Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me

When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

Weiyan
A normal person whu had small dreams that will nv cum true. But she's still working hard towards it.

Nitendo DS

My very own medal

Watch

many clothes

Go overseas

New Num slipper

A great Bday Bash

-5:59 PM

Yeeppi~!! We Won kaixuan~!! straight 2 wins in a row~! so nice.. nv had tt feeling b4.. =) Hkn rocks on~!! Let's JIA U n beat T-net for the entering of the second round~!! we muz reali JIA U~!!! knew some of u are not happi... bcos nv get to play.. got benched in another words but pls tink on the other side?? u gals are all equally important.. with u gals n all of ur support.. we wont b able to play well at all... ppl are leaving.. y? is there smth wrong with us?? the old playerS? oh man.. haiz.. trying to make them stay but i wont force them.. =( i reali dun wan to lose a teammate..ani teammate... =( so sian always like tt... haizz still sick la.. i tink i reali weak lo.. sick so long.. headache n cough n my block nose juz wont go away la.. shag... but i'll jia u .. the illness making mi soooo tired man.. haiz..
To HKN~ians...
JIA U k? dun give up~! let's show them our power, our strength!! dun tink so much juz play for the time being.. but do all of ur best~!! we CAN de!!!! reali hope all of u can start feeling the bond we haf.. = jia u k??? i reali feel happi playing with all of u.....


dear tis period is ur tough period... u haf to ren! JIA U~!! dun give up k?? i'll b running the track with u so u dun worri.. i'll b there for u k?? no matter how tired or depressed u r.. juz tink tt there will b a person pushing u to the finishing line always.. like i did when we ran the 8 rounds during training.. JIA U dear... u can do it de.. i'm v sure u can do it... huggies... love u dear... JIA U~!!!! so heart pain see u like tt.... haiz.. but there nth i can do expect tt... JIA U~!! bcareful oso dear.. no matter wat happens, u're always my dear.. ^-^P

=10o4=


-10:06 AM

i tink my life's back to mormal le ba.. mayb for the time being.. didnt blog for days le cos sick then mc for 2 days then didnt use the com le..now in company typing blog.. so bad la.. but reali nth to do lor.. haha.. tinking 5 more workings days n i'll b free frm this misery le.. n i will b able to watch dear's every match liao... =) hahahaha so happpi~!!!!

we WON nayang alumni!!!! wa kao damn happi la... i tink no1 will expect we'll win.. hahaha HKN rocks on~!!! watever has happen b4.. i'll juz let it go... n b strong again.. i m not goin to care much abt other ppl's tinkin n saying le.. =) cos i noe at least i got afew of the ppl's support! haha so glad we win.. but stupid is i played with a fever n flu la.. dunno where i got the strength frm la when i played.. rite aft the game i was like immediately goin to die n nearly fainted la.. haha damn dizzy when they are doin the cool down... mi n bz fouled out sia... hahaha ok i had stupid foul.. gotta look out on that for tml.. =) at least i bow at the referee table n they nodded at mi.. so happi la.. then manjusri coach kept praising mi.. lalalala... =p i noe all the manjusri ppl kept nagging at mi say they hear liao jiu fan.. hahahaha =p he oso got say ah qin ma... so nice la.. say i good at defence n my rebound good... hahaha actuali i tink ok la.. mayb bcos i like siao char bo kept running, jumpin, n chionging then makes him tink i like dun wan my life... =p hahahha... sometimes i reali tink i siao de.. hahaha but he say my attack need to improve.. it's truth la.. cos i didnt score much or even try.. aniwae the bottom line is WE WON~!!!!

nxt match against kaixuan... muz jia u le.. cant underestimate them!! i fight n chiong like wat we did on wed's match!! rmb hor!! =) JIA U HKN~!!!!

thurs mc so went to watch dear's match .. so sian la see them sit bench onli... then saw mok n pek bargaining with the coach to let them dwn 5 mins.. so funni la.. but in the end they sat all the way.. wa kao waste time la.. hahaha then we went TM eat the go home..

ytd got trainin.. tink my attitude sucks la.. cos i v pek cek always clash with dear.. feel so failure dunno how to pei hei her.. haiz.. i muz jia u le... cant make a burden to dear.. sorri dear.... Let's jia u for tml k??? =)

jia u jia u hkn n those whu nv get to play on the first match.... cool dwn n tink.. all of u are equally impt as us rmb tt!!! we need all of u too~!!!! JIA U~!!! huggies~!


-12:11 PM

i'm juz acting strong all the way.. i m juz trying to b the strong gal n trying to b everyone's pillar.. i failed.. i tot i can get the team together n i failed again.. this time it's bcos of mi.. i finalli understand.. i got to noe tt they didnt like mi... they said i attitude.. haha..laughable isnt it? ppl whu noes mi out there.. do u tink i would? to my most precious teammates.. to the team i treasure more than my life.. mayb it's my serious face which made them tink this way.. cos of my stupid face? even if i attitude, the person i will attitude is myself.. everytime i will bcos i feel tt i didnt help the team much.. i couldnt play better to help them.. feeling useless.. all ppl has flaws.. but cant i haf flaws? i'm a human.. i m alive.. i cant b perfect.. it's so tired to b asked to b perfect.. isnt it fake? mayb it's other things they didnt like.. but i juz dun feel like knowing dun feel like hearing.. i juz wanna b alone.. can i juz b ordinally? darling says: "no u cant. u start as a leader to us n u muz end as a leader to us.." hearing this words makes mi speechless.. know dear, darling, mok trying to help mi.. thanks... i reali appreciate.. but.. i dunno how to say.. First attack was darling's disappearance.. then was pekpek's ignorance.. then came this ting.. i couldnt take it animore.. once v concerned abt u n when tokin abt bb to u will full of enthu de person changed n no longer be there for u, no longer tell u her problems, no longer draw stars for mi n no longer cry to mi.. i miss the old times.. the kallang time... all was so beautiful.. n i wot forget the time when u drew stars for mi.. =) but at least i got memories ba.. hahaha..
reali dun even feel like playin ltr's match.. mayb i dun play they will win n b better.. dun even wan to wear the jersey.. i'm so tired.. i juz wanna rest.. be an ordinary player whu can attitude to captain n coach.. hack everyting n juz wan cum training juz cum. dun wan cum juz dun wan cum.. ... tt's my fate ba.. mayb i'm not good enuff to b a leader... actuali i m crying everyday.. juz dun wan b alone.. whenever i m alone i will tink abt our hkn past.. the happi past.. tears will juz roll.. i m a person whu cant let go of the past.. i m still hanging on to it.. hanging so badly.. but tryin to move on.. aft listening to dear's song she send mi.. i did feel better.. "moving on" thanks.. =) i didnt wan ani1 of u to fan abt mi. i juz noe tt i will do wat i can n if nth can b done or change le.. i'll leave.. this time i m serious.. sorri to say tt.. sorri for those whu gone tru with mi thick n thin.. i will b taking over coaching for youth cup... i noe i cant do it but i had no choice.. if they noe i took over.. ppl will leave for sure... whu wans such a lousy n no experience n some1 they dun like de person to b their coach? so by then.. i'll leave ba.. dun even haf the team's support how m i goin to hold on? hahaha... laughable joke... i reali miss lindy, zee huey, wan ru, rachel, you yu, jiashi, qiying, pekpek, mok, n all those ex-hkns... i reali miss u all.. then was the most happiest time n u all let mi see the light n hope.. i reali miss all of u.. T-T but i noe.. it's impossible for all of u to cum back now.. thanks for the wonderful memories although i didnt play with u all.. but i feel all of u alwaysby my side no matter wat... =) this is wat i call TEAM... of cos i didnt say ite ppl cum n spoils everyting... n i didnt say ite ppl r bad or wat.. it's juz tt i m the one now.. causing all this.. so i'll juz quietly sits by the side now.. i hope none of the hkn ppl see this n spoils their mood of playing ltr..

i always tot the team always supports mi.. but i m wrong tis time.. i feel so lonely.. nv so lonely n heard b4.. even if my last time bf dump mi.. it's worst than tt.. cos i seethe team even more impt than mi life.. i place them ahead of mi.. mayb i haf not done enuff... mayb..

i feel so down to the bottom.. dunno i shld b wat when i see them ltr.. cant show them i m sad rite?continue to act happi? act nth happen? haiz... i reali dunno... juz wan to thanks butter, darling, dear, rach, qi.. for listening to mi..for being by my side.. thanks.. =) thanks mok for the msg u send mi tt day... u made mi feel alot better.. =) thanks...~!

aniwae i still wanna say.. hkn jia u ltr... mu reali CHIONG no matter how u all dun like mi.. cos jieqi says.. on court even enemy muz play as a team.. so put aside evryting on court.. off court then hate mi ba.. i dun wan to cry ltr... i cried too much le.. if possible i wan to smile all e way..

i juz wan to play kuai le de lan qiu.. is it so difficult? =(


-8:55 PM




-12:20 PM

I'm not goin to say much.. nth much to say animore... i'll do wat i can.. juz wat i can now.. till i reali cannot le then i'll reali give up.. this is wat i can say.. sorri... aniwae no1 even bothers. haha whu cares so much abt this stupid gal... =| wed's match JIA U~!! do ur best k?? we can de~!!! JIA U~!! HKN CHIONG AR~!! i juz feel like hiding in 1 corner to cry... juz like a little gal.. hahahaha stupid sia. hahahaha.. Tis yr might not b a good yr for mi sia.. so suay la.. all things uz happen.. so suay so suay.. but nvm if this suay~ness can let others healthy n happi n good luck, i'll b ok with it.. fine with it.. i tink it's worth it.. =) JIA u WEIYAN!!! hahahahaha.. ltr then blog again.. i go for lunch now... hahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahahhahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................


-12:50 PM

Trg on wed was sucky la.. no1 has the mood n rite attitude to train la.. including mi oso.. baolong train us till so pekcek la.. i'm sorri baolong.. aft training we sat dwn n had talks.. baolong tokabt respecting the coach n our trainin attitudes.. ya i agree with him.. aft he left i ask all of them..
:'wat's wrong with all of us? why dun we haf the attitude? dun haf the bonding at all.. dun u all feel it as well?' all of them agreed.. all of them..
then they tok abt jean...:' without jean our training seems so moodless.. without her it's not fun at all...'
i went into slience.. didnt noe wat to say...
ah qin started saying:" hey when did manjusri n hkn bcum so bonded?
i replied sayin it was during youth cup.. then she was saying tt we will b better during our nan zhong too~! hope so...
baozhen says she came for the bondin.. cos she say tt time see us during boonlay cup she feels our bond.. ah qin came bcos of old coach.. then made mi n jo tink abt the past.. the unpleasant n pleasant past.. tis is the new hkn le.. the v new hkn.. i believe that the power we have will be lots greater n we can do it de.. we juz need abit of time.. so JIA U~!!! show all of the ppl the new HKN~!!!! sure no problem... JIA U HKN~!!!! CHIONG AR~!!!
may the team b better n may the ppl whu's leaving changes their mind...


Thurs was dull.. went home aft work then slack.. tt's all...


Fri.. (ytd) aft work went to pei butter to seinseh. "butter take care pls... haiyo... dun bcos of first match then make u cannot play the rest.. understand? JIA U~!"
aft tt tok n tok n tok at coffee shop.. so long nv like tt le. so gd la.. then tok abt our fun time at ngee ann all this.. i reali miss la.. i oso miss the times we had at Kallang.. "tings aint the same le if we go back n play"-tis is said by jo.. i feel sad.. i reali wish tings r the same.. it was so happi then.. although life is simple but it was so fun.. =( i wan to play at kallang with the same ppl again~!!!!
aft tt went home.. nth much le.. tt's all...


Now in office so bored la... wa kao.. the tot of them playing frenly n mi working here makes mi so sad la.. wa lua.. but so glad tt they won n they nv injured.. *god bless them all* then jo says sl played quite well.. i was like is it bcos i'm not ard then she can perform? why huh? haizzz.. i wan to pei hei her but haiz.. dunno why i always clash with her de... hope will b better... =|

stop now le.. 10mins more to end work then meet dear.. yeeppi~! she's sure tired de.. haiz.. hope she's ok.. JIA U DEAR~!! huggies..


-11:54 AM

On V day there still the usual stuff like working.. so sian lo.. spoils everyting la.. but at least i did meet up with dear~!! hahaha on the bus tinkin of lots of stuffs.. mayb i tink too much.. tinkin abt the team.. ... ... went to dear's house then slack there.. i'm so happi she gave mi another gift! i love chocs~!!! hehehe...





-10:57 AM

Here's the upload pics~!!! heez~ =)
Our celebration of V. day at Cosy Bar on Sunday... =)




-2:30 PM

ppl was wonderin whu i was writing the previous blog to... obviously i dun wan to tell la.. but tt person is not my lover or wat la... it's juz my support.. my great fren..
ok.. you reali didnt send mi ani msg.. or u assume some1 wil help u tell mi tt u r not cuming for training? i'm so sad.. wat happen to u? wat happen to us? wat happen to mi?... i reali dunno wat to say le.. all i can say already say liao.. i'm feeling so exhausted le... thanks for being there for mi when i needed.. i dun wan to say animore.. the more i say the more sad i m le...

...... mayb i shld review some happi things ba.. otherwise my blog like always sad here sad there... =(

sat had training...
coach was like crazy la.. we trained like hell.. train till thigh muscle so cramped up tt u feel so heavy n ur legs cant move at all.. pain lo.. stupid sia.. he scolded like hell la.. scold here scold there.. it seems to mi like he's back le.. back to red alert period.. all of them was saying tt i'm crazy cos i ran finish 8 rds (3.2km).. but i ran another 8 rds with dear cos she came late.. mayb tt's y my leg like tt.. haha.. training 2-1-2 tt time i feel so useless n stupid la.. cos is like i reali dunno how to play. jieqi n joyce were at the side helping mi.. but it seems tt i'm like too stupid tt they were laughing.. i reali tink tt my brain too simple cant take advance tings de lor... even take liao oso v xin ku.. play till so pek cek la.. but i'll try ba.. haiz. i see dear n BBT pei hei so gd i feel so useless lo.. sian.. haiz haiz.. =( when will i b smarter? y i aways so stupid huh? haiz... tryin my v best... coach always like to say wat i no brain take ball straight away muz go into the basket to shoot or juz shoot without tinking.. =( i noe i m like tt but i wanted to change so long le but i'm still like tt ma? i'm reali trying.. y i cant b like them??? =(

ytd went to help my fren with smth then joyce help mi dye my hair.. ok i tink nobody notice i change my color of my hair rite? kinda failure la.. did highlight but none of the highlights came out. sian like hell. i tink my hair wans to go saloon de lo.. cannot this kind de ar? stupid lo.. aniwae it's like no change la.. aft tt went back home... got change then took cab to pekpek house cos i late le.. it's far LOL! i recieved my V.day present le!!!! dear bought mi 2 hamsters~!!! it's the one i wanted so much.. the one tt looks like highlight fur.. hahaha.. they are damn damn small la.. smaller then my length of my thumb.. i see le i was like.. oh my god!!!! so happi.. thanks dear i reali love it... LOVE U DEAR!! dear put in a vase with deco la.. so nice..cant bear to take them out of there.. hahaha but haf to. mi, dear, qi n mei went to cosy bar to eat.. there got a small tower n we sat at the v top to eat.. atmosphere not bad sia.. viewing the sea.. nice la.. hahaha.. but the food so so onli.. at there we saw 2 PL... then qi n dear keep looking la.. duh~! gotta dug ur eye out !! hahaha.. aft eating we went to sit dwn n tok la.. then go home with cab.. whole day v short but was so nice.. i'm reali happi n touched... especially our kaka n zhua zhua... =p love them to bits... hahaa... went home n transfer them to my big fish tank.. but poor old hamster got to move to the below plastic container.. sorry.. i feel so bad.. i put zhua zhua n kaka in they like so small la.. the whole tank like a mansion to them la.. so funni.. hahaha.. but great la.. they got so much place to run.. hahaha.. i took lots of pics of them n videos too.. =p.. gonna post it up another time.. hehehe. so happi~!!! thanks dear!!!... hope u like mine too..

so happi got new pet... zhua zhua n kaka.. ^-^

ltr goin to xuemin's bday party.. sooooo tired.. =(

*hope dear gets into under 18.. JIA U~! but pls take care at the same time..*

sian... haiz..

God. r u there? =(


-9:53 AM

a stupid ting mi n my colleague did in office ..tis shows how bored we ar.. 2 mandarine oranges.. hahaha so stopid...

-5:53 AM

went shopping ytd.. bought the things i wan to buy liao.. hahaha so happi la.. i LOVE shopping la~!!! but provided there's money for u to shop.. cos i hate window shopping~!! hahahaha.. thanks Kexin for acc~ing mi... ^-^ cos i keep asking her for suggestion lo.. hahaha..

DEAR DEAR I TELL U HOR I WAN BIG BIG PRESENTS~!! N LOTS LOTS OF IT HOR~!
otherwise ur ugly pics will b exposed on friendster hor!!! (* announcing a big threatening to dear!! hahahaha*) ok lame.. =p

i finalli put on my ring earring on the new pierced hole. but so painful la tt i took it out n place back the original stud... then i found out tt the topid person pierce my ear slanted. then pierce till the back so bhind.. tt's y if i wan put muz buy bigger ring de.. haiz.. make my ear so pain ..=p but whu ask mi to..hahaha

ltr got to go buy smth again.. so tired.. so tired.. hahaha but muz go.. hahaha.. aft tt tink go home ba.. mm... sian.. my daddy missing mi la wans mi go home earli hahaha...

now i tinking shld i go NIE? or shld i stay in this company for half a yr more? haiz.. so funni la so many ppl ask mi b air stewardness.. siao ar them.. i where will qualify.. tell ppl oso paiseh la.. lame.. hahahaha... sian. sian.. haiz.. yeeppi tml can meet dear le..!!! hahahaha...

JIA U dear for tml's selection!! bcareful k?? HUGZ~!!!


<3>
hugz...

Thursday, February 09, 2006

-1:43 PM

Someting is reali amiss... my life is totally messed up tis week.. gonna find out wat's wrong exactly.. it's juz so weird.. i'm feeling down.. ppl ask mi wat's wrong but i juz cant answer tt question.. mayb it's bcos of bb? the players there? my work? my frens? i dunno.. somehow i noe it's bits n pieces of little tings which make my week so bad... i noe ppl will b saying.. "you're thinking too much again weiyan.. " m i? haiz.. some1 got to tell mi why...
the person whu had been supporting mi all this while left mi alone le.. wanting to give up le and started say negative tings which she doesnt.. wat's wrong? i juz hope u wld stay and continue to b wat u used to.. although it's different now already and difficult but.. we already been tru it so long n so many times le.. didnt we? why r u gving up now?? u make mi feel so sad when u said those words to mi.. i noe u're juz pissed but u left a great scar in mi.... i've been trying real hard.. haiz.. u shld noe whu u r when u see this blog...
ppl juz leave my life... but they say it's part of growin up.. if tt's the case.. i rather dun grow up....
i haf no sense of direction in my life n i'm graduating le.. haiz.. so sian...
so many tings to fan sia... sian... now miss dear so much.. sian muz wait till sat... ltr goin out with kexin.. ask her pei mi.. go shoppin ba... sian ma.. hahaha.. faster end work leh.. so bored.. so sian.. totally no life sia~! i wan get back my life.. the life where i'm so carefree and happi.. but i tink it's impossible le.. haiz..

Hkn .. all i can say is i'll try my best to unite all of u.. and make this a wonderful team.. but my strength alone is not enuff.. so..... pls make n effort too.. we can de.. JIA U~! i believe in al of u~!! HUGZ~!!! i LOVE u gals~!... hkn chionging together forever... hope u all noe the meaning bhind our CHIONG AR~!! do it!!!!

huggies...
yanz..
=10o4=

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

-10:50 AM

....Dui bu qi....

-10:35 AM

I'm sorri....... dunno wat's gotten into mi le.. sorr i i made u sad..
There's so much we wanted to tell each other but we juz couldnt,, y? it's all mi... i may not be ur perfect gal... but i love u like no ending... love u more than others...

Bcos of my stubborness i made u sad... i make u worri... but bcos it's stubborn which made up weiyan.. haiz.. sorri...

sometimes i hate to b weiyan... i'll b wondering if i could b some1 else? Being weiyan sometimes sucks..

I'm soooo v tired... v tired... ani1 understands? T-T
i'm not like myself......

Thursday, February 02, 2006

-5:38 PM

Nv blogg for sometime.. *clearing spidery webs*~~~~*greets everyone with a smile..* and begins.....
hahahaha so stupid.. =P
Chinese New year eve..
went back aft my work then slack awhile then eat reunion dinner liao.. we ate steamboat.. aft tt i was asked as usual every year to deco my house. haha.. ard 11 plus we started walking to the temple to pray.. *i prayed for some1...*

Chu yi..
being woke up by my dad.. ate breakfast then went to my ah gong house.. sat alittle while then go to my ah ma house liao... stay there the whole day since then. sian lo.. so boring.. kept watching tv and kept msging dear.. hahaha.. ang bao so little sia.. hahha as i grew older tink i dun tink of ang bao liao.. hahaha...n i actuali didnt like CNY le...

Chu er..
morning woke up help mom abit then started to get chnage to meet dear n butter to kexin's house.. dear's late la.. hahah then butter kept saying she dun haf shi jian kuan nian.. hahaha slack at kexin hosue till ard 5 plus then they came to my house.. we had dinner there.. after tt we decided to pei kexin to clementi to let her gave her mom's ang pao to ppl.. aft tt met mok mok then we went back to jp for movie.. mok didnt join us for tt... watched gaisha .. not bad juz tt the last part quite boring.. haha.. aft tt we went to kexin house.. supposed to gamble but in the end all sleep.. diaoz lor.. haiz..

Chu san..
ok.. tt's the most boring day lo.. went back ar 1plus then slack all e way.. supposed to meet dear aft her visit to her coach's house but in the end too late le then nv meet le.. kinda of disappointed but no choice.. so i slack all e way...

ytd (Chu Si)
work as usual but in holiday mood la.. sianed.. aft work went jp buy stuffs... finally bougth a small pouch to put my tings.. hahaha otherwise ppl keep saying my tt small card holder so ugly.. =p hahaha so now u not paiseh when i pay money in front of u liao la.. hahahaha... bougth black n purple finger nail polish.. hahaha stupid la.. hahahaha i tink it looks wierd on mi. hahaha..
so sian no training how i wish we haf...oh ya speakin of training i so guilty la..
DARLING SO SORRI~!!! tink i left out darling then she went to training ground then no ppl there.. haiyo.. sorri darling.. T-T..

today....
Rushing my final report in my office.. i so bad la.. do during my office hours... =p... finalli done lo.. hahahaha.. now damn tired la.. dunno y... haiz... ltr mayb go jp walk walk alone to relax myself... so sian.. i wish i m back in secondary sch... everyting so relax. but all of us have to grow up 1 day.. hahaha

......sometings has been bothering mi for sometime le... i juz dun wan to tink much.. cos i always tink too much de.. .... .... ..... ... ..... ..... ...... .....

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