Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me

When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

Weiyan
A normal person whu had small dreams that will nv cum true. But she's still working hard towards it.

Nitendo DS

My very own medal

Watch

many clothes

Go overseas

New Num slipper

A great Bday Bash

-12:13 AM

I did not came to work for 2 days last week. Thurs and fri. Was sick. Down with fever and flu. Felt terrible but i still went dwn to watch Np guys match. Although almost die half way, but i m strong. Np guys lost to NYP. Could see they are quite unhappi abt it. But JIA U~! Dun gif up, the match is not over yet! there's stil 2 more to go. NP gals, JIA U too! Regardless of wat happen, JIA U.

Talk to gabriel and bobbie on msn. Gabriel tell mi that he wanted to quit aft Polite. I tink bobbie too. Although this was not my team animore, but this wasnt wat i wanted to see. A team which i wish i m in was in a state where all of them were unhappi and there's many backstabbing occuring. Oh man. Wat happen? I tot i can be freed frm all these when i m with them, but i found out tt it's impossible. It's like no matter where u are, where u go, how strong or weak the team, there bound to have problems like these. Haiz. Mayb i should juz stop tinking.

Ytd was Xin Fang's bday. We went bugis to shop. I bought someting. We had fun giving comments when phyllis and siewling tried on the designs of the T-shirts. The T-shirts were so cool and nice but it doesnt suit mi. sigh =( Siewling went to choose those so gay colors la! haha. Went Ma Maison to eat for dinner. Waited like half an hour for pekpek and ah qin to arrive b4 we start ordering. Aft the dinner, we went to eat the honeydew sago. Due to the lack of seats available, we ta bao and went to eat out the National Library. So funni la. I hope Xin fang did enjoyed herself, although i find her like fan-ing over smth. Hope u are alright, Xin fang! =) Aniwae, Happi Birthday~!

Today initially wanted to watch match but wasnt feelin too good. Properly i havent fully recover. haiz. Wanted to meet u but u cant. =( But i understand.

JIA U~! JIA U to u, JIA U to Np gals and guys, JIA U to hkn. JIA U everyone.

I tink i miss u already. =(


-8:11 PM

We are 2nd.!

-7:42 PM

Recently gone bonkers. Went paranoid, some say i'm over stressed. I duno. Juz felt so much like crying. I can just easily broke dwn for no reason. I juz kept crying. Team, work, friends are all tt's troubling mi. I dun wish to see ani1 leave the team. Ppl has been saying they are leaving aft youth cup. Mayb they didnt noe, it's not hkn i'm fan abt... it's all the ppl in there which i couldnt bear to see leaving. We were once so close, so united but as we grew stronger n older, all of us changed, including mi. All of them enters poly with a new prospect of life. Lookin in front of them is new friends and new teammates. Whu will actuali look back at those times we had tgt. But tt's human's nature. I kept looking back, I juz cant grow out of it. I cant grow up, i realised. I juz wish when time could go back. No matter wat, whenever all of u need help or need someone, do look back.. there's always someone whu's following bhind each and everyone of u. =) I wont stop ani of u frm leaving animore. If leaving is the best choice for all of u, juz go. Last sunday was the best match ever. Even thou all of u lost, But at least we did lead them once! So dun feel sad. I'm juz proud of all of u. Reali proud. =)

Trying to find the lost happiness in bball in np. I did found it. They were united. As playful n bonding as wat we used to haf. Love the coach but i realised, it's not my team. I cant get into them no matter wat. I still feel abit extra sometimes. They welcome mi but i juz feel so. Feel so lost n left out no matter where i m. I juz feel kinda of alone. Alone. I hate the feeling. But thanks you for being there when i need someone. Thanks for the eeyore. Thanks for everyting u had done for mi. =) I duno when i will stand up again, But i'll try. dun worri.
Work's kind of stress for mi cos i haf a big proj on hand but the dateline of issue is nearing. Somemore there's still other jobs for mi at the same time too. OMg. So tiring. But no OT for mi. cos i dun wan to OT! haha.

Ytd i had a bad dream, A nightmare. I forgotten wat i dreamt abt, but i woke up crying badly. Then the whole night i'm unable to sleep bcos i fear. i duno wat i fear but i m juz so scare. I onli remember i dreamt of the whole team. Then i dreamt i knelt b4 coach and cry, abit like begging him. then he like asking mi to leave. But the ting i m afraid of is not this, but a bottle of scary tings i m carrying. I rmb it's like smth bloody... ok forget it. The more i tried to rmb the more scary it is. OMG. Today got np trg but i not goin. making their tings.


-3:01 AM

Every single little tings has been tiring mi out recently. Mayb i finally had enuff. Cos he extinguished my flame. He cause mi lose passion of balling. I felt totally happy in NP bcos i could played freely with no stress n lao heng is always so encouraging. Ytd had training i could train cos i'm injured. I sat there and he kept scolding. The scoldings make mi feel fustrated! I ignored him. Suddenly i feel that i hate him to the core but at the end of the training, the way he tok to the players make mi feel better of him again. He always make mi feel tt way. Teammates has been telling mi abt leaving him, but it's not i dun dare or wat. But u all juz dun understand. =( I feel so sian.

Gedt away frm the unha[ppiness, let tok abt youth cup. Ytd then i noe tt if we win Combined schs by 1 pts, we'll b 2nd and if we win them by 8pts, we'll be champs!!!!! haha ALL the WAY mAteS!!! =) JIA U~!


-12:46 AM

Ytd hkn vs aljunied. we lost by 2 onli. Was leadin all e way but at the very last 5mins, we lost. Dunno wat the hell was all of them doin, some was like kanna dunno wat curse, the ball juz wouldnt go in.. -__- I was so disappointed. Everyone was sad, some cried, some was angry. So much emotion goin on make mi crazy! Was feeling rather dwn then went to eat dinner with them but i didnt eat aniting.. was kinda no appetite. They force mi to eat by dragging mi to the Duo jiang you tiao. In the end i ate there. To cheer bz up, they decided to walk geylang back lane. We saw so many "Public toilets" there. Then we went home. During the walk to Kallang MRT station, Pek msg mi... coach called mi. Coach starts scolding mi saying i nv guan the team properly. Then came pek's msg. Everyting was goin so fast in my mind. I nearly teared. I reali dunno wat to do. Someone juz saves mi frm this hell. Save mi~! I'm like STUCKED here.. Wat possibly can i do? i lost my passion for balls. i lost it.... He extinguish my flames...

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