lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
-12:11 PM
i'm juz acting strong all the way.. i m juz trying to b the strong gal n trying to b everyone's pillar.. i failed.. i tot i can get the team together n i failed again.. this time it's bcos of mi.. i finalli understand.. i got to noe tt they didnt like mi... they said i attitude.. haha..laughable isnt it? ppl whu noes mi out there.. do u tink i would? to my most precious teammates.. to the team i treasure more than my life.. mayb it's my serious face which made them tink this way.. cos of my stupid face? even if i attitude, the person i will attitude is myself.. everytime i will bcos i feel tt i didnt help the team much.. i couldnt play better to help them.. feeling useless.. all ppl has flaws.. but cant i haf flaws? i'm a human.. i m alive.. i cant b perfect.. it's so tired to b asked to b perfect.. isnt it fake? mayb it's other things they didnt like.. but i juz dun feel like knowing dun feel like hearing.. i juz wanna b alone.. can i juz b ordinally? darling says: "no u cant. u start as a leader to us n u muz end as a leader to us.." hearing this words makes mi speechless.. know dear, darling, mok trying to help mi.. thanks... i reali appreciate.. but.. i dunno how to say.. First attack was darling's disappearance.. then was pekpek's ignorance.. then came this ting.. i couldnt take it animore.. once v concerned abt u n when tokin abt bb to u will full of enthu de person changed n no longer be there for u, no longer tell u her problems, no longer draw stars for mi n no longer cry to mi.. i miss the old times.. the kallang time... all was so beautiful.. n i wot forget the time when u drew stars for mi.. =) but at least i got memories ba.. hahaha..
reali dun even feel like playin ltr's match.. mayb i dun play they will win n b better.. dun even wan to wear the jersey.. i'm so tired.. i juz wanna rest.. be an ordinary player whu can attitude to captain n coach.. hack everyting n juz wan cum training juz cum. dun wan cum juz dun wan cum.. ... tt's my fate ba.. mayb i'm not good enuff to b a leader... actuali i m crying everyday.. juz dun wan b alone.. whenever i m alone i will tink abt our hkn past.. the happi past.. tears will juz roll.. i m a person whu cant let go of the past.. i m still hanging on to it.. hanging so badly.. but tryin to move on.. aft listening to dear's song she send mi.. i did feel better.. "moving on" thanks.. =) i didnt wan ani1 of u to fan abt mi. i juz noe tt i will do wat i can n if nth can b done or change le.. i'll leave.. this time i m serious.. sorri to say tt.. sorri for those whu gone tru with mi thick n thin.. i will b taking over coaching for youth cup... i noe i cant do it but i had no choice.. if they noe i took over.. ppl will leave for sure... whu wans such a lousy n no experience n some1 they dun like de person to b their coach? so by then.. i'll leave ba.. dun even haf the team's support how m i goin to hold on? hahaha... laughable joke... i reali miss lindy, zee huey, wan ru, rachel, you yu, jiashi, qiying, pekpek, mok, n all those ex-hkns... i reali miss u all.. then was the most happiest time n u all let mi see the light n hope.. i reali miss all of u.. T-T but i noe.. it's impossible for all of u to cum back now.. thanks for the wonderful memories although i didnt play with u all.. but i feel all of u alwaysby my side no matter wat... =) this is wat i call TEAM... of cos i didnt say ite ppl cum n spoils everyting... n i didnt say ite ppl r bad or wat.. it's juz tt i m the one now.. causing all this.. so i'll juz quietly sits by the side now.. i hope none of the hkn ppl see this n spoils their mood of playing ltr..
i always tot the team always supports mi.. but i m wrong tis time.. i feel so lonely.. nv so lonely n heard b4.. even if my last time bf dump mi.. it's worst than tt.. cos i seethe team even more impt than mi life.. i place them ahead of mi.. mayb i haf not done enuff... mayb..
i feel so down to the bottom.. dunno i shld b wat when i see them ltr.. cant show them i m sad rite?continue to act happi? act nth happen? haiz... i reali dunno... juz wan to thanks butter, darling, dear, rach, qi.. for listening to mi..for being by my side.. thanks.. =) thanks mok for the msg u send mi tt day... u made mi feel alot better.. =) thanks...~!
aniwae i still wanna say.. hkn jia u ltr... mu reali CHIONG no matter how u all dun like mi.. cos jieqi says.. on court even enemy muz play as a team.. so put aside evryting on court.. off court then hate mi ba.. i dun wan to cry ltr... i cried too much le.. if possible i wan to smile all e way..
i juz wan to play kuai le de lan qiu.. is it so difficult? =(
