lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
-1:49 PM
LOLLIPOPS~!! Lollipops~! sooo many!! hahahaha i got 78 lollipops! hehehe thanks dear.. =P i love lollipops!!!! now slacking at home rottin... my back hurts.. injured last match with QIan Xi.. stupid la i go defend cai meh meh.. then kanna.. hahaha.. hope my back will recover in time for our match against butter's team! we muz jia u.. ltr still got trainin.. heard mok n ah qin kanna tt cough too.. hope they recover soon.. jia u.. oh n baozhen injured her hand.. hope she's ok too.. jia u..
hey tml's match against cedar, MANJUSRI JIA U~!! pekpek tt day against Qian Xi u can qie the coaches liao.. tml u can too!! mok u oso can de.. jia u!! hey dear dun tink so much n JIA U~~! u can do it.. u all can do it de i'm v sure!!! i'll b there supportin all of u!! =)
jia u...
Sunday, March 26, 2006
-1:45 AM
Juz now had training.. so tired.. couldnt reali sleep mayb partly bcos of my stupid cough n Headache ba.. v v haedache now.. my head feels like bursting.. =(
Juz now kanna scoldings from old coach n BL keep saying mi la.. sian.. i noe i m wrong so i didn blame them.. but i feel so damn fustrated when wat i do always doesnt seem right. At that moment i feel so damn retard. Is like i couldnt react la. For all the years of my bb life, it seems that i couldnt improve n move up at all... it seems that i m stuck at wat my so call level now. Sometimes a sudden thought would came across my mind... Mayb basketball isnt my kind of game.. i'm so sorri but i couldnt seem to move up.. confidence level are falling.. i always encourage others but when it cums to myself.. it's so hard. I'm so sad... haiz...
end here ba.. dunno wat to say aniwae.. JIA U gals.. =)
Saturday, March 25, 2006
-1:31 AM
have been tinkin too much again.. have been worrying this n that again.. why do i haf a small brain that cant stop tinking sia. Tinkin over sensible stuffs nvm, but i'm always tinkin over stupid stuffs la. i'm crazy again juz now.. made dear unhappy again. Í'm so sorri.. I didnt did it on purpose.. i juz feel that i'm not myself.. someting seems missing.. lacking but i couldnt find wat's wrong. Had a sudden urge of leaning to someone's shoulder n have a big cry.. Had a sudden urge of leanin to someone whu would shelter mi frm all fears n harm. that person is U.. -> u shld noe. =) i Just took med to get better so tt i wont worry u again n again. Sorri..
Thursday, March 23, 2006
-8:50 AM
Manjusri lost today... all was like a nightmare le.. mok n pekpek cry.. tryin to console them aft the match. jia u... when we were in train, they were like tokin abt it again.. until i shouted at the 3 of them.. including dear.. i'm sorri.. but i was reali so angry. All of u aways tink it's impossible, difficult, then wat's the point of playing on if all of u tink this way? Skills i believe all the 3 of u haf liao, but it's juz the mentallity n whether u can overcome urself ma.. but what i heard is juz excuses that all of u made. face it, learn n improve.. otherwise all of u cannot go far. i reali hope tt u all will understand.
I know dear's v angry too but i juz dun like the way u all tink.. made mi so sad. believe u can!! JIA U~~!!! Sometimes feels sad.. dunno why.. feel so helpless. dunno how to say.. haiz... i'm tinkin too much again.. sian.. dots.....dots......dots......
-1:13 AM
so long nv update le. today, or should i say ytd, we played against Home United. Ok, i sucks la. The whole team was not playing to standard at all. All of us was so lost and referees ask us whether we are scared or wat n what happen to us. oh man the final scores was i tink 15 to 103 la.. damn it. so freaking angry. I made their no. 10 angry sia. I will not remember the gai hwo guo she given mi la, n i did back to her too. hahaha.
After this match, it makes mi feel how tiny n insignificant i was. I'm so lousy. I wan to IMPROVE is wat i m tinking all the way in the whole match. Their standard differs from us too greatly liao, but i want to be like them. Mayb i'm asking too much but wat's the point if we remain like tt for mayb years? Ah Qin words made mi feel sad. Yes we muz faced the facts tt they are far too strong frm us, but without even trying? mayb we'll make tt difference? I juz feel that the team needs to trust each other more. Trust us. Haiz... wat a match.. made my mood sucks la.
Tml watching dear's match. hope everyting wil b fine.. *prays*.
Hope i wont b sick.. hope i will b able to b strong n stay by dear's side n not the other way round. But recently my body juz oppose mi la. Had rashes last few days bcos of alcohol overdose, then right side of my stomach keeps hurting for a few days liao even till now. Juz now wanted to bluff tru but still kanna caught by dear. haiz. Lucki was able to tahan n play. Now headache like hell. Nose feels funni too. Scarely is Kelly spread to mi de cos she this afternoon kept sneezing in front of mi in the sports complex. Now helping dear do some researches. too tired le tink i slpin soon le.
Life so lost, no sense of direction at all after i grad. Sian. now is walk one step tink one step ba....
I wan be STRONGER... I WAN~!!!
Jia u butter.. JIA U DEAR... jia u all... (feels kind of sad when i saw ex-hkn ppl today... =( .. i found tt i miss u all more than i tot i'll miss.. but i noe i haf to move on... haf to move ahead even if it's dead road.. )
=10o4=
Friday, March 03, 2006
-3:58 PM
It's last day of my 6 months attachment to Nature Landscape. 6 months was neither long nor short but from this particular 6 months, i learnt to be independent and had been exposed to part of the working society. I have also made new friends of different ages. =) I'm miss them the most! Never forgetting tt mama they called mi to call her (Rovena), her upmost care-taking of mi through this 6 months. Glory, the most glorious and wonderful lady in the whole of Nature, she's so nice to me.. =) . Not forgetting belinda, the most altheletic woman of nature who always laugh so cute, she also kept gving mi stuffs to eat making mi fat sia... hahaha.. Not forgetting people like daren, kingston, vincent, lim, chye teen whu always make fun of me. Of cos there will be someone whu always wanted mi to help him type BQ!!! Yong Sheng~!!! hahaha i still own him comics! HAHAHA~ thanks alot.. u guys make my entire 6 months wonderful, Although i knew only rovena will see this but i juz wan to write it out. =P I must really praise ur bf that he's so capable that he could find my blog address out.. hahaha.. aniwae i wouldnt mind letting people see cos blog is meant to be open i supposed.. heez. I'll miss all of u. =(
At the same time i'm quite happi cos i'm with freedom again~! I can be like what i used to be like again! I can have the time to go sentosa to tan, go swimming, go shopping, go play basketball all over singapore~! hahaha so much tings to be done. Oh n i forgotten, i wan go clubbing~! heez. BUT the most important ting is... i need MONEY~! Aiyo it's always so sensitive when we cum to tis topic.. haha.. nvm i'll get some part-time job with real flexible time so i can train, teach bb and go out at the same time.( seems impossible ba. whu wans employ this kind of ppl?) haha.. see how it goes ba.
Today going to marche after work with all my colleagues~! So happi~! =) At least today they found mi a laptop to let mi use so i can do daren's autocad drawing. Feeling kinda of sleepy rite now. Wish there's a pillow bside mi now.. =P hahaha.. Oh ya heard that butter lost her recent match. Wonder if we can meet then during the second round ma provided we got in too la. reali hope we can get it. I didnt wan to say but i really fear bcos i dun wish for history to repeat itself again and again. Wat history u must be wondering, it's when we always have the most chance of winning or entering the next round, we'll always get disappointed. u shld noe wat i meant? haiz.. Really hope history doesnt repeat itself again lo.. we must really work hard for it.. JIA U~! =)
Darling ar will u cum for training tml? if u see this tell mi k? dear's having training now i tink hope she's alrite.... jia u.. i wonder pekpek's ankle ok le ma.. xiao xin diao all of u.. alamak sia make mi worri~! nth more to blog le.. tink end here le.. got to get out of this room b4 i get deaf~!! i'm behind the whole renovation! they juz use canvas sheet to cover the knock dwn wall and they are doin renovation there lo!! i'm juz bhind tt canvas sheet! The knockings are making mi deaf!! And it is even worst when there are sparks flying into the room!! Can u imagine if it landed on my hair!!! BURN!!! oh gosh~! hahahaha ok now it stops liao.. n they are listening to some sort of indian music.. oh my.. hahaha i'm goin bonkers.. one moment LOUD knockings then sparks and now indian music~!!! hahaha m i racist? no la.. hahaha tink stop here ba. blog again if i haf chance =) but dun tink will be so recent as there wont be so much time for mi to slack in front of the com like i always did in the office! hahaha but i'll try blogging if i can everyday~! ^-^P heez...
To all my wonderful colleagues~! Take care and smile always~! rmb mi hor! HAHAHA =) jia u for everyting u all did~! smilez~!
To HKN~ians... JIA U again~! love u gals~! muz take care k? Let's chiong all the way~!
To Dear.. JIA U~!!! I'll b there for u always~! bcareful! i can watch ur every match liao hahaha... =p
Thursday, March 02, 2006
-10:20 AM
Couldnt wake up in time today for work.. woke up later than usual feeling very tired. Lookin myself in the mirror, i asked myself "why the hell m i so freaking tired?" After stoning in the mirror for a few minutes i went to prepare and it was then i recieved dear's msg. It certainly brighten up my day~! =) While walking to the mrt, i began to think about my future plans. It's a total blank. I duno wat to do, wat i truely wanted. Duh~! It's like goin to grad in like less than a few weeks and i dun even noe wat the hell i truely wanted. Applied NIE le but lots of ppl tell mi it's very hard to get in especially when u had to go tru an interview with a poor english and a blurred mi.. u all shld noe mi very well la.. -__- hahaha sian la. juz pray n hope for the best ba. Late le i still can slowly stroll to the mrt sia. a v slack attitude. mayb bcos i'm leaving in like less than 2 days... hope can faster end.. it's like a torture to mi here la. nth to do n now no place for mi to sit~!! hahaha reached company ard 9:12pm.. hahaha now slacking in front of the PC again.. hahaha time seems to pass damn slow lo.. haha..
Yesterday had training aft work.. rushed there but still late. lucki nv rain.. there's 11 ppl at first but ah mao, agnes n jac had doc's appointment so left at 8pm... so left 8 of us training... kelly so poor ting broke a new bottle of perfume there which makes the place smell damn nice la.. hahaha i like tt smell although it's men's perfume.. haha.. *pats kelly head* dun feel sad la.. at least u still haf the cap as souvenir rite? =p hehe haiz my bad ting reali happen la.. the cramp prediction.. i slightly sprain my ankle ytd when doin the zhong fei jiao bu ... now walk alittle pain.. knee oso dun feel rite.. ytd cant jump at all la while shootin.. stupid sharp pain on my knee.. now still got lor.. haiz... my body reali wanna go on strike liao.. hahaha =p JIA U~!
at least now our team on the surface seem ok.. but dunno inside wat they tinkin still.. so muz tell mi hor~! heez~!! pekpek n mao's leg faster heal la.~!!! n dear's too~! rest well~!!! JIA U~!
CHIONG for the 2nd round gals~!! JIA U~!.... =)
=10o4=
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
-11:59 AM
haha.. r u shocked ytd appearing there? hahaha.. juz wanted to say JIA U~!! dun give up!! know it's veri tough for u now but jia u~!!! rmb u r juz too tired le.. u can do it once again de!! do complain n whine at mi k? makes u feel better~!=) i'm always here for u rmb tt!! i feel tt u're worth it.. love u dear.. JIA U~!
YeeeePPPpppi~!! friday's my last day liao!!! i cant wait for tt day to cum! imagine i can b like wat i use to b le.. can play bb..can go out... hahaha butfor sure i need to find someting to earn mi money while waiting for my admission notice rite? if i fail then i might enroll for nxt yr's university le.. it will b tough for mi cos i will haf to pay my own sch fees.. by then i'll b studying smth different liao.. =) so meantime i will b trying out to apply for relief teaching and coaching the clementi gals team... =) so excited for the day to coach them sia~~!! imagine i can tan under the hot sun again! i can train with them n all sort of stuffs... so great la.. hahaha.. jo ask mi apply for clementi's relief teaching then i tell her i rather apply for manjusri de.. =PPpppPPp hahahaha stupid la.. hahaha now i in office i m homeless/ seat-less/ desk-less.. hahah cos new colleague cum in today then her permanent place will b at my desk.. good la.. let mi suffer for the rest of my 2 and half days.. hahaha lucki my manager went malaysia then now i m sitting at his place.. wonder tml how.. hahaha..
wonder why i always so tired.. tink might b bcos of the drowniness effect of my cough syrup.. but it's like frm last night??? duh~! wa kao woke up with a cramp today again.. damn pain la.. wonder wat bad tings will happen today cos everyting i woke up with a cramp smth bad will happen de.. happen to mi nvm dun happen to ppl ard mi pls.. the tot of goin kallang play ball again makes mi sooooooo happi la.. hahaha the tot of watching every single match of dear's makes mi damn happi n high la.. hahahaha sooooo great la~!! =P i tink i like too high liao.. it's nt friday yet.. it's onli WED~!! faster!!! but i'll miss the ppl in my company.. they r so nice to mi... =( i'll miss all of u de....
hope pekpek's ankle ok liao... hope dear's knee n neck ok le.. JIA U~!!
sian diao la.. 7th march is my final presentation then i forgot to make extra copy of my report then i submit liao.. now the reports are in australia liao!! wat i goin to present i wonder.. sian diao lo.. somemore it's a 20mins presentation.. i wonder wat shit i will b tokin lor.. sian sian... haiz... tink need wear formal tt day sia.. sian diao lo.. wonder can wear blouse n jeans ma.. alamak.. haiz... Jia u~! =)
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