can never turn time back and=

=wish nothing like this would happened=

=your tears are worth=

=more than anything in this world=

=find the cause of your teardrops=

=stop and swap your negative thoughts=

=smile to yourself=

=cos you are who you are=

=no one is perfect=

=that's why failures occur=

=but one thing that you have to know is that=

=there is=

=no right and wrong=

=therefore work hard and=

=strive for the next better game=

==Dun give up.==

this is taken frm someone's blog.. thanks.. find it so meaningful... hope it can help u dear.. =) JIA U...

ALoNe...

2006-04-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

haiz.. tings are getting rough for mi.. i'm juz trying my best for everyting now.. i'll do watever i can n when my limits are reali up, i'll juz say sorry n leave.. too tired le man.. y are ppl tinking for themselves onli? y cant we tink for others too? y muz we b so gey giao on so tiny tings neh? we're all teammates rite? tings aint goin our way.... feel so alone now... standing alone.. all those whu once support mi all leaving.. i mean left.. i let them go.... =(

hope tings will get better.. reali hope.. so tired le.. i'm now dragging to walk the path le.. ppl dislike mi i oso dun care le.. hack le.. i'll juz walk alone if no1 wans to walk with mi.. i'll juz go on till my very limit.. jia u...

jia u hkn... jia u... we are not so weak rite? we wont fall juz like tt de rite? we can de.. we can de..

i miss lobster family.. the old one... the so fun one.. ppl all changes... all change to someone we couldnt even recognised.. where's the fun ppl we had? we're not together animore.... tings are so wierd now.. i'm so sad.. why not mi the one whu change? why is it mi whu witness the changing of all ppl... haiz..so sick so sick of all this.. i miss all my teammates.. all the ex teammates, all jvs teammates, lobster family. everyting.. juz let mi die off will yeh? i cant stand it le..

hey manjusri.. tml jia u hor.. dun let us dwn~!! JIA U~!! u all can do it de~! =) jia u...

dear believe in urself.. u can de.. no matter wat happens there's mi to support u.. k? jia u. love u lots~!!! muackz..

tired.... v tired..............................

Disppointed~ in myself....

2006-04-03T13:42:00.000-07:00

ytd against butter's team- Tampines East. Totally so sad.. i'm so disappointed in my team... dunno why whe we entered second round, all of them like so "dun wan to play" attitude. Although we knew the results alreadi even b4 we play against them but r u all goin to b juz defeat like tt? aint we all goin to put out a fight? a tough fight? a tough win for them? show them, show all tt HKN isnt so easy defeated n HKN isnt bein looked dwn de n show them tt we HKN~ian has the skills! Mayb it's juz onli myhaving this stupid tinking.. mayb... but i m juz feeling so unfair n unhappy when ppl looked dwn on us.. even if the lots are good but we got to b strong in order to win all n enter rite? ppl always onli look on the surface why not look into us? haiz. i dunno wat's goin on n wat all of u all are tinking, but i know alot of u are unhappi. Honestly speaking, if we are continuing this kind of attitude, i dun wish to play animore... no point u see.. no point.. but of cos i sincerely hope aft ytd, we can have a great change .. i reali wish to move up with all of u... move hkn to the nxt level or standard... jia u...

i'm sorry to my team ytd i totally lose control in the match.. i'm like a crazy dog getting the third foul in the 2rd quarter onli.. i'm completely losing myself.. coach told mi tt my strongest point is in defending n taking rebound n i'm totally weak in attack, so he ask mi to concentrate on my defence n rebounce. but ytd even defence i couldnt do properly.. every single ting is completely 0~! i'm like a burden to the team. i didnt do ani contribution n i even hai my team lose balls. wat the **** m i doin? *sorry for the usage of tt* haiz.. i feel tt i'm play worser n worser each match.. i dun noe wat i m doin.. can someone help mi? can someone help mi with my butter finger can? i'm totally irritated with my butter fingers... wat can i do? arghhh.... i totally suck la...
sometimes i wonder... wat happen to mi... haiz...

stupid mi ytd injured my finger.. now couldnt bend at all.. i got to see doc ltr. hope it's juz purely sprain.. but feel kinda funni go see doc for a finger sprain. hahahaha back oso bad sia. sian.. r they reminding mi tt i m old le? haiz.. so sian lo.. hahahha now looking outside the windows n it's so freaking hot la.. oh no.. ltr bcum cao ta... hahaha got coachin so got to go now..

JIA U HKN!~! nv see die!! nv fall... united we stand! let's start afresh! we can de!! JIA U~!!! =)

Lollipops~!

2006-03-28T13:49:00.000-08:00

LOLLIPOPS~!! Lollipops~! sooo many!! hahahaha i got 78 lollipops! hehehe thanks dear.. =P i love lollipops!!!! now slacking at home rottin... my back hurts.. injured last match with QIan Xi.. stupid la i go defend cai meh meh.. then kanna.. hahaha.. hope my back will recover in time for our match against butter's team! we muz jia u.. ltr still got trainin.. heard mok n ah qin kanna tt cough too.. hope they recover soon.. jia u.. oh n baozhen injured her hand.. hope she's ok too.. jia u..

hey tml's match against cedar, MANJUSRI JIA U~!! pekpek tt day against Qian Xi u can qie the coaches liao.. tml u can too!! mok u oso can de.. jia u!! hey dear dun tink so much n JIA U~~! u can do it.. u all can do it de i'm v sure!!! i'll b there supportin all of u!! =)

jia u...

=(

2006-03-26T01:45:00.000-08:00

Juz now had training.. so tired.. couldnt reali sleep mayb partly bcos of my stupid cough n Headache ba.. v v haedache now.. my head feels like bursting.. =(
Juz now kanna scoldings from old coach n BL keep saying mi la.. sian.. i noe i m wrong so i didn blame them.. but i feel so damn fustrated when wat i do always doesnt seem right. At that moment i feel so damn retard. Is like i couldnt react la. For all the years of my bb life, it seems that i couldnt improve n move up at all... it seems that i m stuck at wat my so call level now. Sometimes a sudden thought would came across my mind... Mayb basketball isnt my kind of game.. i'm so sorri but i couldnt seem to move up.. confidence level are falling.. i always encourage others but when it cums to myself.. it's so hard. I'm so sad... haiz...

end here ba.. dunno wat to say aniwae.. JIA U gals.. =)

Gone Crazy again...

2006-03-25T01:31:00.000-08:00

have been tinkin too much again.. have been worrying this n that again.. why do i haf a small brain that cant stop tinking sia. Tinkin over sensible stuffs nvm, but i'm always tinkin over stupid stuffs la. i'm crazy again juz now.. made dear unhappy again. Í'm so sorri.. I didnt did it on purpose.. i juz feel that i'm not myself.. someting seems missing.. lacking but i couldnt find wat's wrong. Had a sudden urge of leaning to someone's shoulder n have a big cry.. Had a sudden urge of leanin to someone whu would shelter mi frm all fears n harm. that person is U.. -> u shld noe. =) i Just took med to get better so tt i wont worry u again n again. Sorri..

I'm tinkin too much again...

2006-03-23T08:50:00.000-08:00

Manjusri lost today... all was like a nightmare le.. mok n pekpek cry.. tryin to console them aft the match. jia u... when we were in train, they were like tokin abt it again.. until i shouted at the 3 of them.. including dear.. i'm sorri.. but i was reali so angry. All of u aways tink it's impossible, difficult, then wat's the point of playing on if all of u tink this way? Skills i believe all the 3 of u haf liao, but it's juz the mentallity n whether u can overcome urself ma.. but what i heard is juz excuses that all of u made. face it, learn n improve.. otherwise all of u cannot go far. i reali hope tt u all will understand.

I know dear's v angry too but i juz dun like the way u all tink.. made mi so sad. believe u can!! JIA U~~!!! Sometimes feels sad.. dunno why.. feel so helpless. dunno how to say.. haiz... i'm tinkin too much again.. sian.. dots.....dots......dots......

my defeat..

2006-03-23T01:13:00.000-08:00

so long nv update le. today, or should i say ytd, we played against Home United. Ok, i sucks la. The whole team was not playing to standard at all. All of us was so lost and referees ask us whether we are scared or wat n what happen to us. oh man the final scores was i tink 15 to 103 la.. damn it. so freaking angry. I made their no. 10 angry sia. I will not remember the gai hwo guo she given mi la, n i did back to her too. hahaha.

After this match, it makes mi feel how tiny n insignificant i was. I'm so lousy. I wan to IMPROVE is wat i m tinking all the way in the whole match. Their standard differs from us too greatly liao, but i want to be like them. Mayb i'm asking too much but wat's the point if we remain like tt for mayb years? Ah Qin words made mi feel sad. Yes we muz faced the facts tt they are far too strong frm us, but without even trying? mayb we'll make tt difference? I juz feel that the team needs to trust each other more. Trust us. Haiz... wat a match.. made my mood sucks la.

Tml watching dear's match. hope everyting wil b fine.. *prays*.
Hope i wont b sick.. hope i will b able to b strong n stay by dear's side n not the other way round. But recently my body juz oppose mi la. Had rashes last few days bcos of alcohol overdose, then right side of my stomach keeps hurting for a few days liao even till now. Juz now wanted to bluff tru but still kanna caught by dear. haiz. Lucki was able to tahan n play. Now headache like hell. Nose feels funni too. Scarely is Kelly spread to mi de cos she this afternoon kept sneezing in front of mi in the sports complex. Now helping dear do some researches. too tired le tink i slpin soon le.

Life so lost, no sense of direction at all after i grad. Sian. now is walk one step tink one step ba....

I wan be STRONGER... I WAN~!!!

Jia u butter.. JIA U DEAR... jia u all... (feels kind of sad when i saw ex-hkn ppl today... =( .. i found tt i miss u all more than i tot i'll miss.. but i noe i haf to move on... haf to move ahead even if it's dead road.. )

=10o4=

Last Day Of my Attachment- New Start of adult life~..

2006-03-03T15:58:00.000-08:00

It's last day of my 6 months attachment to Nature Landscape. 6 months was neither long nor short but from this particular 6 months, i learnt to be independent and had been exposed to part of the working society. I have also made new friends of different ages. =) I'm miss them the most! Never forgetting tt mama they called mi to call her (Rovena), her upmost care-taking of mi through this 6 months. Glory, the most glorious and wonderful lady in the whole of Nature, she's so nice to me.. =) . Not forgetting belinda, the most altheletic woman of nature who always laugh so cute, she also kept gving mi stuffs to eat making mi fat sia... hahaha.. Not forgetting people like daren, kingston, vincent, lim, chye teen whu always make fun of me. Of cos there will be someone whu always wanted mi to help him type BQ!!! Yong Sheng~!!! hahaha i still own him comics! HAHAHA~ thanks alot.. u guys make my entire 6 months wonderful, Although i knew only rovena will see this but i juz wan to write it out. =P I must really praise ur bf that he's so capable that he could find my blog address out.. hahaha.. aniwae i wouldnt mind letting people see cos blog is meant to be open i supposed.. heez. I'll miss all of u. =(

At the same time i'm quite happi cos i'm with freedom again~! I can be like what i used to be like again! I can have the time to go sentosa to tan, go swimming, go shopping, go play basketball all over singapore~! hahaha so much tings to be done. Oh n i forgotten, i wan go clubbing~! heez. BUT the most important ting is... i need MONEY~! Aiyo it's always so sensitive when we cum to tis topic.. haha.. nvm i'll get some part-time job with real flexible time so i can train, teach bb and go out at the same time.( seems impossible ba. whu wans employ this kind of ppl?) haha.. see how it goes ba.

Today going to marche after work with all my colleagues~! So happi~! =) At least today they found mi a laptop to let mi use so i can do daren's autocad drawing. Feeling kinda of sleepy rite now. Wish there's a pillow bside mi now.. =P hahaha.. Oh ya heard that butter lost her recent match. Wonder if we can meet then during the second round ma provided we got in too la. reali hope we can get it. I didnt wan to say but i really fear bcos i dun wish for history to repeat itself again and again. Wat history u must be wondering, it's when we always have the most chance of winning or entering the next round, we'll always get disappointed. u shld noe wat i meant? haiz.. Really hope history doesnt repeat itself again lo.. we must really work hard for it.. JIA U~! =)

Darling ar will u cum for training tml? if u see this tell mi k? dear's having training now i tink hope she's alrite.... jia u.. i wonder pekpek's ankle ok le ma.. xiao xin diao all of u.. alamak sia make mi worri~! nth more to blog le.. tink end here le.. got to get out of this room b4 i get deaf~!! i'm behind the whole renovation! they juz use canvas sheet to cover the knock dwn wall and they are doin renovation there lo!! i'm juz bhind tt canvas sheet! The knockings are making mi deaf!! And it is even worst when there are sparks flying into the room!! Can u imagine if it landed on my hair!!! BURN!!! oh gosh~! hahahaha ok now it stops liao.. n they are listening to some sort of indian music.. oh my.. hahaha i'm goin bonkers.. one moment LOUD knockings then sparks and now indian music~!!! hahaha m i racist? no la.. hahaha tink stop here ba. blog again if i haf chance =) but dun tink will be so recent as there wont be so much time for mi to slack in front of the com like i always did in the office! hahaha but i'll try blogging if i can everyday~! ^-^P heez...

To all my wonderful colleagues~! Take care and smile always~! rmb mi hor! HAHAHA =) jia u for everyting u all did~! smilez~!

To HKN~ians... JIA U again~! love u gals~! muz take care k? Let's chiong all the way~!

To Dear.. JIA U~!!! I'll b there for u always~! bcareful! i can watch ur every match liao hahaha... =p

Suay sia..

2006-03-02T10:20:00.000-08:00

Couldnt wake up in time today for work.. woke up later than usual feeling very tired. Lookin myself in the mirror, i asked myself "why the hell m i so freaking tired?" After stoning in the mirror for a few minutes i went to prepare and it was then i recieved dear's msg. It certainly brighten up my day~! =) While walking to the mrt, i began to think about my future plans. It's a total blank. I duno wat to do, wat i truely wanted. Duh~! It's like goin to grad in like less than a few weeks and i dun even noe wat the hell i truely wanted. Applied NIE le but lots of ppl tell mi it's very hard to get in especially when u had to go tru an interview with a poor english and a blurred mi.. u all shld noe mi very well la.. -__- hahaha sian la. juz pray n hope for the best ba. Late le i still can slowly stroll to the mrt sia. a v slack attitude. mayb bcos i'm leaving in like less than 2 days... hope can faster end.. it's like a torture to mi here la. nth to do n now no place for mi to sit~!! hahaha reached company ard 9:12pm.. hahaha now slacking in front of the PC again.. hahaha time seems to pass damn slow lo.. haha..

Yesterday had training aft work.. rushed there but still late. lucki nv rain.. there's 11 ppl at first but ah mao, agnes n jac had doc's appointment so left at 8pm... so left 8 of us training... kelly so poor ting broke a new bottle of perfume there which makes the place smell damn nice la.. hahaha i like tt smell although it's men's perfume.. haha.. *pats kelly head* dun feel sad la.. at least u still haf the cap as souvenir rite? =p hehe haiz my bad ting reali happen la.. the cramp prediction.. i slightly sprain my ankle ytd when doin the zhong fei jiao bu ... now walk alittle pain.. knee oso dun feel rite.. ytd cant jump at all la while shootin.. stupid sharp pain on my knee.. now still got lor.. haiz... my body reali wanna go on strike liao.. hahaha =p JIA U~!
at least now our team on the surface seem ok.. but dunno inside wat they tinkin still.. so muz tell mi hor~! heez~!! pekpek n mao's leg faster heal la.~!!! n dear's too~! rest well~!!! JIA U~!

CHIONG for the 2nd round gals~!! JIA U~!.... =)

=10o4=

i'm goin to b a free gal~!

2006-03-01T11:59:00.000-08:00

haha.. r u shocked ytd appearing there? hahaha.. juz wanted to say JIA U~!! dun give up!! know it's veri tough for u now but jia u~!!! rmb u r juz too tired le.. u can do it once again de!! do complain n whine at mi k? makes u feel better~!=) i'm always here for u rmb tt!! i feel tt u're worth it.. love u dear.. JIA U~!

YeeeePPPpppi~!! friday's my last day liao!!! i cant wait for tt day to cum! imagine i can b like wat i use to b le.. can play bb..can go out... hahaha butfor sure i need to find someting to earn mi money while waiting for my admission notice rite? if i fail then i might enroll for nxt yr's university le.. it will b tough for mi cos i will haf to pay my own sch fees.. by then i'll b studying smth different liao.. =) so meantime i will b trying out to apply for relief teaching and coaching the clementi gals team... =) so excited for the day to coach them sia~~!! imagine i can tan under the hot sun again! i can train with them n all sort of stuffs... so great la.. hahaha.. jo ask mi apply for clementi's relief teaching then i tell her i rather apply for manjusri de.. =PPpppPPp hahahaha stupid la.. hahaha now i in office i m homeless/ seat-less/ desk-less.. hahah cos new colleague cum in today then her permanent place will b at my desk.. good la.. let mi suffer for the rest of my 2 and half days.. hahaha lucki my manager went malaysia then now i m sitting at his place.. wonder tml how.. hahaha..
wonder why i always so tired.. tink might b bcos of the drowniness effect of my cough syrup.. but it's like frm last night??? duh~! wa kao woke up with a cramp today again.. damn pain la.. wonder wat bad tings will happen today cos everyting i woke up with a cramp smth bad will happen de.. happen to mi nvm dun happen to ppl ard mi pls.. the tot of goin kallang play ball again makes mi sooooooo happi la.. hahaha the tot of watching every single match of dear's makes mi damn happi n high la.. hahahaha sooooo great la~!! =P i tink i like too high liao.. it's nt friday yet.. it's onli WED~!! faster!!! but i'll miss the ppl in my company.. they r so nice to mi... =( i'll miss all of u de....
hope pekpek's ankle ok liao... hope dear's knee n neck ok le.. JIA U~!!
sian diao la.. 7th march is my final presentation then i forgot to make extra copy of my report then i submit liao.. now the reports are in australia liao!! wat i goin to present i wonder.. sian diao lo.. somemore it's a 20mins presentation.. i wonder wat shit i will b tokin lor.. sian sian... haiz... tink need wear formal tt day sia.. sian diao lo.. wonder can wear blouse n jeans ma.. alamak.. haiz... Jia u~! =)

<3 10o4 <3

We did wat the referee dun wan us to do~!

2006-02-27T17:59:00.000-08:00

Yeeppi~!! We Won kaixuan~!! straight 2 wins in a row~! so nice.. nv had tt feeling b4.. =) Hkn rocks on~!! Let's JIA U n beat T-net for the entering of the second round~!! we muz reali JIA U~!!! knew some of u are not happi... bcos nv get to play.. got benched in another words but pls tink on the other side?? u gals are all equally important.. with u gals n all of ur support.. we wont b able to play well at all... ppl are leaving.. y? is there smth wrong with us?? the old playerS? oh man.. haiz.. trying to make them stay but i wont force them.. =( i reali dun wan to lose a teammate..ani teammate... =( so sian always like tt... haizz still sick la.. i tink i reali weak lo.. sick so long.. headache n cough n my block nose juz wont go away la.. shag... but i'll jia u .. the illness making mi soooo tired man.. haiz..
To HKN~ians...
JIA U k? dun give up~! let's show them our power, our strength!! dun tink so much juz play for the time being.. but do all of ur best~!! we CAN de!!!! reali hope all of u can start feeling the bond we haf.. = jia u k??? i reali feel happi playing with all of u.....

dear tis period is ur tough period... u haf to ren! JIA U~!! dun give up k?? i'll b running the track with u so u dun worri.. i'll b there for u k?? no matter how tired or depressed u r.. juz tink tt there will b a person pushing u to the finishing line always.. like i did when we ran the 8 rounds during training.. JIA U dear... u can do it de.. i'm v sure u can do it... huggies... love u dear... JIA U~!!!! so heart pain see u like tt.... haiz.. but there nth i can do expect tt... JIA U~!! bcareful oso dear.. no matter wat happens, u're always my dear.. ^-^P

=10o4=

=)

2006-02-25T10:06:00.000-08:00

i tink my life's back to mormal le ba.. mayb for the time being.. didnt blog for days le cos sick then mc for 2 days then didnt use the com le..now in company typing blog.. so bad la.. but reali nth to do lor.. haha.. tinking 5 more workings days n i'll b free frm this misery le.. n i will b able to watch dear's every match liao... =) hahahaha so happpi~!!!!

we WON nayang alumni!!!! wa kao damn happi la... i tink no1 will expect we'll win.. hahaha HKN rocks on~!!! watever has happen b4.. i'll juz let it go... n b strong again.. i m not goin to care much abt other ppl's tinkin n saying le.. =) cos i noe at least i got afew of the ppl's support! haha so glad we win.. but stupid is i played with a fever n flu la.. dunno where i got the strength frm la when i played.. rite aft the game i was like immediately goin to die n nearly fainted la.. haha damn dizzy when they are doin the cool down... mi n bz fouled out sia... hahaha ok i had stupid foul.. gotta look out on that for tml.. =) at least i bow at the referee table n they nodded at mi.. so happi la.. then manjusri coach kept praising mi.. lalalala... =p i noe all the manjusri ppl kept nagging at mi say they hear liao jiu fan.. hahahaha =p he oso got say ah qin ma... so nice la.. say i good at defence n my rebound good... hahaha actuali i tink ok la.. mayb bcos i like siao char bo kept running, jumpin, n chionging then makes him tink i like dun wan my life... =p hahahha... sometimes i reali tink i siao de.. hahaha but he say my attack need to improve.. it's truth la.. cos i didnt score much or even try.. aniwae the bottom line is WE WON~!!!!

nxt match against kaixuan... muz jia u le.. cant underestimate them!! i fight n chiong like wat we did on wed's match!! rmb hor!! =) JIA U HKN~!!!!

thurs mc so went to watch dear's match .. so sian la see them sit bench onli... then saw mok n pek bargaining with the coach to let them dwn 5 mins.. so funni la.. but in the end they sat all the way.. wa kao waste time la.. hahaha then we went TM eat the go home..

ytd got trainin.. tink my attitude sucks la.. cos i v pek cek always clash with dear.. feel so failure dunno how to pei hei her.. haiz.. i muz jia u le... cant make a burden to dear.. sorri dear.... Let's jia u for tml k??? =)

jia u jia u hkn n those whu nv get to play on the first match.... cool dwn n tink.. all of u are equally impt as us rmb tt!!! we need all of u too~!!!! JIA U~!!! huggies~!

i went tru all tis

2006-02-22T12:11:00.000-08:00

i'm juz acting strong all the way.. i m juz trying to b the strong gal n trying to b everyone's pillar.. i failed.. i tot i can get the team together n i failed again.. this time it's bcos of mi.. i finalli understand.. i got to noe tt they didnt like mi... they said i attitude.. haha..laughable isnt it? ppl whu noes mi out there.. do u tink i would? to my most precious teammates.. to the team i treasure more than my life.. mayb it's my serious face which made them tink this way.. cos of my stupid face? even if i attitude, the person i will attitude is myself.. everytime i will bcos i feel tt i didnt help the team much.. i couldnt play better to help them.. feeling useless.. all ppl has flaws.. but cant i haf flaws? i'm a human.. i m alive.. i cant b perfect.. it's so tired to b asked to b perfect.. isnt it fake? mayb it's other things they didnt like.. but i juz dun feel like knowing dun feel like hearing.. i juz wanna b alone.. can i juz b ordinally? darling says: "no u cant. u start as a leader to us n u muz end as a leader to us.." hearing this words makes mi speechless.. know dear, darling, mok trying to help mi.. thanks... i reali appreciate.. but.. i dunno how to say.. First attack was darling's disappearance.. then was pekpek's ignorance.. then came this ting.. i couldnt take it animore.. once v concerned abt u n when tokin abt bb to u will full of enthu de person changed n no longer be there for u, no longer tell u her problems, no longer draw stars for mi n no longer cry to mi.. i miss the old times.. the kallang time... all was so beautiful.. n i wot forget the time when u drew stars for mi.. =) but at least i got memories ba.. hahaha..
reali dun even feel like playin ltr's match.. mayb i dun play they will win n b better.. dun even wan to wear the jersey.. i'm so tired.. i juz wanna rest.. be an ordinary player whu can attitude to captain n coach.. hack everyting n juz wan cum training juz cum. dun wan cum juz dun wan cum.. ... tt's my fate ba.. mayb i'm not good enuff to b a leader... actuali i m crying everyday.. juz dun wan b alone.. whenever i m alone i will tink abt our hkn past.. the happi past.. tears will juz roll.. i m a person whu cant let go of the past.. i m still hanging on to it.. hanging so badly.. but tryin to move on.. aft listening to dear's song she send mi.. i did feel better.. "moving on" thanks.. =) i didnt wan ani1 of u to fan abt mi. i juz noe tt i will do wat i can n if nth can b done or change le.. i'll leave.. this time i m serious.. sorri to say tt.. sorri for those whu gone tru with mi thick n thin.. i will b taking over coaching for youth cup... i noe i cant do it but i had no choice.. if they noe i took over.. ppl will leave for sure... whu wans such a lousy n no experience n some1 they dun like de person to b their coach? so by then.. i'll leave ba.. dun even haf the team's support how m i goin to hold on? hahaha... laughable joke... i reali miss lindy, zee huey, wan ru, rachel, you yu, jiashi, qiying, pekpek, mok, n all those ex-hkns... i reali miss u all.. then was the most happiest time n u all let mi see the light n hope.. i reali miss all of u.. T-T but i noe.. it's impossible for all of u to cum back now.. thanks for the wonderful memories although i didnt play with u all.. but i feel all of u alwaysby my side no matter wat... =) this is wat i call TEAM... of cos i didnt say ite ppl cum n spoils everyting... n i didnt say ite ppl r bad or wat.. it's juz tt i m the one now.. causing all this.. so i'll juz quietly sits by the side now.. i hope none of the hkn ppl see this n spoils their mood of playing ltr..

i always tot the team always supports mi.. but i m wrong tis time.. i feel so lonely.. nv so lonely n heard b4.. even if my last time bf dump mi.. it's worst than tt.. cos i seethe team even more impt than mi life.. i place them ahead of mi.. mayb i haf not done enuff... mayb..

i feel so down to the bottom.. dunno i shld b wat when i see them ltr.. cant show them i m sad rite?continue to act happi? act nth happen? haiz... i reali dunno... juz wan to thanks butter, darling, dear, rach, qi.. for listening to mi..for being by my side.. thanks.. =) thanks mok for the msg u send mi tt day... u made mi feel alot better.. =) thanks...~!

aniwae i still wanna say.. hkn jia u ltr... mu reali CHIONG no matter how u all dun like mi.. cos jieqi says.. on court even enemy muz play as a team.. so put aside evryting on court.. off court then hate mi ba.. i dun wan to cry ltr... i cried too much le.. if possible i wan to smile all e way..

i juz wan to play kuai le de lan qiu.. is it so difficult? =(

i suxs

2006-02-21T20:55:00.000-08:00

I suxs..

=(

2006-02-20T12:20:00.000-08:00

I'm not goin to say much.. nth much to say animore... i'll do wat i can.. juz wat i can now.. till i reali cannot le then i'll reali give up.. this is wat i can say.. sorri... aniwae no1 even bothers. haha whu cares so much abt this stupid gal... =| wed's match JIA U~!! do ur best k?? we can de~!!! JIA U~!! HKN CHIONG AR~!! i juz feel like hiding in 1 corner to cry... juz like a little gal.. hahahaha stupid sia. hahahaha.. Tis yr might not b a good yr for mi sia.. so suay la.. all things uz happen.. so suay so suay.. but nvm if this suay~ness can let others healthy n happi n good luck, i'll b ok with it.. fine with it.. i tink it's worth it.. =) JIA u WEIYAN!!! hahahahaha.. ltr then blog again.. i go for lunch now... hahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahahhahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

we will grow stronger n stronger..

2006-02-18T12:50:00.000-08:00

Trg on wed was sucky la.. no1 has the mood n rite attitude to train la.. including mi oso.. baolong train us till so pekcek la.. i'm sorri baolong.. aft training we sat dwn n had talks.. baolong tokabt respecting the coach n our trainin attitudes.. ya i agree with him.. aft he left i ask all of them..
:'wat's wrong with all of us? why dun we haf the attitude? dun haf the bonding at all.. dun u all feel it as well?' all of them agreed.. all of them..
then they tok abt jean...:' without jean our training seems so moodless.. without her it's not fun at all...'
i went into slience.. didnt noe wat to say...
ah qin started saying:" hey when did manjusri n hkn bcum so bonded?
i replied sayin it was during youth cup.. then she was saying tt we will b better during our nan zhong too~! hope so...
baozhen says she came for the bondin.. cos she say tt time see us during boonlay cup she feels our bond.. ah qin came bcos of old coach.. then made mi n jo tink abt the past.. the unpleasant n pleasant past.. tis is the new hkn le.. the v new hkn.. i believe that the power we have will be lots greater n we can do it de.. we juz need abit of time.. so JIA U~!!! show all of the ppl the new HKN~!!!! sure no problem... JIA U HKN~!!!! CHIONG AR~!!!
may the team b better n may the ppl whu's leaving changes their mind...

Thurs was dull.. went home aft work then slack.. tt's all...

Fri.. (ytd) aft work went to pei butter to seinseh. "butter take care pls... haiyo... dun bcos of first match then make u cannot play the rest.. understand? JIA U~!"
aft tt tok n tok n tok at coffee shop.. so long nv like tt le. so gd la.. then tok abt our fun time at ngee ann all this.. i reali miss la.. i oso miss the times we had at Kallang.. "tings aint the same le if we go back n play"-tis is said by jo.. i feel sad.. i reali wish tings r the same.. it was so happi then.. although life is simple but it was so fun.. =( i wan to play at kallang with the same ppl again~!!!!
aft tt went home.. nth much le.. tt's all...

Now in office so bored la... wa kao.. the tot of them playing frenly n mi working here makes mi so sad la.. wa lua.. but so glad tt they won n they nv injured.. *god bless them all* then jo says sl played quite well.. i was like is it bcos i'm not ard then she can perform? why huh? haizzz.. i wan to pei hei her but haiz.. dunno why i always clash with her de... hope will b better... =|

stop now le.. 10mins more to end work then meet dear.. yeeppi~! she's sure tired de.. haiz.. hope she's ok.. JIA U DEAR~!! huggies..

vDAY

2006-02-16T11:54:00.000-08:00

On V day there still the usual stuff like working.. so sian lo.. spoils everyting la.. but at least i did meet up with dear~!! hahaha on the bus tinkin of lots of stuffs.. mayb i tink too much.. tinkin abt the team.. ... ... went to dear's house then slack there.. i'm so happi she gave mi another gift! i love chocs~!!! hehehe...

-Dear dear de hammy... mine nicer lo.. =p
i call it hammy frm now on. =p
so bored so took at her house..

-hahaha i took dear while she trying to finish up her hmwk!
she's goin to kill mi if she sees this pic here.. dun care. =p
shuai la... hahaahaha

=10o4=

i'm so glad to haf u ard..

2006-02-16T10:57:00.000-08:00

Here's the upload pics~!!! heez~ =)
Our celebration of V. day at Cosy Bar on Sunday... =)

-Mi preparing for the v. day celebration..
in Mama's toilet.. hahaha a bit zi lian

-mi n dear.. heez.. i look kinda of weird..
while waiting for JQ n XM

-Dear dressing up in long sleeves shirt..
heez.. nice sia.. =P

-My V day present~! so sweet!! hehe
2 little hamster inside.
Now named aft zhua zhua n Kaka. =P

-tis is their closed up pic..
Kaka slpin on top of zhua zhua.. sooo cute~!!!

-Zhua zhua eating.. hehehe
they are damn small!! ^-^ i LOVE them!

tt day was juz fun although it's onli like frm 6 plus to 10... i'm so happi tt day~!! thanks dear.. i'm so glad to haf u... *hugz* ... Love u lots.. thanks for always being there for mi...

will u turn back?

2006-02-13T14:30:00.000-08:00

ppl was wonderin whu i was writing the previous blog to... obviously i dun wan to tell la.. but tt person is not my lover or wat la... it's juz my support.. my great fren..
ok.. you reali didnt send mi ani msg.. or u assume some1 wil help u tell mi tt u r not cuming for training? i'm so sad.. wat happen to u? wat happen to us? wat happen to mi?... i reali dunno wat to say le.. all i can say already say liao.. i'm feeling so exhausted le... thanks for being there for mi when i needed.. i dun wan to say animore.. the more i say the more sad i m le...

...... mayb i shld review some happi things ba.. otherwise my blog like always sad here sad there... =(

sat had training...
coach was like crazy la.. we trained like hell.. train till thigh muscle so cramped up tt u feel so heavy n ur legs cant move at all.. pain lo.. stupid sia.. he scolded like hell la.. scold here scold there.. it seems to mi like he's back le.. back to red alert period.. all of them was saying tt i'm crazy cos i ran finish 8 rds (3.2km).. but i ran another 8 rds with dear cos she came late.. mayb tt's y my leg like tt.. haha.. training 2-1-2 tt time i feel so useless n stupid la.. cos is like i reali dunno how to play. jieqi n joyce were at the side helping mi.. but it seems tt i'm like too stupid tt they were laughing.. i reali tink tt my brain too simple cant take advance tings de lor... even take liao oso v xin ku.. play till so pek cek la.. but i'll try ba.. haiz. i see dear n BBT pei hei so gd i feel so useless lo.. sian.. haiz haiz.. =( when will i b smarter? y i aways so stupid huh? haiz... tryin my v best... coach always like to say wat i no brain take ball straight away muz go into the basket to shoot or juz shoot without tinking.. =( i noe i m like tt but i wanted to change so long le but i'm still like tt ma? i'm reali trying.. y i cant b like them??? =(

ytd went to help my fren with smth then joyce help mi dye my hair.. ok i tink nobody notice i change my color of my hair rite? kinda failure la.. did highlight but none of the highlights came out. sian like hell. i tink my hair wans to go saloon de lo.. cannot this kind de ar? stupid lo.. aniwae it's like no change la.. aft tt went back home... got change then took cab to pekpek house cos i late le.. it's far LOL! i recieved my V.day present le!!!! dear bought mi 2 hamsters~!!! it's the one i wanted so much.. the one tt looks like highlight fur.. hahaha.. they are damn damn small la.. smaller then my length of my thumb.. i see le i was like.. oh my god!!!! so happi.. thanks dear i reali love it... LOVE U DEAR!! dear put in a vase with deco la.. so nice..cant bear to take them out of there.. hahaha but haf to. mi, dear, qi n mei went to cosy bar to eat.. there got a small tower n we sat at the v top to eat.. atmosphere not bad sia.. viewing the sea.. nice la.. hahaha.. but the food so so onli.. at there we saw 2 PL... then qi n dear keep looking la.. duh~! gotta dug ur eye out !! hahaha.. aft eating we went to sit dwn n tok la.. then go home with cab.. whole day v short but was so nice.. i'm reali happi n touched... especially our kaka n zhua zhua... =p love them to bits... hahaa... went home n transfer them to my big fish tank.. but poor old hamster got to move to the below plastic container.. sorry.. i feel so bad.. i put zhua zhua n kaka in they like so small la.. the whole tank like a mansion to them la.. so funni.. hahaha.. but great la.. they got so much place to run.. hahaha.. i took lots of pics of them n videos too.. =p.. gonna post it up another time.. hehehe. so happi~!!! thanks dear!!!... hope u like mine too..

so happi got new pet... zhua zhua n kaka.. ^-^

ltr goin to xuemin's bday party.. sooooo tired.. =(

*hope dear gets into under 18.. JIA U~! but pls take care at the same time..*

sian... haiz..

God. r u there? =(

i'm so sad..

2006-02-11T09:53:00.000-08:00

Tis blog is specially for u..
i didnt noe my "i'm disappointed with u" make u brushed off commitments to the team.. but wat do u tink i was feeling at the moment? i lost my support.. my main support in the team frm tt msg.. frm tt moment.. the moment tt i had to tink.. i'll b standing alone le.. no1 understands the way u understand mi.. cos we had been tru.. it's hard to compare the team with ur once sec sch n my once jvs.. it's completely different.. i understands totally.. cos i miss my tt team the most.. the time with the toughest period.. but u reali giving up?? giving up hope? mi alone cant make aniting.. i've been crying.. i reali dunno wat to do to see all of u like tt.. wat abt mi?? can i juz brush off n hack? i dun wan to.. cos i believe.. i noe u understands wat i mean... i'm feeling so sad over tis u noe? i noe today' is someone's bday n u wont b cuming to training.. i understand but i didnt even recieved ur msg telling mi u not cumin training today...mayb u r cuming? i dunno.. but i'm so sad... i can tell u.. u make a difference in my life... can u give mi somemore time? i'll do it.. now seriously i dunno how to face u.. cos i can tell u.. i'm sad.. reali sad.. tis week isnt good at all for mi.. i'm breaking dwn..

jo.. i'm sorri ur pillar n hkn's pillar is starting to crack.. someting has to be done now... seriously.. i'm sorri to disappoint everyone... of cos i'll continue to act nth happen n try again n again..

i'm so sad... i wan to cry but i cant... i need to be strong i tell myself but "even iron lady needs to rest"... tis is wat u told mi b4.

mayb god will help mi... =(

mayb tis will brighten ur day...

a stupid ting mi n my colleague did in office ..tis shows how bored we ar.. 2 mandarine oranges.. hahaha so stopid...

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2006-02-10T05:53:00.000-08:00

went shopping ytd.. bought the things i wan to buy liao.. hahaha so happi la.. i LOVE shopping la~!!! but provided there's money for u to shop.. cos i hate window shopping~!! hahahaha.. thanks Kexin for acc~ing mi... ^-^ cos i keep asking her for suggestion lo.. hahaha..

DEAR DEAR I TELL U HOR I WAN BIG BIG PRESENTS~!! N LOTS LOTS OF IT HOR~!
otherwise ur ugly pics will b exposed on friendster hor!!! (* announcing a big threatening to dear!! hahahaha*) ok lame.. =p

i finalli put on my ring earring on the new pierced hole. but so painful la tt i took it out n place back the original stud... then i found out tt the topid person pierce my ear slanted. then pierce till the back so bhind.. tt's y if i wan put muz buy bigger ring de.. haiz.. make my ear so pain ..=p but whu ask mi to..hahaha

ltr got to go buy smth again.. so tired.. so tired.. hahaha but muz go.. hahaha.. aft tt tink go home ba.. mm... sian.. my daddy missing mi la wans mi go home earli hahaha...

now i tinking shld i go NIE? or shld i stay in this company for half a yr more? haiz.. so funni la so many ppl ask mi b air stewardness.. siao ar them.. i where will qualify.. tell ppl oso paiseh la.. lame.. hahahaha... sian. sian.. haiz.. yeeppi tml can meet dear le..!!! hahahaha...

JIA U dear for tml's selection!! bcareful k?? HUGZ~!!!

<3>
hugz...

wat's wrong with mi...

2006-02-09T13:43:00.000-08:00

Someting is reali amiss... my life is totally messed up tis week.. gonna find out wat's wrong exactly.. it's juz so weird.. i'm feeling down.. ppl ask mi wat's wrong but i juz cant answer tt question.. mayb it's bcos of bb? the players there? my work? my frens? i dunno.. somehow i noe it's bits n pieces of little tings which make my week so bad... i noe ppl will b saying.. "you're thinking too much again weiyan.. " m i? haiz.. some1 got to tell mi why...
the person whu had been supporting mi all this while left mi alone le.. wanting to give up le and started say negative tings which she doesnt.. wat's wrong? i juz hope u wld stay and continue to b wat u used to.. although it's different now already and difficult but.. we already been tru it so long n so many times le.. didnt we? why r u gving up now?? u make mi feel so sad when u said those words to mi.. i noe u're juz pissed but u left a great scar in mi.... i've been trying real hard.. haiz.. u shld noe whu u r when u see this blog...
ppl juz leave my life... but they say it's part of growin up.. if tt's the case.. i rather dun grow up....
i haf no sense of direction in my life n i'm graduating le.. haiz.. so sian...
so many tings to fan sia... sian... now miss dear so much.. sian muz wait till sat... ltr goin out with kexin.. ask her pei mi.. go shoppin ba... sian ma.. hahaha.. faster end work leh.. so bored.. so sian.. totally no life sia~! i wan get back my life.. the life where i'm so carefree and happi.. but i tink it's impossible le.. haiz..

Hkn .. all i can say is i'll try my best to unite all of u.. and make this a wonderful team.. but my strength alone is not enuff.. so..... pls make n effort too.. we can de.. JIA U~! i believe in al of u~!! HUGZ~!!! i LOVE u gals~!... hkn chionging together forever... hope u all noe the meaning bhind our CHIONG AR~!! do it!!!!

huggies...
yanz..
=10o4=

....

2006-02-07T10:50:00.000-08:00

....Dui bu qi....

I'm Sorri...

2006-02-07T10:35:00.000-08:00

I'm sorri....... dunno wat's gotten into mi le.. sorr i i made u sad..
There's so much we wanted to tell each other but we juz couldnt,, y? it's all mi... i may not be ur perfect gal... but i love u like no ending... love u more than others...

Bcos of my stubborness i made u sad... i make u worri... but bcos it's stubborn which made up weiyan.. haiz.. sorri...

sometimes i hate to b weiyan... i'll b wondering if i could b some1 else? Being weiyan sometimes sucks..

I'm soooo v tired... v tired... ani1 understands? T-T
i'm not like myself......

something's bothering mi....

2006-02-02T17:38:00.000-08:00

Nv blogg for sometime.. *clearing spidery webs*~~~~*greets everyone with a smile..* and begins.....
hahahaha so stupid.. =P
Chinese New year eve..
went back aft my work then slack awhile then eat reunion dinner liao.. we ate steamboat.. aft tt i was asked as usual every year to deco my house. haha.. ard 11 plus we started walking to the temple to pray.. *i prayed for some1...*

Chu yi..
being woke up by my dad.. ate breakfast then went to my ah gong house.. sat alittle while then go to my ah ma house liao... stay there the whole day since then. sian lo.. so boring.. kept watching tv and kept msging dear.. hahaha.. ang bao so little sia.. hahha as i grew older tink i dun tink of ang bao liao.. hahaha...n i actuali didnt like CNY le...

Chu er..
morning woke up help mom abit then started to get chnage to meet dear n butter to kexin's house.. dear's late la.. hahah then butter kept saying she dun haf shi jian kuan nian.. hahaha slack at kexin hosue till ard 5 plus then they came to my house.. we had dinner there.. after tt we decided to pei kexin to clementi to let her gave her mom's ang pao to ppl.. aft tt met mok mok then we went back to jp for movie.. mok didnt join us for tt... watched gaisha .. not bad juz tt the last part quite boring.. haha.. aft tt we went to kexin house.. supposed to gamble but in the end all sleep.. diaoz lor.. haiz..

Chu san..
ok.. tt's the most boring day lo.. went back ar 1plus then slack all e way.. supposed to meet dear aft her visit to her coach's house but in the end too late le then nv meet le.. kinda of disappointed but no choice.. so i slack all e way...

ytd (Chu Si)
work as usual but in holiday mood la.. sianed.. aft work went jp buy stuffs... finally bougth a small pouch to put my tings.. hahaha otherwise ppl keep saying my tt small card holder so ugly.. =p hahaha so now u not paiseh when i pay money in front of u liao la.. hahahaha... bougth black n purple finger nail polish.. hahaha stupid la.. hahahaha i tink it looks wierd on mi. hahaha..
so sian no training how i wish we haf...oh ya speakin of training i so guilty la..
DARLING SO SORRI~!!! tink i left out darling then she went to training ground then no ppl there.. haiyo.. sorri darling.. T-T..

today....
Rushing my final report in my office.. i so bad la.. do during my office hours... =p... finalli done lo.. hahahaha.. now damn tired la.. dunno y... haiz... ltr mayb go jp walk walk alone to relax myself... so sian.. i wish i m back in secondary sch... everyting so relax. but all of us have to grow up 1 day.. hahaha

......sometings has been bothering mi for sometime le... i juz dun wan to tink much.. cos i always tink too much de.. .... .... ..... ... ..... ..... ...... .....

2006-01-27T16:50:00.000-08:00

Bored BORED BORED BORED~!! BORED like hell~!!!!!!! goin crazy in the office le.. seeing upstairs ppl goin off during lunch time was like arghhh!! they are so good.. their boss gave them half day off.. then tml no need to WORK!!! wa kao.. mine today full, tml oso still haf to cum.. haizz.. so pathetic la.. damn it sia.. haiz.... then all students half day onli lor.. wa kao.. ok..* auntie yan has to stop grumbling all the time le.. haiz* hahaha..

ytd went to draw lots.. ok we HKN quite lucki sia.. dear pick the draw.. we were like so scared to enter Group A la.. cos all the great team inside.. hahaha but heng~!!! we nv.. hahaha.. hope we can reali play well!! so if there's no changes our first match will b on the 22 of feb.. 4 matches all together n it lasted till 22 march!!! first time i play a match so long de.. hahaha.. but nice leh.. hehehe...

The Groupings:

Group A:
(1) T-Net (Bukit Merah)
(2) Aljunied kebamkang youth
(3) Nayang Alumini team A
(4) Chong Ghee
(5) Tampines East

Group B:
(1) Teck Ghee
(2) Braddell Heights
(3) Stackers
(4) Quan xi
(5) Aljunied kebamkang CSC (the da dui)

Group C:
(1) Hongkah North
(2) Home United
(3) Kai Xuan
(4) T-Net (Geylang West)
(5) Nayang Alumini Team B

Our grouping is C... all the best gals~!! Muz JIA U ar~!!! huggies.. ltr goin orchard meet dear.. mayb haf another ear piercing... i siao liao.. suddenly wanted to peirce aft 6 yrs.. hahaha wow so long sia.. i'm old le.. T-T hahaha..
End here ba.. haiz.. i so sian~!!!! T-T some1 help~!!!!! Arghhh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wan training~!!!

2006-01-26T13:47:00.000-08:00

HaHa.. hmm haben been blogging for like almost 1 week le.. nth much happening to mi aft my IVP.. i miss training days where we had 2 trgs per week plus hkn de will make it 3 times a week le.. busy n tiring but i miss it.. it's so fun then.. now it's like 1 trg per week.. i'll b growing FAT at this rate sia.. cannot.. muz do some self training le specially women's open cuming liao.. though coach says we play juz to gain experience but we hope to play well as well... onli if old coach can cum n coach us.. hai.. oh.. n CNY is round the corner la... does it mean.. Eat eat EAT n EAt?? n No TRAINING~!!!! oh man.. hahaha.. muz jian fei ltr all my clothes cannot wear liao.. =p not so jia liat la.. =p

cant reali rmb wat i did for tis week.. i rmb having fren with kaixuan but ended up raining.. we reali no fate la.. hahaha then had to do the skippin stuffs.. Sunday went to dear house study.. then being forced to go back to buy phone.. ended no phone n waste my cab fare n time lo.. saw butter n jo there. so happi la.. hahaha ^-^ Monday went to buy my phone lo.. bought w550i.. it's nice la.. then i dine with my parents n bro.. so long nv le.. so nice.. i LOVE my PHONE~!!..
Tuesday the best la i took leave then went to see dear's match with SAC.. she say it's critical match so i wanted to watch her play.. oh man went there n saw them trashing SAC la.. Duh~! not nice to watch de.. somemore dear nv play much.. hahaha i v bad la i was reading comics when first five was off court.. especially dear.. then all her frens say mi.. hahaha... =p aft the match we went to sbc.. submit our women's open form.. then watch ite vs ntu.. shit sia.. ite lose.. saded la... was reali scared when we saw baozhen fall on her knee.. lucky nth happen.. haha..

ytd went to meet bro aft my work.. Lijun drive mi to bt batok then i took bus frm there to jp..waited for him awhile then went shoppin with him.. it's nice.. hahaha i help him choose his clothings.. i bought mine too.. hahaha i bought a black tube n a green skirt.. didnt tink i'll wear tt ba.. but i do.. haha.. so happi bought a star necklace.. tink is jo wanted to buy de then tt time dun haf purple.. so i bought the black one lo.. hahaha.. it goes with my tube sia.. i help bro choose a shirt.. OP de.. despite i dun like OP brand for gals.. but i like their recent guys clothings.. the shirt my bro bought.. n tt polo tee tt has dear's feeling.. hahaha .. my bro looks handsome in tt shirt~!!! didnt noe he can look so handsome.. so i decide to change his style lo.. i bought a choker for him.. those beads de.. v sunshine la.. hahahaaha.. =p so fun shoppin la.. but provided u haf the money to shop la.. but i'm broke le.. T-T hahaha.. no more shoppin for mi for the time being le ba.. haha..

i juz love the pic mi, dear n pek took with my phone in the toilet.. it looks so nice la.. hahah although it shld haf lindy inside but it appear to totally cut her away without any trace as my phone small.. hahaha.. i'll upload it sometime ltr bcos i'm in office la.. -___- hahaha.. ltr will b drawing of lots of women's open.. hope we get good lots pls.. if can dun wan chong gee, home united n aljunied small.. dun wan chong gee for baozhen, home united for ah mao n ah qin.. aljunied small bcos coach is there~! haha but if reali kanna coach i'll fight with her~!! haha.. aft work i'll b goin dwn.. *prays*

tink i shld stop here liao b4 everyone starts to doze off.. haha.. Muackz~!
Dear JIA u~!!!

2006-01-20T00:50:00.000-08:00

Here's some of my wonderful Teammates~! ^-^

-Our wonderful team~! ^-^

-The playful side of us~! twist~!

The 3 musketers? hahaha

Playing a fool while we 3 trys to take a decent pic~! hahah

In the whole history 1st time half court warm-up with 30 ppls~! 1 np players.. 15 sp players~! so cool la.. then we try tgt..!hahaha tml then continue. toot ired~!

The very last match...

2006-01-19T15:28:00.000-08:00

Ytd was my very last match as Ngee Ann.. no more will there animore IVP for mi le... =( Sad but there will always be an ending to every ting.. especially things tt are happi.. but i do cherish all that.. happi to be in the ngee ann team... although for so many yrs nth has been achieved but i believe there's 1 ting i haf achieved.... Great teammates n Friends~! ^-^ thanks gers for all the happi times we had for my last yr... thanks~! ^-^ ytd's match is against nyp.. now fighting for champion will b nyp n ite.. wa cool sia. i gonna go support baozhen ah qin they all~! so nice la.. hahaha wish i was one of them haha.. but i still love my team the best~!

ytd so funi la we warm up with sp~! is like 30 plus ppl warming up in half court~! hahaha so cool la.. their court being used for some test so join us for warm up~! hahaha so cool.. played badly ytd i tink.. so sad.. didnt haf much performance.. i dun understand why i cant perform in np but in hkn i can perform.. some1 tell mi y can? haiz.. i kana alot of injuries ytd lo.. i so suay sprain my ankle during 2rd quarter of my game la.. but i continue to play without telling my team.. try to run but is like i run slow le bcos of tt sprain.. sian~ed... kanna elbow into my nose la.. damn pain la.. now the nose bone like so pain when i touch.. hope nth happen haha.. last quarter last few seconds, last ball we could score.. i ran for fast break then lay-up but kanna hit by nyp de dunno whu.. flew til outside the court.. so pain la. now my left side pain lo.. left knee kanna.. left hip bruise... left arm cant lift up.. then tt sprain ankle is left oso... lan liao la mi... then jie qi say i like go for war.. hahaha i now like san hen lei lei..so pain .. hahaha...

so sian no more np trainin le.now haf to concentrate on women's open liao.. haha... at least i still got competition.. haha..

write till now le.. busi with work.. continues....... bye

2006-01-17T10:15:00.000-08:00

"Each moment in life
is complete unto itself,distinct from any other.
The energy felt among
indigenous peoples crackles,like the energy needed
to shift continental plates
or that which propels
a child into the new world,to start all over again.
This is what holds together
the power of the legend,a power that calls all things
into existence andassures respect for life everywhere."

If you can imagine it you can create it. If you can dream it, you can become it

To be nobody-but-yourself--in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else--means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.

Nice inspirational Words to start the day with~! hahaha.. damn tired today.. feels like sleepin la.. damn tired.. ytd went to my fren's wake.. i'm in a total silence la. i saw his photo there and all the incense burning to him... all e memories of him came running across my mind.. the funni n bubbly boy tt once used to b now lie in there lifelessly... nv haf i tot i wld offer an incense to my fren... aft offering we went to sat on a table.. not alot ppl was there.. all mainly his secondary frens n primary sch frens n his working frens.. we chatted abt him.. his life.. n how it all ended.. though we are sad but all of us acted strong i tink.. no tears.. mayb there is but we pulled them back.. i told my fren whu was like reali sad.. " we shld b happi abt his departure.. bcos i tink it's a relief to him.. he has suffered too much le.. so we shldnt cry.. " my fren felt better aft my words ba... but i dun.. u noe i like to act strong ma.. hahaha.. we sat there for sometime n went to see him for the last time b4 we leave.. i went near him... saw him carrying a toy dog.. n was told tt he requested for it.. saw him lied there lifelessly.. all white.. it wasnt like him.. so different.. till now i still can rmb hw he look in his coffin.. but he look rather peaceful.. we'll miss u Chin Jie...
^-^ Life's too short to leave ani regrets.. so live to its fullest~! Live with no regrets~!

reached home ard 1045 le.. tok with dear on the way.. she v crap la.. hahaha.. but i love it.. haha cos she's always able to make mi laugh when i'm like sad.. thanks dear~! Reach home le then bath then faster watch Dean's result.. tink she sang nt v good ytd sia.. haiz. but JIA U~! but she's in la.. hahaha. great~! oh n tt handsome ite guy got voted out.. too bad for him la.. hahaha...

Dear's first match today~! JIA U hor...! u can do it de.. but pls b extra careful bcos u haf injuries.. all e best dear! i'll b waiting for ur good results! sorri i couldnt cum for e match.. so sorri.. huggiezs!!! LOve u lotS~!

Ps: *stop tinkin n stoning in class liao k?hahaha u so funni leh.. hahha..*

2006-01-16T12:44:00.000-08:00

Ytd had a great day~!! went out with dear.. acc her go her religious ting then we sat there onli for 1 hr then we ran away.. hahaha.. bad sia.. we went to TM walk walk.. wanted to look out for new clothes de... haha.. in the end we went to bugis.. hahaa went to bugis street.. too many ppl le.. see le oso headache.. mian qiang walk inside abit then went to edge le... bought some clothes there... hahaha.. at there i found the t-shirt i wanted to buy for dear the other time! tt brown with gold writings on it.. nice sia.. hahaha.... at first the salesgirl tell left black onli but in the end found brown.. nice sia.. ok but i like la. haha. oh ya.. i wore someting different ytd, someting i nv wore in fornt of bb friends... hahaha so long nv wear like tt liao.. hahaha.. v different meh? haha.. dunno leh mayb i'll buy tt billabong skirt leh.. cos i quite like it sia.. not for chinese new yr of cos.. hahaha.. let mi consider... haha..zhong zi i'm reali so happi ytd.. so long nv go out shopping so fun le.. hahaha thanks dear~! reali had a great time ytd.... hehe.. i wan go shopping again~!! hehe... even if we cant go johor.. we can still shop in singapore~! fun as well rite? haha~!!!

had fun during training on sat~! coach's so funni la..~! hahaha so funni the whole training~! been laughing the whole trainin la.. so long nv like tt le.. but aft tt coach gets serious .. but understandable la.. wa get to noe women's open so fast cuming liao.. it's like rite aft my IVP n during dear's EAST ZONE lo.. wa kao.. dunno dear can tahan ma.. haha... JIA U~! so happi can play competition once more.. but kinda of tired lo.. haha... so sad soon i will onli haf women's open.. no more IVP liao.. so sad... haha.. wa lau.. there's onli 12 players for women's open leh.. oh man 12 leh.. so difficult to choose sia.. haha.. hope we'll get good lots... hahaha... we may not b strong like those famous teams... but we're not weak either!!!! hahaha.. JIA U HKN~!!

cherish our last match on wed k? np gals.... jia u~!! wed.. no matter win or lose.. we muz win ourselves~! jia u!!!!!!hugz.. i'll miss u all..

Happi things always haf bad things happening in btw de.. i had a sudden msg saying tt my fren, jackson, passed away... he's down with lukemmia.. then liver failure... then say he left onli weeks... then when i went to visit him he was lookin fine.. i asked e nurse n they say he's in good condition n on waiting list to transplant liver.. we chatted n joked as wat he always did when we were workin together.. he looked fine n i left home with a relief.. little did we noe he died last saturday... heartbeat juz stops n went into coma.. then pass away.. i didnt manage to make finish my cranes for him.. i didnt manage to see him the last time... rest in peace JACKSON.. u will always b remembered.. we will miss u,... Life's so short.. i still rmb hw he met mi.. he ask for my number.. hahaha.. so funni tt time.. life juz so unpredictable.. he juz gone juz like tt... thanks for the good memories we share.... ^-^

JAcKsoN - Chin Jie (1985-2006)

Remembering u always, my fren...

2006-01-14T11:49:00.000-08:00

Lost ytd.. against ntu... tot they were very great but i can actuali blocked out their center easily.. to tink back last yr i cant even get in the red box lo.. did i improve or their ppl bcum weak? but serious i tink they bcum weak lo... mayb they dun wan serious play with us? hahah whu noes rite? hahaha as i said i'm back le so i wont b weak again~! haha.. ytd played ok la.. juz coach says i can catch dwn rebounds but i oso like dunno wobble below then ball lost.. then she say i too no strength liao... then some of my teammates point it out my mistakes... it's good to noe ur mistakes so u can improve..! thanks for telling mi. i'm goin to improve.. hahaha.. found out tt i actuali can block out... haha cos during this 2 matches i haf been blocking out more than i used to.. catch dwn rebounds more than i do last time.. but my blur~ness cause mi to lose the ball..! finalli ppl start noticing mi running fast break liao.. running fast... first time in my life ppl say i run alot~! hahaha...actuali we can do it de.. so nxt match let's strive on k gals?i will use my every strength to get hold of the rebounds for every shots all of u miss.. so shoot with no worries~! hahaha juz shoot! i believe each one f u can do it de.. be brave~! JIA U~~!!
reali cant bear to leave the team.. my last yr le..the tot of wed's match will b my last match with ngee ann gals made mi fear of the day to cum.. i dun wan... but i muz face the reality.. hahaha... didnt expect tis yr i wld b so close to the bball team... i tink no1 expect it.. too close till cant bear to leave them sia.. hahaha.. first time i will tink i'll miss Cai mei hui sia... she's quite good coach ba.. not very but enuff to make mi feel i wan to b under her coaching again.. wanted a frenly match on monday- hkn vs np.. but seems tt it's not possible le... i juz wanted a match more to play with my np team.. wed would b the last le... reali cant bear. but i'll cum support u all nxt yr de~! so dun disappoint mi then k? i'll prepared everyting b4 i leave n i'll cum back for the trainings~! ^-^ so let's cherish our very last match together as ngee ann! dun give up k? promise mi.. fight till the end.. tis time reali... ^-^ let mi haf a beautiful memory on court... wa kao say till like wan to die liao.. hahaha.. =p u gals r the best~!!

Lobster bro.. i'll always support ur decision.. so no matter wat decision u made.. i'll b there~! dun worri... do wat u reali wan to do.. da kua le de lan qui isnt always ur dream? hahaha dun fan so much k? *huggies~!*
U and dear muz JIA U in ur B girls hor.. cos i wan see Assumption vs Manjusri during the National finals k? hahaha then i'll b there to support both~! =p haha JIA U~!

Actuali i'm v touched to see so many ppl cuming dwn to support ngee ann's match.. thanks ~!!! thanks alot! thanks for supporting mi... ^-^

ltr still got trainin... stadium sia.. my leg ytd cramp sia.. so ugly get carried out... now still alittle pain.. ltr muz run stadium!! oh man.. hahaha signing off here le.. sian~ed..

2006-01-12T23:24:00.000-08:00

i'm glad little people could see this blog... like tt i could say tings reali frm my heart..
i'm sorry i'm sad.. i made u sad too.. i tot u could understand how i feel.. but u seem like u dun..
i hate to cry in front of u(in phone) but u always noe it. after speechless commotion u wld say wat u wan now? actuali all i wan is u... ur console n ur everyting.. but we always ended up speechless.. i cried even harder when the phone went dead.. u noe i acted nth happen.. mayb i'm expecting too much? thanks for listenin to my nagging... thanks... i'm not angry dun worri... thanks... ^-^ i'll b tat weiyan u noe again... JIA U~!

LOst BattLe...

2006-01-12T10:18:00.000-08:00

.............................................Speechless............ orite.. we lost... lost e match.. lost echance to prove ourselves.. muz i resign to fate? it's like the team i'm playing for never wins? m i the cause for everyting? =( i dunno wat the FISH i m playing~! damn idiot la mi... catch liao rebound then anihow pass... then always butter finger~!!! daMN IT LA.... i'm feeling so hopeless mi la. why i cant be stable? keep asking ppl to calm down, not to throw temper, but i cant do it myself.. i threw temper ytd cos too pekcek liao..n when xiao ming hit mi hard onto the ground.. i FLARE.. bcame some1 i couldnt even recognised myself.. wat haf i becum? shit sia. but it's good tt i'm damn fierce but i could get in the balls.. i had once even told off dear bcos of tis.. now it's mi... haizz.. i'm a total disappointment... i'm sorri.. i noe how much i blame myself now n how many sorri i said is useless le.. so i'll prove for the nxt match although coach says it's impossible to win... even if it's reali so i'll not give up.. i'll gif my best shot... use my whole strength...
ytd frenly keep on falling dwn.. then now knee got lots of bruises lo.. so pain la.. butter sprain her finger.. *hey butter take care k? jia u~!* whole body aching now... damn tired..
so suay cum to office rain la.. then all drenched.. stupid lor... haizz... i'm dying of the rain liao.. i dun like.. =(

A big thanks for those whu came to see my match~! i'm so happi but sorri we lost.. thanks to our seniors... "yvonne, xuemin, Lixian(B2), juliee, ..." thanks to "Rachel n jean!, jie qi n Xiao mei! von... n those whu came to support! sorri if i nv mention the names cos i didnt see u.." i reali appreciate~! ^-^ if ytd u called mi n i didnt ans, i'm sorry too cos i was too sad... oh i forgot... n my LOBSTER FAMILY~ lobster bro( zf), pekpek, mok, dear...! Lindy thanks to0.. ^-^

Ngee Ann Gers~! although we lost this match.. this hopeful match doesnt mean we will lose the rest! As i haf said even if it's impossible, We are LOSERS if we resign to fate! we are WINNERS if we leave the courts with no regrets. Tis is my last IVP with all of u... i dun wan to leave with regrets... but i noe i wont regret with u gals ard.. u all made my last yr worth it.. ^-^ thanks~! so dun give up~! let's play till the very end of IVP~! enjoy the match.. da kuai le de lan qiu~! ^-^
JIA U~!

dear thanks for being there when i needed u the most.. ^-^ u're the best.. heez..

2006-01-08T21:32:00.000-08:00

Tension building up beneath mi~... mixed feeling-, weird, restless, blabla.. erm a sigh of nervousity, anxiety? oh man.. it's sooo fast.. 2 dyas more.... lucky for my np team onli jo will see this.. better not let them noe.. i'm nervous.. i'm stress... hasnt been training much cos of the stupid rainy weather! omg... feel so unprepared... wed against SP liao.. the most critical match... i'm stress cos i'm the team's center.. i'm small la.. but i'll try my best.. i'm afraid of letting the team down... so afraid.. but of cos i will not n never show the weak side la.. hahha onli ppl whu read my blog noes lor.. =p... tml haf frenly with hkn.. stupid play against own team~! sad~ed need play against with dear again~! alamak.. luck bro lob nv play hahaha... otherwise i DIE~! =p...yay tml play in sch indoor corut~! first time in my entire ngee ann life sia.. hope everyting goes well tml.. pls stop raining can? haf to fan where to find indoor again for thurs.. hard... if cannot how? got drenched for so many days liao.. all of them knew my body cannot take it la.. n today it proofs them rite! idiot la i so weak.. i'm not feeling well now... stuck in the office n i wanted to go home so much.. omg... tml getting jerseys n warm up tees... nice... hahaha.. so scary lor.. days getting nearer... which means my IVP ending le.. so sad la.. i wan play more.. =(.. dear's match starting on 17th.. so sad i cant go watch la.. Omg~! i WAN!!!! =(
now struggling for time to pass faster then i go home rest~! shit sia.. IVP cuming liao then i so weak.. arghh.... *prays*...

dear's bday is the day where i had ngee ann training then aft tt we got hkn frenly with jurong... but it rained n we could haf ani frenly.. ended up goin to west mall aft slacking at the block there wating for rain to stop n match to continue.. but apparently it didnt stop at all.. damn la. west mall food court to eat
mall food court to eat.. bought a cake n had a small surprise for dear in food court la.. whole food court was like helping to sing the bday song la.. hahaha ok.. the worst ting is they forced us to do smth n tape it down~!!!! so shy la.. more then 4 hp videoing us la.. idiot leh.. hahaha.. hope u had fun dear n hope u like the gift... *muacvkz* aft tt we went aracade play lor.. hahaha.. then movie then go jieqi house hosue SLP~! hahaha.. her bro's bed so small la.. hahahaha... tml faster cum... wed slower cum...oh my.. wat m i tinkin.. hahahaha.... *prays*

2006-01-06T12:43:00.000-08:00

Haben been bloggin like for more than a week le.. busi with the cumin ivp n someone's bday la.. hahaha... looking for someone's present high n low lo.. hahaha haiz it's been raining for days la.. especially during our training.. no time le then keep on rainin.. trying my bloody best to get them indoor court if i could.. trying my best to prepare wat i can for them.. somehow i feel tt i had nv done b4... somehow.. i'm tired out le.. juz recover from sicko n pls dun return liao.. weather sucks la.. sian.. tml there's trainin but it's outdoor~! so got to pray.. *prays real hard.. pls dun rain tml~!!!* tml got to rush to np training aft my work then aft np training got to rush to hkn frenly with jurong sec.. tired like hell lo.. hahaha. tml is somebody's bday liao.. sorry i'm not able to celebrate with u... there's np training n hkn training.. so sad.. cant meet u today to b the first to hand u the gift.. cos u got family tingy.. but more impt i understand dun worri.. actuali wanted to find u at midnight then hand u the gift then i juz go home.. but darling ask mi not to.. she say i got work tml then say u will not b happi cos so late le.. then say if she was u she'll feel helpless n failure.. i dunno abt u la but tt's wat u advises mi.. mayb i shld go dwn n u feel happi? i dunno leh.. haiz.. no surprises for u so sad... sorri... ltraft work since not meeting u i'll b goin to visit my fren in hospital..hope everyone can pray for him.. he's dying... left weeks...not months animore.. he can juz go ani moment.. i'm so afraid. ppl ard mi are happening like tt.. how cum"? i not sure if i m able to take it when i see him.. at least i'll b ok at tat moment cos act ma.. aft tt i dunnno... life is so short... aniting can happen to us ani moment.. u'll nv noe.. may i'll juz die the nxt moment n no1 will ever notice it? aniwae the world will still b spinnnin even without mi ard. i dun wan to live with regrets either.. if i live with regrets, i'll rather die.. tis is myy tinkin for now.. so i'll do watever i can.. mayb goin johor with someone on sunday.. go there shop, eat, play... but not sleep cos we're cuming back on tt day itself.. sort of celebrating for someone ba... hope we could go.. n hope we will not get lost..

haiz. dunno wat's gotta into mi.. i feel sad.. obviously i noe the reason but i'm juz unwilling to say it out.. dunno how to put it to words too.. i'm feeling someting is different already.. not the same.. so wierd.. dunno y i wld tell jean abt it... wierd la.. mayb frm last time i always tell her ba? dunno or bcos she's the first to realise that i'm sad..tell her stuffs but briefly onli.. nv reali say everyting out but it's on msn la.. but luckily.. cos i nearly cried out.. but tink i m ok now? mayb..

change topic k? hahaha i was actuali feeling wierd when i saw jean's ring writing 31/12/05..(she left the ring at dear house so i help her keep). then i ask her cos she actuali sort of ask her on 01/01/06 ma.. then she say rachel's one is 01.01.06 meaning she has handed her future to her.. n hers is 31/12/05.... wa lau i was like SO romantic la.. mayb to others not la..but at least to mi it is... hahaha... cool la.. hehe... oh ya had fun during chinese new yr eve.. hahaha.. beautiful fireworks n of cos the ppl tt accompany mi is the critical part...

NP gers muz JIA U~! NP gers we can de~!!!!!
i cant wait to use our sch's indoor court.. finalli.. cos we all sacrificed our public holiday for training... cos the nxt day is match liao... i MUZ JIA U~! i muz not let my team down.. i can de~!

*if i'm still schooling ting would b different ma? or i m tinking too much.. mayb i m..cos i always tink too much*

SIanZatIon

2005-12-26T20:19:00.000-08:00

hahaha ok i had fun during christmas eve.. although some ppl dun feel the same as mi n although i had to bear the gastirc pain through out the whole nite la.. damn man spoil my day entirely la.. we had campin at ECP.. erm abit lame la camp there but nice.. we bought lots of things then we went to ECP n find a spot to settle dwn.. pitched our tent then we start to do our DIY BBQ.. hahaha so dark tt we had to use torch light to shine on our BBQ stuff to see... aniwae we BBQ on the floor.. the most funniest part was when they were playing Twister!! hahaha... i played them till so shuang la.. mi n mei laugh like hell la.. so wicked leh mi.. hahaha ok then v early morning came downpour la.. shit sia.. we had no prepared at all.. then we panick like hell cover our tent with the sheets... bla bla.. then all of us got wet.. damn cold la.. haha.. then we hid in our tent... great experience la.. hahaha.. the sound of the winds n rain are so loud n strong.. we are like fearin ani moment our tents will get blown away.. hahaha.. but when we tot we were safe.. our tent sip in water.. water start leaking in... wa kao.. then got paddle of water here n there ... in the end we left the tent and went for the pavillion la.. lame lo.. hahaha but it was so fun la.. hahaha.. christmas day whole day at home.. sleep like hell la... hahahha... then Monday holiday went to queensway with dear n then went Tampines find pekpek.. played 2 game with kelly n pekpek... hahaha.. then went to their fren's house hahaha.. raining all day long so our frenly against ite cancelled again.. hahaha.. no fate to play with them... aniwae tml i on leave~!!! SO HAPPI~!!! hahahahaha ... but sick sia.. lousy leh mi.. hahahaha

Pain~!

2005-12-21T23:38:00.000-08:00

hahaha erm quite busi in the office this few days so i didnt get to blog.. hahaha mmm sound tt i m eating snake sia... tues play with kaixuan we won again.. but no coach n we played not very good.. but 1 quarter i love our defence la~! hahaha.. wed(ytd) had company christmas party but i didnt go.. v bad sia..i went to PS to meet dear for movie KinG KonG .. but we didnt get to see as it's full la.. everyone tells mi v nice.. so un-fated like tt leh.. nvm we'll watch again.. damn sleepy now la.. juz now was like rushing like hell la.. now no1 ard le., so shiok.. hahah.. i cut my thumb sia.. damn pain sia.. deep oso. the blood drip onto the floor n my jeans lor.. so much blood lor.. idiot mi la. cut paper cut till hand.. hahha.. ltr got us(np) vs combined ite.. tired sia.. hahaha hope it doesnt rain la.. it rained whole day le.. i wan to slp now.~!!! T-T tired... end here.. tired..