lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Monday, July 16, 2007
-7:42 PM
Recently gone bonkers. Went paranoid, some say i'm over stressed. I duno. Juz felt so much like crying. I can just easily broke dwn for no reason. I juz kept crying. Team, work, friends are all tt's troubling mi. I dun wish to see ani1 leave the team. Ppl has been saying they are leaving aft youth cup. Mayb they didnt noe, it's not hkn i'm fan abt... it's all the ppl in there which i couldnt bear to see leaving. We were once so close, so united but as we grew stronger n older, all of us changed, including mi. All of them enters poly with a new prospect of life. Lookin in front of them is new friends and new teammates. Whu will actuali look back at those times we had tgt. But tt's human's nature. I kept looking back, I juz cant grow out of it. I cant grow up, i realised. I juz wish when time could go back. No matter wat, whenever all of u need help or need someone, do look back.. there's always someone whu's following bhind each and everyone of u. =) I wont stop ani of u frm leaving animore. If leaving is the best choice for all of u, juz go. Last sunday was the best match ever. Even thou all of u lost, But at least we did lead them once! So dun feel sad. I'm juz proud of all of u. Reali proud. =)
Trying to find the lost happiness in bball in np. I did found it. They were united. As playful n bonding as wat we used to haf. Love the coach but i realised, it's not my team. I cant get into them no matter wat. I still feel abit extra sometimes. They welcome mi but i juz feel so. Feel so lost n left out no matter where i m. I juz feel kinda of alone. Alone. I hate the feeling. But thanks you for being there when i need someone. Thanks for the eeyore. Thanks for everyting u had done for mi. =) I duno when i will stand up again, But i'll try. dun worri.
Work's kind of stress for mi cos i haf a big proj on hand but the dateline of issue is nearing. Somemore there's still other jobs for mi at the same time too. OMg. So tiring. But no OT for mi. cos i dun wan to OT! haha.
Ytd i had a bad dream, A nightmare. I forgotten wat i dreamt abt, but i woke up crying badly. Then the whole night i'm unable to sleep bcos i fear. i duno wat i fear but i m juz so scare. I onli remember i dreamt of the whole team. Then i dreamt i knelt b4 coach and cry, abit like begging him. then he like asking mi to leave. But the ting i m afraid of is not this, but a bottle of scary tings i m carrying. I rmb it's like smth bloody... ok forget it. The more i tried to rmb the more scary it is. OMG. Today got np trg but i not goin. making their tings.
