lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Sunday, May 28, 2006
-3:10 AM
i tot today was a great day for mi.. but it turn out to b the worst...
iwent to meet dear aft so long of not meeting up. i juz met her for lunch then got to go off for U14 training. during my lovel lunch i recieved a msg saying that they r unable to cum for our training. "....DAMN IT" was wat i sms back. we had training at 4pm initially, then . called mi to tell mi tt they r cuming the day b4.. n ask mi switch the training back to 6pm. i was so incredibly happi.. overwhelm~! then i settled everyting n on tt day 2 hrs b4 4pm, . sms mi n say they are not cuming le. n i've got to switch back training to 4pm bcos we do not haf enuff ppl to train. i called every1 but lots of them didnt pick up the phone. i tot it's ok since we haf the u14 ppls. but.... wat the ****! onli 2 turn up.. none of those whu not turning up tell mi. great. when i callled ppl to call them then they say parents dun allow.. but i did ask someone to confirm the no of ppl cuming le.. not there's onli 2 ppl!!! plus mi, ching hui n pebble.. we onli got 5 ppl.. IMAGINE 5 ppl trying to train? ok for coach side u shld noe his reaction. he SCOLDED mi for sure.. i hate to take all e blames when it;s not mi... i juz hate it... but we had fun despite all tt cos i was like crazy and we play half court. aft tt Tet n joyce came. sian. when we went to eat dinner, we past hkn cc court where e boys r training too, coach told us to suspend all our trainings. he's angry n i m too..
i cried but tis time i felt better as i haf decided on tings. ppl change n i noe. too tired to witness everyting le. i wish i m tt changing party n let them see how i feel rite now. it's no longer the same animore. i teared everytime i pass kallang.. memories juz came to mi.. i teared when i look at the stars.. as we say it's memories liao.. let it b memories.. good memories which i'll not forget.. thanks. =) so juz leave.. the moment u all got the thought of leaving.. everyting juz izzit the same animore.. we r juz not good for u all. once u all leave i'll not play ball animore. mayb for leisure but not as a team animore.. i'll leave for good. i'll not see ani bb match unless it's dear's. no more.. i'll leave quietly n make sure i wont b found by all of u.. mayb u all will say tt i'm selfish cos i didnt wan to let u all go..but u all are too.. aint u? u all came n shone us with hope.. u all once again burn my passion again... n now u all leave n took the light frm mi.. n make mi hate basketball.... i'm selfish too. i'm human. u al ask mi to join u all but i will join for the sake of u all but we aint the same animore... wat's the point? look at all of u.. haf u tot of our gang? NO. thanks for tt.. thanks for hurting mi. it's no longer tt gang le.
i had my wall pasted with a black board full of our gang's pics. the time when we had fun.. now i feel like tearing them apart. but i'll juz leave them there for the moment ba. i'm so tired. i'm trying to move on nw. dun bother mi, i wish i nv noe all of u. i wish u all nv had came.. but hope dear's not offended bt this... i'm not saying u. =)
ok.. my com is officially dead but revived for this moment onli.. mayb it took pity on mi n let to type ba.. hahaha... so i wont b blogging tt often cos muz see my com's mood de.. hahah aniting sms instead. thanks dear for comforting mi n pei mi tok on phone.. thanks.. =)
life's juz so weird.... memories can onli b memories.. can it b brought back? haiz.
