lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Monday, August 06, 2007
-5:03 AM
I've cried in front of my team again. I totally broke dwn. I've shouted as tears just rolled dwn my cheeks. I spoke of my heart. I spill everyting out tt day. I've told them wat i long to say so long. Some of them might b shocked ba. I've nv cried so badly in front of all of them b4.. I kept crying till my eyes are swollen. I just wish to be with all of them... why is it so difficult? I waited yrs n yrs without ani complains, but i'm tired le. I wanted to just leave, just quit and just stop ball for the rest of my life..I've made a major decision... I told coach tt day i wanted to quit. Noe wat? He scolded mi. Can i just choose the life i wanted to be in and stop being ur puppet? 7 yrs, there's reali gratefulness and thanks for bringing ball into my life but there's hatred too. I hate tt you used mi as a puppet. You are selfish and u wanted us as ur own. u totally neglect our feelings regardless that we are gals. You caused al my wonderful teammates to leave, leaving mi alone. You gave mi my wonderful teammates now but now history repeats itself again. Will i be alone again? I'm juz like ur caged up bird. U jus wouldnt let mi fly. Some say i dun haf the courage to fly. Yes i dun haf. I finally opened up my wings to tell u i wanted to leave, You juz haf to shout and i juz close my wings once again. Someone just free mi. Just open the cage and i'll my grateful. I couldnt cheer up animore. I couldnt motivate ppl animore. I'm just acting strong i noe. With my teammates with mi, i'm not afraid to brave all kinds of stuffs. All kinds of bullshits and toture he gave mi, but they're leaving. Some is leaving physically but some haf already left spritually. Can you just let mi go? Just let mi go. I kept crying, i wanted to be strong. i reali wanted. Mates ask mi to stand up aft i cry but i just nodded my head. I'm sorry i'm afraid i couldnt. I've tried to.. I'm tired, real tired.
I couldnt stand ur scoldings animore. I'm trying to be rebellious. I'm trying hard. someone help mi. =(
