lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Friday, October 28, 2005
-10:10 AM
haizz.. today bad start of e day... i slept in bus then went over my stop again... -__- i woke up in toa payoh lo.. hahaha stupid sia then took back to my workplace.. by the time i reach i'm late liao.... ytd play against dear's team (manjusri).. we lost.. T.T wa kao ngee ann reali cannot make it till like tt meh?? i dun believe lo.. although we onli had 9 players ytd lo.. but dear's team oso nv reali sub ma.. haizz.. we are damn super lousy lo.. or shld i say no mo qi at all.. i reali dunno hw to pei hei them sia... i m trying my best.. bu fu qi sia muz reali play again.. i'm sure we can win de!! jo i'm sorri i feel funni without u although i've tried.. still need u b there u noe??? i'll let u rest ba..but pls do mrb to walk back when u finish resting k?? tml training onli got 9 ppl... hope no1 last min tell mi not goin again.. ltr i kanna scolding again.. sian lo.. haizz.. ltr still muz call him to tell him he confirm kao pei mi de lor.. sian... dear not cuming training tml.. sian sia... hahaha.. wa lau every frienly i confirm got injuries de lor... hahaha sorri jo cant promise u not to injured.. i sprain my tt stupid ankle again.. lucky i grab pekpek's arm to support otherwise i tink i will fall badly lo.. thanks pek.. but i like almost make u fall too tt's y i very fast let go le.. hahaha sorri ar.. but hor lucki not as jia liat as last time la cos abit swollen onli.. cos old injuries so wont so jia liat de ba... can walk better today le.. thanks bear for the ride.. n dear n chris for intending to send mi home.. ^-^ wa lau not onli like tt sia.. i tink i rotting off le.. i tink i pulled my thigh muscle.. now walk oso pain.. wa kao so many injuries.. hahaha then during the match mi n jolyn was jumpin for rebound la.. then my lower jaw landed on her head... wa kao is jaw vs skull leh.. immediately fall to the ground then abit dizzy then lo.. hahaha but after tt ok le.. lucky my tongue wasnt out sia.. hahaha now lower jaw got bruised n got bump lo.. pain sia.. cannot laugh too much will pain.. T.T dun say mi la dear oso got lots of injuries... so worri lo.. knee ytd running in front of mi gave way.. -__-" then pain.. then left arm got injuries too.. back oso.. aiyo... haizz... take care la!!!! like tt how u survive till ur east zone??? i still wan go watch de!!! haizz....pls take care!reali tink i reali de~proved le.. ytd alot of lan di ball i actuali pass out!! then got scolding.. wat m i doin!!!!!!!! weiyan pls wake up!!!! ...... someone wake mi up.. i feel so low now... so... dunno how to say.....i dun wan to fall deeper.. i wan to wake up!!! T-T
Thursday, October 27, 2005
-9:49 AM
ok.... now rotting in front of e stupid com again.. once again i've got nth to do... sian sia... haizz.... quite excited abt the match ltr against dear.. cos can see dear ma so happi~~! hahahaha we had agreed tt we will not "put water" against each other.. duno she will ma la.. but for sure she noe i wont cos i very de ball freak de ma... feels funni playing against dear n mok they all.. wau lau i scare ltr i pass wrong lor.. ltr i pass to them sia.. but tink wont la cos diff color ma.. hahaha so ltr i goin to take cab dwn again... wa kao broke liao lo i every trainin take cab!!!! haizz.. i ltr confirm feel shy de lo.. so weird...hahaha.. so sad oso jo say she nt playing.. then i tot she will at least be there but she replied mi :"i doubt so.." suddenly i feel tt all this while i haf been playing with her!! ALL THIS WHILE!! didnt notice but there's onli 1 yr i played without her which is my poly 1st yr.. then i realised i cant play without her... she gave mi lots of encouragement n she understands mi damn well... no1 can understand mi better than she can lo...haizz... wonder how can i do without her ltr.. but i'll jia u n play her part!!! ^-^ dunno how i can help her especially this period of time.. i cant pei her *sad* cos i m having attachment...but.. haizzzz JIA U JO!!!! JIA U!!! hope she'll b back on her feet again real soon!! *JO U STILL HAVE US RMB??? ^-^ JIA U!*
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
-11:07 AM
Feels damn sad today... shld say ytd oso ba.. it's like bad tings keep happening on mi sia.. ytd training was like hell la.. he split the team into 2 to play 5 on 5.. it's like the "young" vs the "old" la. n he is like all the while focusing on them lo.. wat does this mean man!! mayb i m too sensitive le but i reali tink this way lo.. he praised dear for a center running fast break n it's sort of her first time.. then i was like "WAT THE ...!!!!!" i have been a center for like 4 yrs! n i have been runing like hell doin all the fast break n run back to defend but he nv commented on mi... he NV PRAISED MI B4 for like 6yrs!!!! damn lo.. how could i haf the confident liao.?? after tt say abt wat leadership n centre of person in a team.. hello aint i doin tt?? r u trying to tell mi or hint mi tt i m not doin a good job or are u trying to tell mi tt u dun need mi animore??u make mi so fark up lo...i felt being used man. nv had tt feeling b4 until i feel like he is finding someone to replace mi lo. n i can say tt HE DUN NEED MI ANIMORE!.... he oso say wat dun last min.. hey when did i ever last min b4??? damn him la.. i'm trying to do all the tings n reali need ppl to help mi la.. but he nv seems to see wat i haf been doin all these years.... *pls open ur eyes n see la...i dun need aniting.. i juz need to b appreciated.. tt's all.. is tt alot to ask for??* i feel tt i'm playing for bad to worse.. for 5 yrs of center n i'm still like tt.... LOUSY!! T.T i noe tt i dun haf ani talent but i haf tried hard.. mayb i dun suits the game ba,, but i still dun wish to give up.. after all this sucky things... i admit tt jo's atitude not good la.. but he dun need to scold till like tt la.. damn him lo.. soon all the "old" player will be gotten rid by him la of this goes on.. he's crazy lo.. haizzz.. wat m i supposed to do now?? Omg!! 2 weeks ltr ah qin they all joinin... i'm happi.. but pls dun let jo leave.. i feel taken over... i felt lost... i felt useless nw.. i wan to buck up.. but where's all my confident n endless hope gone to?????????? i feel as if i'm a changed person... trying to buck up but i keep fallin deeper.. wat shld i do?? no matter wat happen the team will continue n i will try to buck up.. if reali cannot then act lo.. haha at least ppl see le will not b de~moralised ma.. hahahaha.... i wan to prove coach wrong!!! i can de!!dear thanks ytd for being there for mi... i reali feel better.. ^-^ i noe u tired liao but u still chat on the phone with mi hearing mi nag, curse n swear... hahahaha.. thanks alot.. HUgZ!! aiyo i reali worri u lo.. u mon, tues, wed, fri n sat trainin sia.. how can??? haizz.. duno u can tahan how long... dun collapse or injured urself leh cos i still wan see ur east zone!! i wan watch u play!! hehehe ^-^ tml got frienly with dear's sch.. so wierd sia.. confirm got lots of weird eyes on mi de lo.. diaoz lo.. hahaha stress la.. *hey rmb our promise hor dear...tml's match we muz play fully against eachother!! i dun wan u to let mi animore!! ok?? understand?? hahaha* hope tml i will play better ba.. hope jo will b ok.. so sian no mood now. wan someone to hug mi now... T.T dear u own mi hug n chocs hor!!! hahaha.. end here le ba like very long liao lo.. naggy old mi.. i'm so tired work then rush to training.. but i'll b strong! JIA U!! JIA U HKN!! JIA U DEAR! JIA U JO!! JIA U WEIYAN!!!! *10o4*
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
-11:04 AM
hahaha write this in office again.. =P this 2 days they nv bring mi out to site de.. i keep rotting n doin my BQ in office.. hey boring la.. ltr got training so happi~~!!! loves training cos can play ball n oso can b with my HKN family!! sorri ar jo.. i working so cannot pei u.. tink u need ppl most tis time rite? i'm sad i couldnt b there.. but aniting u still can tell mi de!! keep mi update la.. haha// initialli we last sunday wanted to go sentosa again.. but jo cannot go into water then pekpek dun wan go.. in the end we nv go lo.. but the sun sooooooo big tt day!! T.T saded... in the end mi, dear n mok rot at dear house de coffee chop n bb court.. wa lau like uncle lo.. hahah imagine drink drinks there then watch aljunied ppl training.. wa lau they train so hyper n enthu lo.. i see liao so envy them... i believe HKN can DO IT de!!! can de.. we can de!!! sorri dear n mok tt day dunno y i like tt... thanks for pei~ing mi... sorri.. thanks mok n dear for their patience.. haizz i tink i reali siao lo.. hahaha.. haiz last thurs play match wif kaixuan.. i played badly... like i dunno how to eat ppl like tt... then sat training tt time i play against our own ppl.. i like dunno wat i m doin too. shit!!! wat the hell m i doin?? like i de~proved like tt.. alot lo... HELP~~~!!! cannot cannot.. muz JIA U n TRAIN HARD!! dun worri i will stand up again n chiong once more!! dear thanks for ur patience again.. wa u reali can ren mi sia... i dun usuali like tt de sia.. duno why.. i will not le.. dun worri.. let's train up hard together k?? ^-^ thanks jo for the short advice but it did help... hahaha... oh ya forgot to mention 2 weeks ago mi n darling found 2 kittens at HKN training ground there.. they r sooo cute.. so kelian.. so we took it in... now we finalli found owners for them le.. thanks rachel for giving a temp home for the kittens when mi n darling cannot.. hope the kittens will haf a nice home.. ^-^ ltr trainin muz train hard!! i muz JIA U le.. muz re-train.. cannot slack le.. so i muz retake weights n go running or play bball for time to time le.. JIA U!! i m working real hard toward the cuming nan zhong cup!!! so... JIA U!! ^-^p*10o4*
Monday, October 17, 2005
-6:14 PM
Today work.. last sunday so great la we all plan so nicely n meet up to go SENTOSA!! hahahaha tinking of getting tanned... sunburn... n.. shiok la.. BUT IT RAINED!!! so stupid lo go sentosa then it rained!!! somemore is whole day lo!!! we were playing happily in the sea then dark coulds formed n... RAINED.. -__- alamak sia... hahahaa instead of getting sunburn... i got rain burn... meaning FLU!!!! stupid leh.. damn cold la.. then all say i weak.. but becos i scare of cold ma.. wau lau tt moment i was like shivering n shivering lo.. after those shivering.. we went to mok house.. hahaha sleep in her house again.. hahahah it's so damn funni when pekpek tore mok's fav blanket!! there was a big hole lo.. but culprit not onli pek la.. dear oso... hahahaha but we all blamed pekpek onli.. not fair rite?? hahahahaha =P
ytd sick so i nv go work... MC!! hahahahaha then meet dear n mok buy jo's present... bought a billabong sports bag for her!! heheh we gave her in advance cos we went hke ma. she there like confirm see le so we gave her le.. hahahaha.. she see le so happi n immediately use it sia.. i oso wan a sports bag lo.. T.T hahahaha.. then we play bb there.. hahahah wa i pro sia sick still can play.. dunno why when i always touch the balls all my illness n all my pain will be gone de.. hahahaha then all of them say i ball freak.. realli meh?? =D hahahaha ltr goin to meet dear to return her ezline card.. she blur forgot to take ytd.. happi~~!
today still ok la.. juz feel idiot cold when i wake up lo.. now still cold too.. but no fever le la.. topid.. feel damn tired althought i sleep so earli ytd.. funni lo..faster ok i wan go play friendly!! wanna can play with dear's sch ma. tt will b fun!! but hor i finish work at 6pm then their sch where will allow so late de.. haizzz.. how sia.. dear say play on sat but we got hkn training!! which means dear got 3 trainings tt day n i got 2.. 2 still ok but she will b damn tired.. crazy leh her.. hahahaha =P better dun let her see i say her.... *SSShhhshhh!!* hahahahaha... ltr gorilla cum n beat mi.. *Ooooopssss!!! =P Prays she dun see.. hahahaha*
Saturday, October 08, 2005
-9:20 AM
Today another boring day... cum office at 9am then do nth then can go at 1pm liao.. alamak waste my time sia.. hahahaha no need mi to cum aniwae.. cos do nth lo.. sit here surf net.. -__- hahahaha.. ytd play bb with pekpek, mok, bl n jo... so fun!!! hahaha finalli they cum our here to play liao.. cos everytime we go there de.. hahaha they very bad sia all e while i was not in their team.. they had juz nice 4 ppl ma.. then left mi out sia.. *si bl say wat thanks leh then go play liao!! -__-* hahahaha then of cos i join my frens la.. haaha after tt we go eat Mcdonalds then go sit n tok.. so nice for so long nv like tt tok liao. hahahaha
for the very first time... they finally tok abt my bb skill liao!!! yeepi!! they say i m very fast.. n reali fast tt's y ppl dun like mi to defend them.. like tt time ngee ann trainin shi qi keep on complainin.. hahahaha reali meh? wa then bl say i defend v rough.. hahaha but to guys ma.. whu cares? hahhahaha =P but i always play like tt referee cant see aniwae so still i win rite? hahahaha =p i m goin to fight back on my cuming ivp on meilian!!!! hope she haben grad man.. hate her lo.. idiot... hahhah... then bl says my left hand sucks like hell.. *i onli noe how to qie right side* T.T how sia? i m reali goin to train my left hand liao.. all playing use left hand if possible now!!! damn sia... haizz.. so do i consider qiang? hahahahaha i wan b strong to help my team n not drag them... so muz reali train reali hard!!! JIA U weiyan~~!! hahahaha
oh ya jo if u happens to see this.. JIA U too... u can de i haf faith in u.. i will try to b strong n caught the balls which u nv go in.. but of cos dun wan too much la cos i blive u can go in de lo... hahahaha pekpek.. can b more fast!! n mok mok... u seems abit scare leh.. no fear, weiyan's there to help u with a rebounds!!! go ahead n do wat u wan to do!!! ^-^ all jia u!! oh ya we tok abt dear ytd too.. hey u huh if u noe how to turn the other side n if u haf more awareness on court.... u r unbeatable sia cos for ur build u r very fast!! ^-^ let's all improve n JIA for our nan zhong k?? cant wait to official b in the team!! ^-^ got to end liao office starts to feel up with ppl le.. JIA U!!!!
Saturday, October 01, 2005
-2:17 AM
Today whole day in office type n type... aft work went to meet dear... hahaha *happi* ate the chicken with no sauce lo!! *thanks leh dear!!!!! -__- u cook liao then eat away rite? dun bluff... but anyway it's nice! hahahaha *
Juz found out tt Xiao bai died.... afew moments ago i went to her "home" n i saw her lying there... T.T oh man... why muz this happen to her?? *sorry i didnt take good care of u... it's all my fault.. but u seems to be very healthy ytd... Rest in peace...* didnt noe it had been with mi for 3 yrs le... so long n old liao. it's has been a cute n nice hamster... haizz ppl n animals will part one day.... one day... i dunno why i didnt cry at all... i stare at xiao bai blankly... i keep lookin.. it had her eyes close... mayb it left without pain? *prays* now i m still stoning... totaly no mood le.. i miss it.. i put it in a box with saw dust n food.. tml wake up to bury it.. i wonder if i can leave till tml night? but tink i tml wake up at 5am to dig ba.... now its already 2 plus liao.. i feel soooo sad but no tears come out.. feel so funni.. ... T.T feel so terrible now....